I'm finally done with my soft bound copy of my thesis. Its ready to be shipped on monday. It's been really a long way I came towards this point. I have lots of experience physically and mentally to share throughout this period of time, as well as some nostalgic feelings. But I guess that would take too much time and effort.
I just browse through some of the old post that I've written in the past. One that really caught my attention today was the post I wrote about being accepted to the Master program that I'm currently pursuing. I remember I applied this twinning program between Singapore and Germany as well as the full time local Singapore program. I got rejected by the local one but at the same time got accepted by this twinning program. Oh well, I did try to find an explanation for it. Since I am being accepted to this twinning which is even "harder" to get in actually because the admission board is at both NTU as well as TUM. For those who might not know TUM, it is one of the most elite Unversity in Germany and I think it's ranked around 50 over in the world. So I thought if it's not due to my qualification, it must be that the NTU admission board didn't quite understand the performance evaluation of my German bachelor degree. Since our grading starts from 1 being the best and 5 being the worse, with lots of step in between, I guess its understandable. But as time goes by, I start to feel there's this hidden reason behind my acceptance. Perhaps they hope that I'll join the twinning program because the fees are significantly higher and they can charge more? Or perhaps due to the program being relatively new, they want to have more students. But whatever reason it might be, I definitely benefit from this program. I'll explain a little below.
First of all, I will soon have a Master degree that have both logo from NTU and TUM, one of Asia's finest and one of Europe's finest degree. 2ndly, my grades are significantly good. If I can score well in my thesis, I'll most likely be in the range of the "1st class" portion. I'll go a lil deeper in this. We have lectures from NTU and TUM of course. And they'll do a conversion between the standard CGPA and the German ECTS credit system automatically for all the subjects regardless of where it is from. If you looked up in the internet, it is a fact that the ECTS system is somewhat higher standard because exams are generally harder. So in simple terms, to get a 1.0 in TUM is like u must have at least a brain power of a quad core processor. However, since my average in all my exams consists of grades from TUM as well as NTU, I'm now in the position of around 1.3. As long as my thesis don't go astray, I'll maintain between 1.0 - 2.0 grade. That's like superb! In other words, its the easy way out for me lol.
Anyway whatever grade I'll get, the main thing is I'm smelling the degree already. I suppose nothing will go wrong now. So I should be officially graduating this July. Great! Its time to reload my shotgun and start hunting for job. I still remember the feeling of finishing my bachelor thesis 2 year ago but that time was more intensified because it took quite a bit of delay and i was really relief to know it was over.
Well, 1 year living in Singapore and now back in Germany for about 5 1/2 months already. It was really a mixed feeling thingy. I had quite a lot of experience in both places. Despite the similarity between both countries in terms of technological and financial advancement, both countries have very different pace of lifestyle. In Singapore, I eventually get so used to walking so freaking fast and always try to be the first person to get up the bus. In Germany, it was the total opposite, although I'm so used to walking fast. My colleagues and friends around here couldn't bare with my speed.
I would love to talk some bout the highlights in both places as well as down moments. Sadly, I'm really not in a mood to do so. Just recently I felt there's a change of fate. Things really changed now. All I can say is that my decision to come back here in Germany brings lots of experiences as well as some sacrifices. I couldn't weigh which one is more, simply because the price I've paid was quite big. But well, if I have to be optimistic about it, I can only remind myself that my experience in Bosch will definitely decorate my resume to be more beautiful.
Notice that I've mentioned alot about new year's review and resolution, but only did and stopped at part 1. Partially, I'm lazy to move on with part 2 and 3. The other reason is just simply I don't have the motivation to it anymore.
Another long boring post.
Congrats to the Malaysian team for winning the AFF cup. I always love criticizing the under performed Malaysian team in all sports on world class stages, doesn't matter if it's ASEAN or world wide. Deep down in me, I still support them whenever they show hopes of winning it. Of course, No sportsman should've been awarded a title no matter what stage they won. Sports and politics should be separated by clean line.
Back to what I want to talk about. New year is coming real soon and the resolution post will be hopefully done either on the eve or next year. This post, its about gadgets and stuffs that i wish to have by end of next year. Well, I'm almost graduating already and hopefully my job hunt will be a smooth one. Doesn't matter where I end up working, I suppose I will have a salary that allows me to spend one way or the other. Else I'd save up for these target anywayz. Lets begin.
1. Facial Treatment
Crucial for me. Don't need to look handsome, just want to get rid of my pimples thats all. Facial can cost quite a bit, perhaps around few thousand ringgit?
2. Dental "face lift"
Its been a while I've been to a dental clinic and I know I have some ugly teeth and some unhealthy ones that I need a clean up. Estimated also around few thousand I guess.
3. Camera
Will not wipe out the possibility of DSLR, but would prefer those such as Panasonic GF-1 or the one from Sony. Another few thousand?
4. Ipad --- Competitors
My host had a collection of apple products and one of them is an Ipad. Of course I find it kinda cool and it was kinda interactive as we played Need for Speed together with him using Iphone and me using Ipad. I personally would prefer to play games with real hardcore processing machine like the console or PC, but it would be kinda fun if you host somebody and just let them play this kinda games with just tilting the device left or right. Know what i mean? Nothing against Apple though but I always felt Apple is charging too much for the amount of specs they put in and the limited programmability. Apple apps are cool and large variety of it, but nah I don't fancy those. I fancy the hardware and the ability to customize much more than what apple restricted. ASUS EEE tablet is one of those that I think might have a great potential.
5. Windows phone 7 based Smartphones
Again, why no iphone? again same reason as above. Limited hardware resources but charged a high price plus limited programmability. I fancy the idea of smartphones and being an electronic majored engineer, I understand quite abit of the inside and hence, i am not a big fan of iphone. Please, understand me. I don't hate apple, just prefer value for money gadgets.
6. IEM Earphones
My Shure is going to Kaputt totally. In fact its no longer pleasant to use it anymore as the cable is kinda loose now. So its time for a replacement. Ultimate Ears, Shure, Klipsch, Etymotic, erm what else? Whichever that sound nice. This should be the cheapest among the wish list. Say around 100Euro?
7. HD Media Player.
Assuming I have somehow a flat panel, doesn't matter if its Plasma or LCD or LED or 3D. Doesn't matter how many inch (minimum 25" la....at least a computer monitor). So, I would have a big collection of HD movies in a digital format. Of course I need an encoder to play it. I'm eyeing on the Western Digital one. Say around RM800?
8. Membership to a sports club
I don't know where I'd be working so I don't know what kinda sports club I'm talking here. But definitely it must have a swimming pool, sauna, basketball court or badminton or football or tennis. Gym is an added advantage, with instructor that would be icing on the cake.
9. Semi-acoustic Guitar & Lessons
Yes I might be a little old and I already have a guitar. But I'm still so damn interested in it and still have huge enthusiasm for improvement. WHy not a better guitar and lessons? Yamaha would do, but I don't mind Fender or Ibanez or others.
10. Powerful Desktop
Partially for games, partially for multimedia. Mainly as my working station. Why da hell do i need such powerful then? Of course, it would be an advantage if i can play all kinds of game with it and when i talk about computer, I do multi tasking. I like connecting multiple screens. Strictly speaking, I don't want just a desktop but a command center unit! Hmmm this....wonder how much it cost???
Well, it will change from time to time. and obviously I can't afford all by end of next year. Perhaps, the first 2 is my priority and the earphones too. Lets see how much of those I could afford.
Back to what I want to talk about. New year is coming real soon and the resolution post will be hopefully done either on the eve or next year. This post, its about gadgets and stuffs that i wish to have by end of next year. Well, I'm almost graduating already and hopefully my job hunt will be a smooth one. Doesn't matter where I end up working, I suppose I will have a salary that allows me to spend one way or the other. Else I'd save up for these target anywayz. Lets begin.
1. Facial Treatment
Crucial for me. Don't need to look handsome, just want to get rid of my pimples thats all. Facial can cost quite a bit, perhaps around few thousand ringgit?
2. Dental "face lift"
Its been a while I've been to a dental clinic and I know I have some ugly teeth and some unhealthy ones that I need a clean up. Estimated also around few thousand I guess.
3. Camera
Will not wipe out the possibility of DSLR, but would prefer those such as Panasonic GF-1 or the one from Sony. Another few thousand?
4. Ipad --- Competitors
My host had a collection of apple products and one of them is an Ipad. Of course I find it kinda cool and it was kinda interactive as we played Need for Speed together with him using Iphone and me using Ipad. I personally would prefer to play games with real hardcore processing machine like the console or PC, but it would be kinda fun if you host somebody and just let them play this kinda games with just tilting the device left or right. Know what i mean? Nothing against Apple though but I always felt Apple is charging too much for the amount of specs they put in and the limited programmability. Apple apps are cool and large variety of it, but nah I don't fancy those. I fancy the hardware and the ability to customize much more than what apple restricted. ASUS EEE tablet is one of those that I think might have a great potential.
5. Windows phone 7 based Smartphones
Again, why no iphone? again same reason as above. Limited hardware resources but charged a high price plus limited programmability. I fancy the idea of smartphones and being an electronic majored engineer, I understand quite abit of the inside and hence, i am not a big fan of iphone. Please, understand me. I don't hate apple, just prefer value for money gadgets.
6. IEM Earphones
My Shure is going to Kaputt totally. In fact its no longer pleasant to use it anymore as the cable is kinda loose now. So its time for a replacement. Ultimate Ears, Shure, Klipsch, Etymotic, erm what else? Whichever that sound nice. This should be the cheapest among the wish list. Say around 100Euro?
7. HD Media Player.
Assuming I have somehow a flat panel, doesn't matter if its Plasma or LCD or LED or 3D. Doesn't matter how many inch (minimum 25" la....at least a computer monitor). So, I would have a big collection of HD movies in a digital format. Of course I need an encoder to play it. I'm eyeing on the Western Digital one. Say around RM800?
8. Membership to a sports club
I don't know where I'd be working so I don't know what kinda sports club I'm talking here. But definitely it must have a swimming pool, sauna, basketball court or badminton or football or tennis. Gym is an added advantage, with instructor that would be icing on the cake.
9. Semi-acoustic Guitar & Lessons
Yes I might be a little old and I already have a guitar. But I'm still so damn interested in it and still have huge enthusiasm for improvement. WHy not a better guitar and lessons? Yamaha would do, but I don't mind Fender or Ibanez or others.
10. Powerful Desktop
Partially for games, partially for multimedia. Mainly as my working station. Why da hell do i need such powerful then? Of course, it would be an advantage if i can play all kinds of game with it and when i talk about computer, I do multi tasking. I like connecting multiple screens. Strictly speaking, I don't want just a desktop but a command center unit! Hmmm this....wonder how much it cost???
Well, it will change from time to time. and obviously I can't afford all by end of next year. Perhaps, the first 2 is my priority and the earphones too. Lets see how much of those I could afford.
I told myself no matter what I have to write a new year's review and resolution but now its not the time yet I suppose. Well, I think I should update myself regarding the things I've done this few days and some parts of my emotional experience.
As some of you might know, I am back in the area where I did my Bachelor degree. The journey was really one of its kind, never experienced that before. The flight was cancelled due to heavy snow hence the shut down of the airport. No one to blame for that, as its caused by the weather. But what leaves us frustrated was that there was only one counter open for the refund or alternative routes, and the few person before me took damn long to settle their stuff and i'm not very sure what are they demanding about. It was kinda lucky for us since we're travelling within germany and so we are able to get complementary train tickets. Personally I prefer to travel via train within the nation as I don't have to go through all those hectic procedure to check in 1 hour earlier and travel to airport etc etc. So it was great for me to get the train.
So I manage to reach Duesseldorf safe and sound. I was really suprised to see such a thick snow covering the streets and the rail track. Was one of its kind and never in my 4 years I've seen such snow. No wonder they close the airport. It was also a mess for the trains as there were delays and train cancellation due to the blockade of the tracks.
On the good side, I had a good Christmas. On that day itself, we had a pot luck party involving some Malaysian students from the senior batch to the latest freshies. Of course, I was the Si Si Si Senior among them haha. On one hand I was kinda envy that they had such big community now compare to my time where I was the only one with the braveheart to come alone here. On the other side, I'm glad that the network is finally expanding and it would be great for the next few generation of Malaysian students here. It was one of those party where we never drank alcohol, suits me alot. We drank those alcohol free beer from Edinger and Becks. We had great food such as Duck a la Oranje, Mui Choi Kau yok, Bak ki, shrimps with corn, char kuey tiao, curry chicken, mix vege and dessert like Tiramisu, fruit cocktail and some spanish pudding. Then we had some chat and lots of singing. It was the first time I touched the guitar in this year I suppose and I'm surprised I still have the knack for that. Partially it was the guitar. Yamaha semi acoustic, very beautiful sound and the strings were easy to press. There were another two or three guy who can also play guitar and we were just having fun jamming. I think if i had such big bunch of Malaysian friends during my studies, it would have been more fun. But it was a great experience for me too anyway during my time. I'm glad to meet up with some old friends of mine.
Thats all for now!
As some of you might know, I am back in the area where I did my Bachelor degree. The journey was really one of its kind, never experienced that before. The flight was cancelled due to heavy snow hence the shut down of the airport. No one to blame for that, as its caused by the weather. But what leaves us frustrated was that there was only one counter open for the refund or alternative routes, and the few person before me took damn long to settle their stuff and i'm not very sure what are they demanding about. It was kinda lucky for us since we're travelling within germany and so we are able to get complementary train tickets. Personally I prefer to travel via train within the nation as I don't have to go through all those hectic procedure to check in 1 hour earlier and travel to airport etc etc. So it was great for me to get the train.
So I manage to reach Duesseldorf safe and sound. I was really suprised to see such a thick snow covering the streets and the rail track. Was one of its kind and never in my 4 years I've seen such snow. No wonder they close the airport. It was also a mess for the trains as there were delays and train cancellation due to the blockade of the tracks.
On the good side, I had a good Christmas. On that day itself, we had a pot luck party involving some Malaysian students from the senior batch to the latest freshies. Of course, I was the Si Si Si Senior among them haha. On one hand I was kinda envy that they had such big community now compare to my time where I was the only one with the braveheart to come alone here. On the other side, I'm glad that the network is finally expanding and it would be great for the next few generation of Malaysian students here. It was one of those party where we never drank alcohol, suits me alot. We drank those alcohol free beer from Edinger and Becks. We had great food such as Duck a la Oranje, Mui Choi Kau yok, Bak ki, shrimps with corn, char kuey tiao, curry chicken, mix vege and dessert like Tiramisu, fruit cocktail and some spanish pudding. Then we had some chat and lots of singing. It was the first time I touched the guitar in this year I suppose and I'm surprised I still have the knack for that. Partially it was the guitar. Yamaha semi acoustic, very beautiful sound and the strings were easy to press. There were another two or three guy who can also play guitar and we were just having fun jamming. I think if i had such big bunch of Malaysian friends during my studies, it would have been more fun. But it was a great experience for me too anyway during my time. I'm glad to meet up with some old friends of mine.
Thats all for now!
Was about to update last week until something really stupid came up that took my time away. Oh well, long story and all i can say is I'll be hell busy again and so i guess i'll update less. Perhaps when i have the mood, i'll talk about it.
Anywayz, after missing last week's basketball, this week resumes. It was a great game but today was like kinda less people. we played 3 on 4, and I was on the 3 side. As usual, game started slow for me, as i missed simple lay up which i can close my eyes and do few years back. Since we are playing fullcourt, they also agree that we're not allowed to shoot the ball from outside the paint unless it's a 3pt shot. My outside shooting today was good but too bad they have that rule lol. But still, despite being the handicap team, we put up a show. Mainly because in our team, there's like this guy who can run all over the court and he's tall and fast. He always gets the steal. Another guy who can shoot n dribble towards the court. While me, I was on fire today, not just outside shooting but penetrating the net. I did moves like double clutches though it looks ugly, and i went reverse lay up, no look pass and the highlight was one fast break moment. I was dribbling down the court, and it was a 2 on 1 situation. I saw my teammate open, and usually i'll pass to him. But i decided to go all the way myself. As soon as i get closer to the rim, the defender came over to me. I spin the ball behind my back, acting as if i'm gonna pass. Then the defender hop to my teammate, and at that instant I spin the ball back my waist, and lay it up. 2 points!!! that was the thing of the day! Everyone was cheering for that. It was my first time too that I manage to do those tricks in a real game against somebody who's larger and knows basketball.
Well, i like to talk big about myself recently, but u know me well. Deep inside me, i just felt like I'm a tiny man. NO balls! Really. I always felt I'm smooth because when I'm on I can joke and talk. But recently my lameness really disappear and each time i see the mirror of my blardy bombarded pimple face, I really felt so low. Is there anyway to look good without having good looks? Teach me please.
I guess all for now.
Anywayz, after missing last week's basketball, this week resumes. It was a great game but today was like kinda less people. we played 3 on 4, and I was on the 3 side. As usual, game started slow for me, as i missed simple lay up which i can close my eyes and do few years back. Since we are playing fullcourt, they also agree that we're not allowed to shoot the ball from outside the paint unless it's a 3pt shot. My outside shooting today was good but too bad they have that rule lol. But still, despite being the handicap team, we put up a show. Mainly because in our team, there's like this guy who can run all over the court and he's tall and fast. He always gets the steal. Another guy who can shoot n dribble towards the court. While me, I was on fire today, not just outside shooting but penetrating the net. I did moves like double clutches though it looks ugly, and i went reverse lay up, no look pass and the highlight was one fast break moment. I was dribbling down the court, and it was a 2 on 1 situation. I saw my teammate open, and usually i'll pass to him. But i decided to go all the way myself. As soon as i get closer to the rim, the defender came over to me. I spin the ball behind my back, acting as if i'm gonna pass. Then the defender hop to my teammate, and at that instant I spin the ball back my waist, and lay it up. 2 points!!! that was the thing of the day! Everyone was cheering for that. It was my first time too that I manage to do those tricks in a real game against somebody who's larger and knows basketball.
Well, i like to talk big about myself recently, but u know me well. Deep inside me, i just felt like I'm a tiny man. NO balls! Really. I always felt I'm smooth because when I'm on I can joke and talk. But recently my lameness really disappear and each time i see the mirror of my blardy bombarded pimple face, I really felt so low. Is there anyway to look good without having good looks? Teach me please.
I guess all for now.
today I skipped BBA for many reasons. Certainly weather is one of it. But the consolation was that I get to watched the El Clasico. I feel sorry for Mourinho, such a highly anticipated game turn ugly. Barca don't just play like a team, they act like a team too. Proven when Ronal-f**kingdo pushed the manager Pep. While losing 3 or 4 up, things turn really ugly. Really bad losers. I pity Messi, been hamburgered, sandwiched, squashed. Poor thing. Real Losers! But, being much of a Barca supporter in this match, 5 goals with lots of action and fight, was great to watch. Haven't been watching such high standard football since the Germany Argentina and England match. I missed out on MU's 7-1 crush game.
Recently I've been really moody and emotional. In office, there are some guys with their typical thinking, really show obvious signs that they don't like Aliens like us walking around their office. One of them is a group leader, driving a BMW. Looks very typical German, act like one too. Oh well, he better get used to it as I will be in the office for another 5 months anyway. I'm really gladful to have a supervisor that doesn't give much pressure on me, and always encourage me to attend important things in the office. As intern, we're not required but he always wanted me to attend all the group and department meetings. Last Wed I was late and i missed it, but I was told he apologized to the whole group for my absence. Erm, I'm just a trainee guy there. Right now, I'm doing my thesis and I'm not even consider as an employee anymore. I am now a fulltime student with the permission to use their facilities. Erm, to clarify further, an intern is consider as an employee, with fixed working hours to fulfill and "allowance". Whereas for Thesis student, we're not required to work for certain hours and our monthly pay is consider as a grant for fulfilling our Thesis in a company. they judge based on the academic level how much to give, and divide it by how many months I'll be here.
Back to Bosch. Erm, yes despite virtually having high hopes from my supervisor for me to stay, unfortunately he's not the person with the power to hire. One "hidden" rule is that, you have to speak fluent German on top of English. I'd be honest, I have been far much quieter while I'm in office, mainly due to the language barrier. I can speak German, and can quite understand well, but I'd say my level is just around 3-4 out of 10. Barely enough to survive in a high quality company. Perhaps u might think, there's not much need of an engineer to speak, wrong! Most of the job posted requires great communication skill as our projects are always between departments to departments. Even my thesis, the layout are done by layout experts. My task is to instruct the experts how I want it to be done, and that requires a great communication skills. I was lucky enough that the layout expert dealing with my project is doing his training as he works for Bosch India and speaks only English. The indian style of course.
So, as much as I would love to have a few more years of experience in Bosch, I doubt my chances. I've submitted my papers for the career day this Saturday, but receive no official invitation from them. That means, I'm uninvited to go. Too bad. But I am quite optimistic that by the time I grad, jobs will be waiting for me. With a Master Degree from one of the best in Asia and Europe, plus a great deal of experience in Bosch, I believe jobs will come to me in a great economy condition. Just hope no recession during that time. As much as I felt being capable of doing a PhD, I think i'll leave the head damage aside. I'm really looking forward for all these academic stuff to end. I am honestly a lil sick of studying, though i know it's a neve ending cycle.
Anyway, to end this post. I'd just have to say....It's already the end of 4th Month I'm here, and another 5 to go. Hooray! Erm, deadline will be the week before Christmas for my Design, and things are going quite well at the moment. Then, it will be my Christmas break with some of my old friends in Duisburg. Yeah! Looking forward.
Recently I've been really moody and emotional. In office, there are some guys with their typical thinking, really show obvious signs that they don't like Aliens like us walking around their office. One of them is a group leader, driving a BMW. Looks very typical German, act like one too. Oh well, he better get used to it as I will be in the office for another 5 months anyway. I'm really gladful to have a supervisor that doesn't give much pressure on me, and always encourage me to attend important things in the office. As intern, we're not required but he always wanted me to attend all the group and department meetings. Last Wed I was late and i missed it, but I was told he apologized to the whole group for my absence. Erm, I'm just a trainee guy there. Right now, I'm doing my thesis and I'm not even consider as an employee anymore. I am now a fulltime student with the permission to use their facilities. Erm, to clarify further, an intern is consider as an employee, with fixed working hours to fulfill and "allowance". Whereas for Thesis student, we're not required to work for certain hours and our monthly pay is consider as a grant for fulfilling our Thesis in a company. they judge based on the academic level how much to give, and divide it by how many months I'll be here.
Back to Bosch. Erm, yes despite virtually having high hopes from my supervisor for me to stay, unfortunately he's not the person with the power to hire. One "hidden" rule is that, you have to speak fluent German on top of English. I'd be honest, I have been far much quieter while I'm in office, mainly due to the language barrier. I can speak German, and can quite understand well, but I'd say my level is just around 3-4 out of 10. Barely enough to survive in a high quality company. Perhaps u might think, there's not much need of an engineer to speak, wrong! Most of the job posted requires great communication skill as our projects are always between departments to departments. Even my thesis, the layout are done by layout experts. My task is to instruct the experts how I want it to be done, and that requires a great communication skills. I was lucky enough that the layout expert dealing with my project is doing his training as he works for Bosch India and speaks only English. The indian style of course.
So, as much as I would love to have a few more years of experience in Bosch, I doubt my chances. I've submitted my papers for the career day this Saturday, but receive no official invitation from them. That means, I'm uninvited to go. Too bad. But I am quite optimistic that by the time I grad, jobs will be waiting for me. With a Master Degree from one of the best in Asia and Europe, plus a great deal of experience in Bosch, I believe jobs will come to me in a great economy condition. Just hope no recession during that time. As much as I felt being capable of doing a PhD, I think i'll leave the head damage aside. I'm really looking forward for all these academic stuff to end. I am honestly a lil sick of studying, though i know it's a neve ending cycle.
Anyway, to end this post. I'd just have to say....It's already the end of 4th Month I'm here, and another 5 to go. Hooray! Erm, deadline will be the week before Christmas for my Design, and things are going quite well at the moment. Then, it will be my Christmas break with some of my old friends in Duisburg. Yeah! Looking forward.
It really cheer me up while reading the short comments regarding toothbrush and baseball bat. Luckily they both haven't seen my joystick yet. so can't compare mine lol.
Jiwang is back. I've never been using this word since the post where u can find jiwang. Should I explain it again? Nah, I guess those who read will understand anywayz.
First, lets talk about the small little BBA I had, which is a routine Monday thingy. BBA stands for Bosch Basketball Association. Today, we are short of 2 players but still play 4 on 4 full court. My legs till now are shivering, after such tiring game. Initially all went wrong, My shots either didn't reach the basket all was just blocked. It lasted like that for almost half hour. Finally they call for break. While they have their small little chat, I took the ball and keep shooting. Finally found my rhythm again. It was woop, swoosh, dong dong swoosh and the highlight of my game was the fancy no look behind my back alley oop pass. If that guy were a little taller, I think he'll tear the rim apart already lol.
Now the negative from the game. I believe basketball is called contact sports for a reason right? The whole game, I never called a foul because I want the game to flow. I had been fouled few times, especially a small guy like me trying to penetrate the zone with those big guys inside. But I choose to keep quiet. Just let the game flow aint? NO. Every small click of the hand, FOUL. Before you even know what's happening, FOUL. This is really boring. Don't like it at all. C'mon, some even have their arm bigger than my thigh, GDI! But overall it was still quite enjoyable.
Now the emo part comes. As u know, I have to walk home after games n today was extremely long journey home as I was feeling so tired. But I had lots of flashbacks. It was dark of course, little cars flowing around. I used to be some night crawler too. I am different night crawler, as in I am not those who club or hang late and become drunken Master. But I rmb, since I have my freedom, I hang out in mamak till late night, go for pool games, basketball sometimes with the BASEBALL BAT i remember in Puchong, of course with the TOOTHBRUSH too lol. Even my holidays in Malaysia everytime I came back during summer, I had lots of great memories just hanging out in the mamak or simply watching movies. It's different now. I know, I am always those guy who's always in second gear and dragging. But, I really felt so nostalgic about it. Nobody is willing to have some midnight bball anymore, or just sit down talking to u for 4 hours in a mosquito heaven place. It's either everyone gets too bored and decided to go home, or everyone rather go drink and get drunk. Like I said, I've nothing against people who drink. I do like to have 1 or 2 just for a chill, but I don't prefer. I know clearly I don't have the DNA of alcohol too anywayz. Can't drink much.
One thing I like about Germany is that, if you are with the right person, whether its winter summer or whatever, you enjoy just sitting outside the park, feeling the cold breeze and stare at the beautiful star studded sky. It doesn't have to be a romantic one. I remember having those moments with my Malaysian friends, guys mostly. I guess its fair to say, we all come from a long way, and we knew exactly how it is to be in a foreign land, while all our close ones are back home. Sadly, I am just too alone here I can't find myself enjoying. Seriously, don't question my ability to make friends, its really the people around me aren't clicking. Perhaps u can accuse me for being too picky, but I wouldn't force myself on things I don't really like. At least I still have my Autobahn internet, and can still watch movies and stuff. Not bad at all.
Life, is like living in a dream within a dream.
Jiwang is back. I've never been using this word since the post where u can find jiwang. Should I explain it again? Nah, I guess those who read will understand anywayz.
First, lets talk about the small little BBA I had, which is a routine Monday thingy. BBA stands for Bosch Basketball Association. Today, we are short of 2 players but still play 4 on 4 full court. My legs till now are shivering, after such tiring game. Initially all went wrong, My shots either didn't reach the basket all was just blocked. It lasted like that for almost half hour. Finally they call for break. While they have their small little chat, I took the ball and keep shooting. Finally found my rhythm again. It was woop, swoosh, dong dong swoosh and the highlight of my game was the fancy no look behind my back alley oop pass. If that guy were a little taller, I think he'll tear the rim apart already lol.
Now the negative from the game. I believe basketball is called contact sports for a reason right? The whole game, I never called a foul because I want the game to flow. I had been fouled few times, especially a small guy like me trying to penetrate the zone with those big guys inside. But I choose to keep quiet. Just let the game flow aint? NO. Every small click of the hand, FOUL. Before you even know what's happening, FOUL. This is really boring. Don't like it at all. C'mon, some even have their arm bigger than my thigh, GDI! But overall it was still quite enjoyable.
Now the emo part comes. As u know, I have to walk home after games n today was extremely long journey home as I was feeling so tired. But I had lots of flashbacks. It was dark of course, little cars flowing around. I used to be some night crawler too. I am different night crawler, as in I am not those who club or hang late and become drunken Master. But I rmb, since I have my freedom, I hang out in mamak till late night, go for pool games, basketball sometimes with the BASEBALL BAT i remember in Puchong, of course with the TOOTHBRUSH too lol. Even my holidays in Malaysia everytime I came back during summer, I had lots of great memories just hanging out in the mamak or simply watching movies. It's different now. I know, I am always those guy who's always in second gear and dragging. But, I really felt so nostalgic about it. Nobody is willing to have some midnight bball anymore, or just sit down talking to u for 4 hours in a mosquito heaven place. It's either everyone gets too bored and decided to go home, or everyone rather go drink and get drunk. Like I said, I've nothing against people who drink. I do like to have 1 or 2 just for a chill, but I don't prefer. I know clearly I don't have the DNA of alcohol too anywayz. Can't drink much.
One thing I like about Germany is that, if you are with the right person, whether its winter summer or whatever, you enjoy just sitting outside the park, feeling the cold breeze and stare at the beautiful star studded sky. It doesn't have to be a romantic one. I remember having those moments with my Malaysian friends, guys mostly. I guess its fair to say, we all come from a long way, and we knew exactly how it is to be in a foreign land, while all our close ones are back home. Sadly, I am just too alone here I can't find myself enjoying. Seriously, don't question my ability to make friends, its really the people around me aren't clicking. Perhaps u can accuse me for being too picky, but I wouldn't force myself on things I don't really like. At least I still have my Autobahn internet, and can still watch movies and stuff. Not bad at all.
Life, is like living in a dream within a dream.
It's already the final part of November, but i can say i am still hung over the great holidays i had in May - July, as well as some magical moments throughout my time in Singapore. Since I was 19, I have to say I am always doing things alone, living life myself. Not that I have no friends, in fact I am so glad I do have real friends, because i don't think i am able to walk down the road being really alone. What I mean alone, is that I am always apart from family and friends. I made new friends of course, but sometimes it's not just so easy to move along.
People who know me, they will think I have a strong mentality and principles. I don't get easily influence by people. Even I used to think that way. But recently, I start re-evaluating myself. I realize I am far worse than I thought. Sometimes when you're always alone, walking the streets yourself, you tend to have more time to think about stuffs. Especially when there's this cold breeze blowing through your face, makes you wake up from dreams.
I always thought I have my own character. It's my personality. I don't mind being the minority. In fact in many situations I am the minority. But now i realize, I am trying hard to be someone. The someone is not just one person, it's a little bit of everyone. In another words, I think I've messed up my whole character building stuff. I might be trained as an engineer, who's suppose to be brilliant in new ideas. Unfortunately, I am not those brilliant engineers. I am good at bring pieces from other people's work and stuff it together to create something i called new. But this ain't new right? Just like my "unique" character i was once proud of. Now i realize, my so called unique, is just bits and pieces of other people's work. I am walking not just behind one person's shadow, i am walking behind alot of people's shadow.
I am nobody.
People who know me, they will think I have a strong mentality and principles. I don't get easily influence by people. Even I used to think that way. But recently, I start re-evaluating myself. I realize I am far worse than I thought. Sometimes when you're always alone, walking the streets yourself, you tend to have more time to think about stuffs. Especially when there's this cold breeze blowing through your face, makes you wake up from dreams.
I always thought I have my own character. It's my personality. I don't mind being the minority. In fact in many situations I am the minority. But now i realize, I am trying hard to be someone. The someone is not just one person, it's a little bit of everyone. In another words, I think I've messed up my whole character building stuff. I might be trained as an engineer, who's suppose to be brilliant in new ideas. Unfortunately, I am not those brilliant engineers. I am good at bring pieces from other people's work and stuff it together to create something i called new. But this ain't new right? Just like my "unique" character i was once proud of. Now i realize, my so called unique, is just bits and pieces of other people's work. I am walking not just behind one person's shadow, i am walking behind alot of people's shadow.
I am nobody.
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