Just a little update that i wanna put it down here. Work wise, I am getting more workload day by day and I am starting to fill that I am contributing. Yesterday, I was trying to understand the root cause of a project bug and i discover it might lead to something more serious in the design. Though it's still initial stage, but I'm glad that i made a slight contribution to that. This project I am working on is going to be closed soon and immediately after that I will be put on another project. I believe it wont be long before I will have the chance to do some real design work.
Put work aside, I have a little good news to share. During my thesis, I have heavily taken part in the design of a conceptual analog to digital converter chip plus the test board for the chip. My supervisor sent us an email on the initial measurement and both the chip is working and the board is working. My hard work and sacrifice to go to germany paid off and now I can put inside my CV for that! He haven't measure the performance yet and he told me the board needs to do some bug fixing, but hey, it is working that means the core architecture is functioning well. I can never believe I have designed a working chip! Good start and hopefully in my new career I am able to do so too. Hope one day I can write patents! Sadly I am no longer in Germany to celebrate with my team there.
Back to singapore. Tomorrow will be my first day of the 8 week fitness training offered by my company. It will involve some techniques that can be done at home to build up the body, which include push ups sit ups stuff, plus kick boxing etc. I am looking forward definitely. But one thing concerns me is my health as I am having soar throat plus a lil of dizzyness today. I am not sure if I am fit for tomorrow but I will bring my gear there. I hope to keep in good condition throughout this week too because Oliver's wedding is coming!!!
Now the emo part. Still pretty much sad almost wherever I go. Almost every part of Singapore gave me sweet memories and till now I still think that those trips were a great achievements for us. But I think I am just clapping with one hand. How can the peanut outings in Singapore compare to UK? For her, I believe nothing beats what she've seen in UK. Not even a single moment we spent. Well that shows the difference in our point of view in life. I have always mentioned, a great trip depends primarily on the person we go with, and location is just a fill up factor. Thats why in me, the best memories are still those time I spent with her regardless where. Could even be as close as around our home. It's sad huh to know that what appears to be the best for you isn't really quite the best on the other side. What's even worse is that what you believe to be the best moments is just shit to the other party. That's like the ultimate killer.
I don't know if I did post up the origami roses arranged into a heart shape birthday card I've made for her 2 years back. I get reminded of that because last week I was folding it in office while waiting for my simulations and my colleagues saw it. They were so impressed and all of them ask me to teach them. One even said, you're really multi talented and with this you should be able to kill lots of girl's heart. Deep inside me, I was laughing like laughing kor lol! Well, i forgot to mention he's already above 35 so probably during his days this kinda things work well with girls. Nowadays you see girls going out with guys who've no emotion at all, and always "abuse" their girlfriends but yet those dumb girls are so obsessed with them that they get so loyal. Girls love bad boys this is the fact. No point having all this romantic skills. No use at all. You just need a big dick and a bad attitude to get girl's heart. This is the fact. Sometimes really I do doubt whether those effort I've put in to make all this DIY gifts really worth it or not? 10 years down the stretch, I just can't recall how many of those I've did already. But in the end, it doesn't even matter.
Anyway, it is over. How many times I have to remind myself about that? I guess the answer is forever because I think it takes forever for me to recover. I am moving out of my comfort zone. I finally decided to move out of Jurong area where I am so comfortable with. There are a few factors which leads to this decision despite having to sacrifice approx 1/3 of my salary for my new room. First of all, I need a change. Call me kolot, but I think it's time to try a new environment. I might get lucky there who knows. Second to that, I don't want to cause more inconvenience to my uncle. It is just a matter of time I have to move and why not sooner in conjunction with a new change. Thirdly is of course I have no time for myself wasting all the time travelling to my office and back. Moving to a place much closer to my office is definitely a good choice. Some other minor factors are not worth mentioning here but made contribution to the decision as well.
That's all for now. Just a question to myself - Will I find a real lifetime partner in the future or nobody wants me that I will be alone forever?
Sigh...it's kinda depressing to ask question to oneself like that....life sux!
