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Just came back from a tiring but great badminton game with uncle. Sigh, I am too old for these shit. Now feel pain everywhere. That's sports btw, no pain no gain.
Just b4 i need to head back to the "Gym" to workout my brain, i decided to spend some time uploading my music player. Well initially i'm not so keen, but i guess it's a good way to express my feelings via music. Don't have any song yet, just one. it's the one where i pasted the lyrics. lol
will update as soon as i finish my exams...


Well, after the surrogate post, I decided to unveil some of mine in recent weeks. Things ain't going too well for me for the past few weeks. First it's my Analog Design lab assignment. it has been up and down. Lesson learn from this lab, is that you can't get perfect design. My advice as an IC Designer to all of you electronics out there, please don't put your life all on electronics, as they're never perfect though they're pretty advance now. Look at how toyota fall, good example.

Then my internship is kinda still hanging too. I had 2 interview, one which i really hope to get, failed to get and the other one no news yet. But I'm not worried bout it yet as I have still time to apply for one, and many other options throughout the world. Worst case is that i do my internship for free. So not to worry bout that.

As for my relationship, it has been in da downstream since after our pre-valentine celebration. We have been fighting for over small matters and it exploded. Almost killed our relationship. Now have left a big gap in between us. At least it had been settled and now we're in a recovery stage. Hopefully things will get better and nothing goes wrong again. Nevertheless, whatever happen to us or no matter how we curse each other, She's still the sweetest thing on earth. She's still the best thing that ever happen to me.








I was browsing our old pics, and I decided to post this up just to remind both of us that we've came a long long way back, and it would be a waste to throw everything away. More or less 8 years on and off we've been together, man.....thats long. the journey ahead is even longer, so don't give up baby.....


btw, this pic was a collage of our outing during my 2 months return to malaysia during summer 2006. She gets prettier as time goes by....

Surrogates

I always love to reflect movies with our own life. Of course alot of movie are inspired from our daily life, and some of them are based on true story. Naturally, to attract viewers, movies tend to exaggerate until a certain extend it is just too fake. Nontheless, you can still get some moral from movies.

I bet most of you have watched Surrogates. If you don't, i won't tell you the story as it will be like spoilers. It's a sci-fi and the summary is that people in the future can have their own surrogate, which is like an AI which looks exactly like human, and you sorta control it to do your daily routine. No supernatural power, just human. Of coz the advantage is that you won't get hurt since it's not ur real body.

The settings of surrogate might seem to be somewhere in the future, but i can tell you it's around us already. In fact everyone you see is a surrogate. Nobody is real nowadays. It's no longer a question of whether a person is wearing mask from his/her true identity or not, it's now the matter of how many layers.

Well, from my point of view, this "surrogates" has its bright side too. At least you can use it to camouflage your weaknesses in this cunning and cruel society, where only the strong one survives. As i believe everyone has their weak spot. A strong person is those who are good in hiding their weakness.

But i felt, the ugly truth of coz, is that surrogates has more ugly side than bright side. All those fake smiles, fake promises, fake compliment, it's just ugly and disgusting.

錢錢錢錢- Leo Ku 古巨基

星星閃 天空掛 它肯跟你回家
金光閃 心中掛 它可使你成家
山邊的鮮花 多姿多彩你愛嘛
它肯跟你回家 你怕硬幣很腥嘛
偏卻需要它
何時才挨完寒酸的身世 (你 如何換季)
冇冷氣要靠爛破風扇代替 (nononono……)
情在兩百呎空間發揮 但願別逼到下世
要兩老安居需要實際 (請你忍耐到底)
我有野心升職再上位 找生計
誰能避免講錢錢啊錢缺錢不可以 (才能活到寫意)
我需要新生活為孩子 (一世也有開支)
還天天洗腦聽了豪宅廣告千次
money 能鼓舞大志 money 會一世相依
勤勞賣力照顧老闆 故意加班放棄了玩
金睛火眼關注金價只要未盲
橫財利大那裡算貪 到處兼職放棄午
休息不計多與少財路多多可當老闆
講錢錢啊錢難道可天賜 看指數飆升百病能醫 (錢會照顧身子)
誰清高不說錢啊錢可搬到公廁
money 誰都說願意 money 名譽靠你去開始
貪多一點炒多一點追多一點渣多一點沽多一點搶多半個仙
爭多一點威多一點奸多一點險多一點賭多一點將分秒變錢
搏殺哪管得太多 (從前未好過) 現在誰斗膽去管我
建立王國無盡擴展大突破
很多人都讚我 (都怕我) 也附和 (要附和)
討教我 (討厭我) 要道賀 (要道賀)
務必要想要將要即要多到比那首富更加多……
講錢因有錢我更加得志 (誰助你去展翅)
我早已愛上數字
(You're such a fool such a such a fool)
財產多多到失去唯一的你 my dear money 回不到上次
lalalalalala…… 停下會掛念 那一天
背著面 你遂件 將衫褲晾遍 難遇見
你說我已變到不可一世 更說你吻我亦會感到忌畏
然後我 吃不到你手藝 望著大屋過份美麗
更怕我公司出了問題
我有我孤單焦慮到底 留下我獻世
誰能避免講錢錢啊錢缺錢不可以 (原為了更寫意)
我心重千斤卻為銀紙 (如像愛 未能買到天意)
誰都知這照妖鏡照出虛構真摯
money 難收買睡意
money 難收買情意
money ……… 會迷惑宗旨


you can't find any better song that describe the world now. Sadly, though i am quite good in enduring the ugly side of life, this issue is one thing i can't really get it.

Btw, if you wanna know my opinion on money, i'll expose it.
Money, to me it's important. One of the top in my priority list, but definitely won't shape the way i live my life.
I prefer to live happily even if I have to sacrifice lots of money. I felt it's a good trade off.

Need for Speed journey







Well, CNY wasn't much to talk about as this year was quite similar to what was last year, except the tone has been much quieter. I didn't even bother to go for deco snapshots as I am a lil disappointed at it in Melaka.

Anyway, the best part of the trip was the journey to and flo.

Let me define 2 very important parameters(in layman terms) : -
1.) Velocity(Speed) - how fast you are going at a long run.
2.) Acceleration - how fast you can achieve different speed

As you all probably know, my uncle has a Honda Accord EuroR edition, something you probably don't see in Malaysia, but quite a number of it in Singapore. First thing I notice is that the car has 6 gear transmission, but can only rav up to 180km/h according to the speedometer. Hmm, a 2.0 liter sports edition car only @ 180? it's kinda wrong. My Iswaralution can hit 200 max, before engine blow of course.

My uncle decided this time to go slow initially, as he doesn't wanna donate coffee to our Royal Police Department. Of course, there was a lil heavy traffic around Johor area and that adds the reason why he go kinda slow(110km/h). But along the way itself he's been tailgating and cutting left and right for a faster lane.

Then after about half hour stuck in those heavy traffic, then it goes smooth all the way and finally my uncle is fed up staying at his speed. Here we go. from 6th gear down to 3rd gear, the engine bursting sound and the sound of an acceleration. U gotta admit, though it's kinda "family saloon sports edition" Accord EuroR has a great acceleration, though it doesn't not have much of a speed. I would say it's a perfect car for roads in Malaysia and Singapore where u can achieve much in speed but i u can definitely need good acceleration to overtake tortoise kancil which has a big muffler but only fart without speed.



Well it's definitely a honda to look forward too.

The journey back was kinda similar except i manage to sleep half of the journey as i was kinda sick. I woke up only when my uncle starts shifting gears rapidly and overtaking cars. And I was lucky to wake up on time. What stole the show was this black horse








Of coz this picture was taken from google image. The one i saw was far more stylish as it was carbon-fibered body. This car have both acceleration and speed. Judging by the way he breaks, it should be an automatic car. Well of coz most of malaysian luxurious cars are automatic transmission. But u just can't see the effect of an automatic gear at all. It accelerate so smoothly. I was looking at my uncle's meter @ 160km/h but can still see this black horse drifting apart by split of second. About 3-4 seconds later, you can't even see the smoke from this car anymore. It's crazily powerful and fast.

It is now my Number 1 dream car!!

Downfall

I am blardy hell Moody and sick!

I've been too arrogant of myself these days. I thought I was at the peak of everything, but only to realize that it's just a temporary throne. Now I've been thrown out of it!

Now I'm bearing the pain! I am so so stuck with life at this point.

It's another 2 weeks to exams. I have not completed my lab assignment. I am down with flu and I don't know how healthy I am to study. Damn it. I am emo, real emo!

I want to get something, but i just cant afford it!!!

Life

How do you measure success? What is success? Success in what?
Chicken or Egg, Egg or Chicken, scientific explanation? or philosophical explanation?

There are questions and questions surrounding us, and some questions are always in running in circles, where the head is the tail and vice versa. So, now, is there a way to quantify those? Is there an absolute yes or no to those?

I like this so called "matrix of knowledge". It splits to four parts.

1.) The "known knowns" - which means, the thing that you already know and it's known.
2.) The "known unknowns" - the things that you know it exist, but you just don't know what it is.
3.) The "unknown knowns" - something you don't know but it is there.
4.) The "unknown unknowns" -things that you don't know and you don't even know that you don't know.

lolx, sounds abit difficult. But sadly it's fair to say that most of us are having more "unknowns unknowns". What we know is just so little, that most of the time we set an approximation or confidence level of acceptance.

In digital world, there are in general two values - the "ones" and "zeroes". But as an engineer, we know that there are no "absolute ones" or "absolute zeroes". When i studied science during my younger times, I always think that everything can be proven scientifically has an absolute "yes" or "no". At this Masters level, I start to realize that alot of things around us are just purely an approximation or in other words, a human self-defined "yes" or "no".

So you think it's exactly 4 o clock on 13th February 2010? what is 4 o clock? what is 4? what is o clock? is time absolute??!!!!

Think about it......
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