I am almost free of health problems. Apparently I'm not going to be deaf any soon. Went to see the doctor today as I can't wait till Monday. Doctor found some obstacles somewhere inside my ear. No, it's not wax, but something else. Hard to explain here, but anywayz the fact is that I can hear perfectly now again!! Wuhuu...!!! The funniest thing is, when the doctor removed the obstacles, and then he asked me how to I feel now with a normal tone, I was shocked because suddenly i can hear properly again, I felt he was shouting at me...lolxx!!
Doctor also said the headache had nothing to do with the ear blockage either, and the cold. So I guess it was purely because I wasn't sleeping regularly last week. It could be also under stress and emotional problems. I am still stuck with my project. Man, wireless power transmission is not easy task. I have to find ways to overcome the losses of energy to the air. Efficiency is my main priority.
Now that my mood is getting much better, I am free to blog happy stuff again!!! Man, I really love science and Engineering now, and I start to feel that I've chosen the right course. The only setback is that Engineering don't have many pretty girls lolx. Even those 3 hongkong girls I met the other day are here for summer business school. sigh. I'm so gay in a gay course.
Man it's really freakishly scary to lose some of your hearings just like that. Really! At one point I was going to give up on music assuming that I will be deaf soon. Today everything is clear and I'm going to pick up my guitar and strum as loud as i can till neighbor complain the hell out of me!!!!
I've been having headaches alot recently. Not just the headache, it's also the cold. It's still there and it has already been there for 3 weeks. WORST thing is, my right ear now is 50% deaf. I am starting to worry that it might be something serious. I guess it is something serious, since it also affects the nerves of my ear. I am going to be deaf soon, and if it is what I am thinking off, I might be dead soon....
Sorry for being so negative here...but I can't think of any other reason why this is happening besides serious illness.
Sorry for being so negative here...but I can't think of any other reason why this is happening besides serious illness.
I just found out that alot of my friends also read my blog although they don't leave comments nor in the chatbox. I just wanted to say thank you, and keep reading it ya. It gives me more motivation to update.
Well, I can't always make prank and not talking about my life here as most of my friends want to know more updates about me through my blog.
Anywayz, some updates.
Nothing much lately. The more I think of home, the more I felt I've missed out too many stuff. I'm starting to worry that I'll feel strange when I go back to Malaysia. Again, it's only 5 months to come, and I'll be home, probably for good. But I don't feel the excitement like I do 3 years ago. I mean, most of my friends are already grown up, most of them have their partners already, and most of them are busy with work, and some still busy with final year of studies. I don't think we can have fun anymore like last time, hanging out late at night, play basketball at 2am in the morning, watch movie like crazy, sigh.
On Sunday, I've attended a bbq party in Malaysian friend's house. His currently working here and already have a family. They're going to Japan for business trip for 2 months, and the bbq party is sort of a short farewell to them. I've got to meet more Malaysians there which I haven't knew them before. When you're in a place like Germany where most Malaysians won't choose this place to further their studies(due to the language), you'll actually feel happy to meet more malaysians. Of course there're some germans and 2 chinese there, and they wonder why a typical malaysian holding a camera will take photos of food eh?? Anywayz, there's this 2 malaysian guy(shit forgot their names di), they both studying in UTP and came here for internship for 6 months in Siemens. I knew them late, and they will be going back to Malaysia in 1 months time. Sigh, so fast eh. Makes me feel more desperate to go home.
Yesterday I went to the cinema to watch Speed Racer. It was suppose to show in English as we bought the Original Version ticket, but due to some technical problems the first 15 mins is in German. We were quite pissed off at first, but one guy came in and told us the problem, and told us also that we can claim a full refund. After the 15 mins, the show turned back to English. We watched the whole movie, and also took the refund. So basically it wasn't that bad eh?? Get to watch movie for free, and all in all we do understand the German part too. Man, do more of this, and i'll be delighted to go to the cinema more often lolx.
After the movie, while waiting for bus I met 3 girls. They were speaking Cantonese and that sparks up my curiosity. I mean, I've never met any hongkee here and I've only met 1 from Guang Zhou so far. It's been a long while since i practice my Cantonese, except chatting with Kelsen via skype or talking to the waiter in the restaurant. So I went approach these 3 girls, and we had a nice chat for 15 mins. They are here for summer school, and they were kinda cute. Too bad I din have my camera with me, nor I didn't ask them for telephone. Nah, not interested in them actually, just wanted to meet more people especially from Hongkong or Taiwan or Japan.
Nevertheless, these situation tells me something, I'm actually not that bad in communication. I just need to have the guts to approach people. Also, I was too shy to approach anyone here because I suck in German and I don't want to make a fool out of myself. So I guess I should be more confident in myself and bring out the Guts!!!
Recently I've been also thinking of the things I've done in these 2 years. I don't know why the closer I'm coming back, the more things I'll think of. I sometimes do ask myself is the decision made 1 year ago right or wrong?? It's a 2 way thingy actually. If I wouldn't have made the decision, I'll have the happyness I used to have. But I also felt that the decision was made because I'm willing to sacrifice the happyness for other's benefit. But now, since the decision is made, I have to live with it. Just have to remember why the decision had been made and that gives me the motivation to move on with it.
Maybe what I've mentioned here is abit too abstract, but if anyone reads it, thanks for reading it. It's also a big sacrifice to read such boring post like this one lolx.
Well, I can't always make prank and not talking about my life here as most of my friends want to know more updates about me through my blog.
Anywayz, some updates.
Nothing much lately. The more I think of home, the more I felt I've missed out too many stuff. I'm starting to worry that I'll feel strange when I go back to Malaysia. Again, it's only 5 months to come, and I'll be home, probably for good. But I don't feel the excitement like I do 3 years ago. I mean, most of my friends are already grown up, most of them have their partners already, and most of them are busy with work, and some still busy with final year of studies. I don't think we can have fun anymore like last time, hanging out late at night, play basketball at 2am in the morning, watch movie like crazy, sigh.
On Sunday, I've attended a bbq party in Malaysian friend's house. His currently working here and already have a family. They're going to Japan for business trip for 2 months, and the bbq party is sort of a short farewell to them. I've got to meet more Malaysians there which I haven't knew them before. When you're in a place like Germany where most Malaysians won't choose this place to further their studies(due to the language), you'll actually feel happy to meet more malaysians. Of course there're some germans and 2 chinese there, and they wonder why a typical malaysian holding a camera will take photos of food eh?? Anywayz, there's this 2 malaysian guy(shit forgot their names di), they both studying in UTP and came here for internship for 6 months in Siemens. I knew them late, and they will be going back to Malaysia in 1 months time. Sigh, so fast eh. Makes me feel more desperate to go home.
Yesterday I went to the cinema to watch Speed Racer. It was suppose to show in English as we bought the Original Version ticket, but due to some technical problems the first 15 mins is in German. We were quite pissed off at first, but one guy came in and told us the problem, and told us also that we can claim a full refund. After the 15 mins, the show turned back to English. We watched the whole movie, and also took the refund. So basically it wasn't that bad eh?? Get to watch movie for free, and all in all we do understand the German part too. Man, do more of this, and i'll be delighted to go to the cinema more often lolx.
After the movie, while waiting for bus I met 3 girls. They were speaking Cantonese and that sparks up my curiosity. I mean, I've never met any hongkee here and I've only met 1 from Guang Zhou so far. It's been a long while since i practice my Cantonese, except chatting with Kelsen via skype or talking to the waiter in the restaurant. So I went approach these 3 girls, and we had a nice chat for 15 mins. They are here for summer school, and they were kinda cute. Too bad I din have my camera with me, nor I didn't ask them for telephone. Nah, not interested in them actually, just wanted to meet more people especially from Hongkong or Taiwan or Japan.
Nevertheless, these situation tells me something, I'm actually not that bad in communication. I just need to have the guts to approach people. Also, I was too shy to approach anyone here because I suck in German and I don't want to make a fool out of myself. So I guess I should be more confident in myself and bring out the Guts!!!
Recently I've been also thinking of the things I've done in these 2 years. I don't know why the closer I'm coming back, the more things I'll think of. I sometimes do ask myself is the decision made 1 year ago right or wrong?? It's a 2 way thingy actually. If I wouldn't have made the decision, I'll have the happyness I used to have. But I also felt that the decision was made because I'm willing to sacrifice the happyness for other's benefit. But now, since the decision is made, I have to live with it. Just have to remember why the decision had been made and that gives me the motivation to move on with it.
Maybe what I've mentioned here is abit too abstract, but if anyone reads it, thanks for reading it. It's also a big sacrifice to read such boring post like this one lolx.
So, EPL is over. CL is over. Most of the football league had come to an end for this season. Managers are now scouting around, preparing to do their huge shopping spree. Summer trip is also coming, and lets hope the blardy meleisian garvamant dont' ban any teams just because they wear too sexy?? haha...
No, they haven't done it before. But what's funny is that I've recently read Thestar online about some letters saying that our girls school uniform too sexy?? Now I start to wonder was my puberty late or I'm just having too high taste, how home I don't feel that they're sexy at all?? lolx..So maybe in SPM next year, if the essay question topic is "causes of premarital sex and rape"...you know what is the key point eh??
But yeah, I was deeply attracted to a girl during high school. So maybe what they say is true also eh?? Nah, I was attracted to her not just of her appearance(but yes some part of it), but mainly her unique character. Speaking about her, I just had a conversation with her via long distance call. Only able to chat for 40 mins as she have to sleep early for work. Nah, don't want to talk much bout this, but just want to say I owe her a big apology. Actually I also know an apology doesn't do any good now, but just if i don't do anything then I'm a big bastardo.
Anywayz I had a long weekend starting from Thursday. It was a public holiday and a company's holiday on friday. Weekends are usually off day so a total of 4 days. What have I done so far in these 2 days?? I watched heeps of 超级星光大道 from season 2 and season 3. I always like high quality singing competition, although they are also quite commercialized. But if compare, American Idol is much more commercialized, and I felt alot of judgement from AI are quite bias in some ways. I don't deny the Taiwan's Millionstar also have these situation, but I felt less about it. But anywayz who am I to judge? Don't shoot me ok if i said something wrong. Anywayz, what makes me so interested in this show?? Firstly, I love chinese music. I just realized that I have only 0.1% knowledge in Chinese music. They're more than those I've heard in recent years. But you gotta know, I start loving chinese music only since David Tao's 2003 soul power concert. secondly, I love singing, just that I sux. thirdly of course i love 自弹自唱. And some of them are really good at that. Can learn from them.
Sometimes I even get myself too into this show. Currently it's season three and everytime there're new episodes(which is every friday) I'll watch it. They have to eliminate 1 candidate every episode. Sometimes it also makes me sad to see them leave in tears, but who am I to feel sorry for them anywayz. I don't even know them. But this episode, they eliminate a person whom everyone likes cause of his sense of humor. Normally the eliminated candidate leave crying, but he is really good in controlling emotion, and still able to joke. The best part is he dare to confess his feeling to another contestant just before he leaves. I mean, he has the guts man!! This is what I am really lack of, and I don't think I'll even dare to confess my feelings out for years to come.
Ahh, shit I'm getting more emotional now. Blardy shit, NONONONONO!! No more same old emotional Doug. Get rid of those!!
No, they haven't done it before. But what's funny is that I've recently read Thestar online about some letters saying that our girls school uniform too sexy?? Now I start to wonder was my puberty late or I'm just having too high taste, how home I don't feel that they're sexy at all?? lolx..So maybe in SPM next year, if the essay question topic is "causes of premarital sex and rape"...you know what is the key point eh??
But yeah, I was deeply attracted to a girl during high school. So maybe what they say is true also eh?? Nah, I was attracted to her not just of her appearance(but yes some part of it), but mainly her unique character. Speaking about her, I just had a conversation with her via long distance call. Only able to chat for 40 mins as she have to sleep early for work. Nah, don't want to talk much bout this, but just want to say I owe her a big apology. Actually I also know an apology doesn't do any good now, but just if i don't do anything then I'm a big bastardo.
Anywayz I had a long weekend starting from Thursday. It was a public holiday and a company's holiday on friday. Weekends are usually off day so a total of 4 days. What have I done so far in these 2 days?? I watched heeps of 超级星光大道 from season 2 and season 3. I always like high quality singing competition, although they are also quite commercialized. But if compare, American Idol is much more commercialized, and I felt alot of judgement from AI are quite bias in some ways. I don't deny the Taiwan's Millionstar also have these situation, but I felt less about it. But anywayz who am I to judge? Don't shoot me ok if i said something wrong. Anywayz, what makes me so interested in this show?? Firstly, I love chinese music. I just realized that I have only 0.1% knowledge in Chinese music. They're more than those I've heard in recent years. But you gotta know, I start loving chinese music only since David Tao's 2003 soul power concert. secondly, I love singing, just that I sux. thirdly of course i love 自弹自唱. And some of them are really good at that. Can learn from them.
Sometimes I even get myself too into this show. Currently it's season three and everytime there're new episodes(which is every friday) I'll watch it. They have to eliminate 1 candidate every episode. Sometimes it also makes me sad to see them leave in tears, but who am I to feel sorry for them anywayz. I don't even know them. But this episode, they eliminate a person whom everyone likes cause of his sense of humor. Normally the eliminated candidate leave crying, but he is really good in controlling emotion, and still able to joke. The best part is he dare to confess his feeling to another contestant just before he leaves. I mean, he has the guts man!! This is what I am really lack of, and I don't think I'll even dare to confess my feelings out for years to come.
Ahh, shit I'm getting more emotional now. Blardy shit, NONONONONO!! No more same old emotional Doug. Get rid of those!!
Congratulations to all the MANCHESTER UNITED fans all around the world. A shocking lost in FA Cup was bad, but still a double in hand. 1999 spirit lifted once again. I was watching at home streaming with Adrian and Tharsis. Was suppose to watch in big screen, but couldn't make it. Anywayz....We're the champion!!!
GLORY GLORY MAN UTD!!!!!!
GLORY GLORY MAN UTD!!!!!!
lets take a break from all those pranks and recipe post. It's been also a while I do updates bout myself. Recently things have been going up and down. Firstly my camera arrived. The camera is an old model but have good features. The newer versions of it's family have higher resolutions and some additional function, But the price goes double. I personally won't use more than 3MP and I don't need those extra function, especially the wider LCD screen. Wider Screen means more battery consumption. Overall very satisfied with it.
As for my job, it's been up and down. I've made some mistakes in my design and causes my PCB board to work on and off. But now, it's working except that I only prove in order to power up the system, I need more Solar Cells connected. Now I'm ready to start my new task, which is Wireless Power Transmission. Basically I have to design a circuit which charges a Laptop-like battery via wireless voltage source. This is going to be a very interesting but difficult task. The good news is that I am working with a partner so I don't have to worry about making mistakes. It really gives me more confident. I am a very dependent person, but of course I've learned alot in being more independent.
Tharsis is back from Malaysia. We had like a meal on Friday together and we had like a small guitar jamming session on Thursday. As you all already know from my previous post, my other friend left his Electric guitar for us to use. However both of us were like Acoustic Guitar based, therefore we couldn't find the proper way to play the Electric Guitar. Thars also bought me 0.11 Acoustic guitar strings from D'addario. It's high quality stuff. I'm currently learning how to play with a plectrum. Sound better though.
Now here comes the bad news. I've been down with cold last 2 weeks. The biggest thing is, I had nose bleed on Thursday twice and on Saturday. I also discover blood in the mucus. Freaked me out really badly. Search internet for information about it. Although most internet pages would say that Nose Bleed is very common and blood in mucus especially having a cold is simply due to infection, but there could be a slight chance of more serious illnesses such as nose cancer, leukemia and so on. I decided to see a doctor, but the doctor only say it was infection and gave me antibiotic. Although I'm more relief now, but once in a while I'll still think of those serious illness. It's only the second day I'm taking the medication I know, but I'm very desperate to see results. There is still blood in my mucus. Well pray hard that I am fine.
Besides health problem, everything is going in a right direction. Hopefully I'll get better soon.
As for my job, it's been up and down. I've made some mistakes in my design and causes my PCB board to work on and off. But now, it's working except that I only prove in order to power up the system, I need more Solar Cells connected. Now I'm ready to start my new task, which is Wireless Power Transmission. Basically I have to design a circuit which charges a Laptop-like battery via wireless voltage source. This is going to be a very interesting but difficult task. The good news is that I am working with a partner so I don't have to worry about making mistakes. It really gives me more confident. I am a very dependent person, but of course I've learned alot in being more independent.
Tharsis is back from Malaysia. We had like a meal on Friday together and we had like a small guitar jamming session on Thursday. As you all already know from my previous post, my other friend left his Electric guitar for us to use. However both of us were like Acoustic Guitar based, therefore we couldn't find the proper way to play the Electric Guitar. Thars also bought me 0.11 Acoustic guitar strings from D'addario. It's high quality stuff. I'm currently learning how to play with a plectrum. Sound better though.
Now here comes the bad news. I've been down with cold last 2 weeks. The biggest thing is, I had nose bleed on Thursday twice and on Saturday. I also discover blood in the mucus. Freaked me out really badly. Search internet for information about it. Although most internet pages would say that Nose Bleed is very common and blood in mucus especially having a cold is simply due to infection, but there could be a slight chance of more serious illnesses such as nose cancer, leukemia and so on. I decided to see a doctor, but the doctor only say it was infection and gave me antibiotic. Although I'm more relief now, but once in a while I'll still think of those serious illness. It's only the second day I'm taking the medication I know, but I'm very desperate to see results. There is still blood in my mucus. Well pray hard that I am fine.
Besides health problem, everything is going in a right direction. Hopefully I'll get better soon.
Sometimes I just find it really rude to call someone Pork Chop. I mean we all know it is one of those term we used to call girls who're not pretty. Honestly, I don't have the quality myself to comment on other people's look. Besides, I really don't understand why Pork Chop is used as a metaphor to comment on ugly girls, look how beautiful Pork Chop can look...
Lolx. I don't know what to call it actually, but since the sauce is barbecue sauce with wine, so I should call it the "Babi Mabuk Chop". lolx. This time I give myself an 8/10 for the looks and 7/10 for the taste. I won't write a recipe on how i did it, since I'm not qualified for that yet, but I'll just rougly say what I've done. Marination is something I can't run away. I marinated it with Salt, pepper, abit of wine, and grilling spices(which can be found so commonly here) for 2 hours. Put it on a non-stick pan for 3 minutes each side, and flipped it for 2 times coz I want it to be super cooked. At first I thought it'll be super tough coz all these while I cooked chop/steak it'll be like rock or chewing gum. This time turns out perfectly tender and soft. For the sauce, I used those barbecue sauce available on the market, but added some water and wine and the residues of the steak after being removed from the pan. bring to boil, and serve. Decorated wif some tomatoes and shallots. I also sprinkle some sugar on the tomatoes to have a better taste(this is what Kar Sang taught me).
So Sheng Wa, I know it's impossible to give a grade since u need to taste it first, but how bout the looks?? how much you give in the scale of 10??
Lolx. I don't know what to call it actually, but since the sauce is barbecue sauce with wine, so I should call it the "Babi Mabuk Chop". lolx. This time I give myself an 8/10 for the looks and 7/10 for the taste. I won't write a recipe on how i did it, since I'm not qualified for that yet, but I'll just rougly say what I've done. Marination is something I can't run away. I marinated it with Salt, pepper, abit of wine, and grilling spices(which can be found so commonly here) for 2 hours. Put it on a non-stick pan for 3 minutes each side, and flipped it for 2 times coz I want it to be super cooked. At first I thought it'll be super tough coz all these while I cooked chop/steak it'll be like rock or chewing gum. This time turns out perfectly tender and soft. For the sauce, I used those barbecue sauce available on the market, but added some water and wine and the residues of the steak after being removed from the pan. bring to boil, and serve. Decorated wif some tomatoes and shallots. I also sprinkle some sugar on the tomatoes to have a better taste(this is what Kar Sang taught me).
So Sheng Wa, I know it's impossible to give a grade since u need to taste it first, but how bout the looks?? how much you give in the scale of 10??
Sheng Wa, I couldn't get like what you did over there...but I'll still post some pics of what I've done....
I used a bowl to contain it, so all the sauce falls below the meat. That's why it looks abit dry.
In my opinion, it looks ok. But the taste is abit average. It's like the salt, pepper, tomatoes and the wine doesn't mix together, but I can taste those elements are present. Maybe it's because I didn't let it cook long enough??
But wuddaya say sheng wa?? out of 10?? i need a 1 to pass(as i've mentioned before i only need 10%)...
I used a bowl to contain it, so all the sauce falls below the meat. That's why it looks abit dry.
In my opinion, it looks ok. But the taste is abit average. It's like the salt, pepper, tomatoes and the wine doesn't mix together, but I can taste those elements are present. Maybe it's because I didn't let it cook long enough??
But wuddaya say sheng wa?? out of 10?? i need a 1 to pass(as i've mentioned before i only need 10%)...
I know this sounds abit 无聊， but just feel like doing some pranks....
Anywayz, Shengwa...here's the plan....
First of all, of course you need a very nice empty lot to station our "bachelor's Corner" mamak stall...
I figure out since we're Engineers and have everything to do with the Hi-tech society, so here it goes...
Now, we've already got the location....we have to start thinking of the menus...well in order to still keep the concept of mamak stall, I'll just improvise the food already available...
Let's get rid of the old traditional Roti Canai we have,
Instead....
The whole new Roti Electric...
Guarantee it'll Electrify your taste bud....
Then we'll have to throw Roti Tissue away.....
And implement...
Roti Robot....it does all the job for you inside your mouth!!!
Then forget about Mee Goreng......
Introducing the
Wayar Goreng!!!!
It's so good you can even eat it on it's own..!!
That's part of the menu....
Everyone loves Teh Tarik don't they??
I figure out it's a bad idea to remove the teh tarik, so we'll keep that..but we'll fill up wif
these..
After all we're Engineers!!
Hmm...what else we need??
I figure out some mamak already have super hi-tech plasma TV screen for football match. So I guess we need something more special...
Let's use Hologram TV instead....wuahhh!!!!
So, we've everything needed to start the business eh??
But people want certification...like SIRIM.....ISO9001...watever....
So we have to get the MSC status!!!
HUHAAA!!!!!
Anywayz, Shengwa...here's the plan....
First of all, of course you need a very nice empty lot to station our "bachelor's Corner" mamak stall...
I figure out since we're Engineers and have everything to do with the Hi-tech society, so here it goes...
Now, we've already got the location....we have to start thinking of the menus...well in order to still keep the concept of mamak stall, I'll just improvise the food already available...
Let's get rid of the old traditional Roti Canai we have,
Instead....
The whole new Roti Electric...Guarantee it'll Electrify your taste bud....
Then we'll have to throw Roti Tissue away.....
And implement...
Roti Robot....it does all the job for you inside your mouth!!!
Then forget about Mee Goreng......
Introducing the
Wayar Goreng!!!!It's so good you can even eat it on it's own..!!
That's part of the menu....
Everyone loves Teh Tarik don't they??
I figure out it's a bad idea to remove the teh tarik, so we'll keep that..but we'll fill up wif
these..
After all we're Engineers!!Hmm...what else we need??
I figure out some mamak already have super hi-tech plasma TV screen for football match. So I guess we need something more special...
Let's use Hologram TV instead....wuahhh!!!!
So, we've everything needed to start the business eh??
But people want certification...like SIRIM.....ISO9001...watever....
So we have to get the MSC status!!!
HUHAAA!!!!!
First of all, to all the fellow Manchester United fans, congratulations! We did it again. The Red Devil unleashed!! Now it's the Moscow game we have to look forward to, but even as a MU fan, I have not much confidence in them. Just hope luck will be with them.
My mom have been asking me to find more options around the world to do my masters. Of course I'll look first on those filed of my interest, and then the tuition fees. Of course if i have a chance to do my Masters here in Germany, it'll be a win-win solution. First of all, I've been here for blardy hell 4 years, and though I am still truly a Malaysian, truly Asian, but I have to admit the life here is not bad at all. Minus those entertainment and 吹水 opportunities I am going to miss, everything is still perfect here. Secondly, although we get one of the best education standard when it comes to Engineering, we pay much less than any other European/Australian/American countries. Previously it was free all over germany, but now they implement a 500 Euro per semester. 3rdly, as I said, Germany is one of the best place to study Engineering. 10 aunties will immediately say "oh doing engineering ah??" when my mom told them her most adorable son is in Germany.
But I also felt like changing environment. I'm considering Asian countries like Taiwan or mainland China. Of course it'll be also a dream come true if i can do it in the states or other European countries, but $$$ factor!!
Speaking about money, I'm really lack of business cell in my blood. As an example, the other day we had lunch in a Chinese Restaurant. The total for 3 of us is 30.60euro, but I was holding a 30euro cash on my hand. I was jokingly telling the boss I only have 30, and he accept it also happily without asking me for the 0.60 cents. I felt guilty actually coz I can afford it, but wtf?? I'm getting benefit from them, I should be more thick skin. Of course this is only an example. There're more to proof that I suck in business. Shengwa, you might wanna think twice on the mamak stall plan after u saw this post...
My mom have been asking me to find more options around the world to do my masters. Of course I'll look first on those filed of my interest, and then the tuition fees. Of course if i have a chance to do my Masters here in Germany, it'll be a win-win solution. First of all, I've been here for blardy hell 4 years, and though I am still truly a Malaysian, truly Asian, but I have to admit the life here is not bad at all. Minus those entertainment and 吹水 opportunities I am going to miss, everything is still perfect here. Secondly, although we get one of the best education standard when it comes to Engineering, we pay much less than any other European/Australian/American countries. Previously it was free all over germany, but now they implement a 500 Euro per semester. 3rdly, as I said, Germany is one of the best place to study Engineering. 10 aunties will immediately say "oh doing engineering ah??" when my mom told them her most adorable son is in Germany.
But I also felt like changing environment. I'm considering Asian countries like Taiwan or mainland China. Of course it'll be also a dream come true if i can do it in the states or other European countries, but $$$ factor!!
Speaking about money, I'm really lack of business cell in my blood. As an example, the other day we had lunch in a Chinese Restaurant. The total for 3 of us is 30.60euro, but I was holding a 30euro cash on my hand. I was jokingly telling the boss I only have 30, and he accept it also happily without asking me for the 0.60 cents. I felt guilty actually coz I can afford it, but wtf?? I'm getting benefit from them, I should be more thick skin. Of course this is only an example. There're more to proof that I suck in business. Shengwa, you might wanna think twice on the mamak stall plan after u saw this post...
She's a teacher. She's a part time accountant. She's the one who takes care of all the house work. She's the one who takes care all the expenses of our family. She's the one who will check our homework and make sure that we don't spend too much time on TV.
During primary school, she'll spend plenty of time sitting beside me seeing me doing my homework. I find it super annoying. For her, 100 marks is my duty, 90 marks is fail! Getting into the best class is my responsibility, and not getting into it means I've entered hell.
During secondary, she'll be the one deciding what I'll go for. She wants me to learn chinese, which honestly I hate it like shit. I am super restricted to only a RM5 per day for pocket money. I seldom had a chance to go for outing such as movie or shopping. Even if I do, where da hell do i get the money from?? She allow me for a basketball game, but limited to only 2 hours a day.
She used to hate all my friends, everyone. She thinks that I am very easily influence by people. She thinks I'm not strong enough. Whenever I lied, or I did a mistake, she'll sure think that it is because of influence. She strongly against me having a relationship, and honestly till now I don't even know why.
During those time, I really hate what my mom is doing. I don't understand why she's so damn strict and so blardy conservative. I don't understand why she forces me to do things which I don't even like, example learning Chinese and Piano. She wants me to be gay or something?? Whenever I'm with a girl, a normal girl-friend, she'll ask who's she la..blablabla....but when I'm wif guy, NO. Won't ask!
Since I came to germany, I finally understand everything. If it wasn't her, I won't be in Germany anyway. Not just because she supports me financially, it's because if it wasn't her strict education, I would have been a samseng and end up selling VCD on the streets. She exposed me to music through Piano, which is very helpful to my music understanding. It wouldn't have been so easy to pick up guitar on my own if I didn't have any basics in piano. And now I really want to re-learn piano because it's a wonderful instrument. If it wasn't her that force me to learn chinese, I won't get to enjoy so much chinese entertainment such as the variety shows, HK drama, music, getting to communicate with my chinese friend over here, and most importantly, I get to know more pretty chinese chics because I am able to communicate with them easily :)
Mom, if given a second choice of who should be my mom, I'll still choose you to be my mom.
I love you mom, Happy Mothers Day.
During primary school, she'll spend plenty of time sitting beside me seeing me doing my homework. I find it super annoying. For her, 100 marks is my duty, 90 marks is fail! Getting into the best class is my responsibility, and not getting into it means I've entered hell.
During secondary, she'll be the one deciding what I'll go for. She wants me to learn chinese, which honestly I hate it like shit. I am super restricted to only a RM5 per day for pocket money. I seldom had a chance to go for outing such as movie or shopping. Even if I do, where da hell do i get the money from?? She allow me for a basketball game, but limited to only 2 hours a day.
She used to hate all my friends, everyone. She thinks that I am very easily influence by people. She thinks I'm not strong enough. Whenever I lied, or I did a mistake, she'll sure think that it is because of influence. She strongly against me having a relationship, and honestly till now I don't even know why.
During those time, I really hate what my mom is doing. I don't understand why she's so damn strict and so blardy conservative. I don't understand why she forces me to do things which I don't even like, example learning Chinese and Piano. She wants me to be gay or something?? Whenever I'm with a girl, a normal girl-friend, she'll ask who's she la..blablabla....but when I'm wif guy, NO. Won't ask!
Since I came to germany, I finally understand everything. If it wasn't her, I won't be in Germany anyway. Not just because she supports me financially, it's because if it wasn't her strict education, I would have been a samseng and end up selling VCD on the streets. She exposed me to music through Piano, which is very helpful to my music understanding. It wouldn't have been so easy to pick up guitar on my own if I didn't have any basics in piano. And now I really want to re-learn piano because it's a wonderful instrument. If it wasn't her that force me to learn chinese, I won't get to enjoy so much chinese entertainment such as the variety shows, HK drama, music, getting to communicate with my chinese friend over here, and most importantly, I get to know more pretty chinese chics because I am able to communicate with them easily :)
Mom, if given a second choice of who should be my mom, I'll still choose you to be my mom.
I love you mom, Happy Mothers Day.
This week was a good week for me. First I did a lab and i answered the question session well. Our group got the maximum points. Then, I clearify some stuff with the examination office over my total credit points I should have, which is now correctly settled. So, I'm on my track to graduate. Then I've just signed the Project contract wif the same institute, doing a new task related to wireless power transmission. Engineering is fun, really.But you know what, I had it all planned. If i can't find a good job, I'll just end up doing this......
Mamak Stall with a B.s.c Degree wei?!!! Btw, i don't have a MIT degree, just for entertainment purpose. Shengwa, are you wif me?? maybe we can name our Mamak Stall --Bachelor's corner...we can name our roti like....Roti Laplace, Roti Poisson, Roti Gaussian, Roti Integral...
maybe not..
anywayz, more bout the good news. My internship officially ended last week, but I can't get my PCB board to work. I blew up the boost converter and therefore the whole circuit doesn't work. I tried to do many changes, but it still doesn't work. I even thought of giving up. But today I've finally get the board to work, and already written 50% of the program. I just need to debug, test again and i'm finally done with board.
But you know, it was all because of my bad attitude, the lack of self confidence. Many of my friends told me the same thing, that is to be more confident. They all told me that I have lots of talents and ability, I just have to show it out bravely that's all. So.....I'll try eh...
First of all......
I've basic knowledge in Photoshop.....
This is one of my fave masterpiece, since it features one of my fave movies, n ma 2 best bros...and i think it's well done...Like the old traditional saying....I can be consider as 文武双全....I am above average when it comes to academic, and I'm also around average when it comes to sport...
I'm somehow talented in Music...eh??
Maybe more of a poser, but nevertheless I can still play basics of guitar and "piano"....I am open minded and have some great sense of humor...eh???
don't this pic make u guys laugh ur ass out?? or disgusted??
what else?? I have more i'm sure....
errr...let me think....c'mon think hard......errrr....errrrr...
arghh!
Trust me...I'll come back wif more!!
Douglas, you must stop humiliating yourself with all those disturbing pics. Haha, actually I did those pic to waste time and of course to bring joy to those reader out there. Since I knew the basics of Photoshop, I should do more pics to practice my Photoshop skill. As you can see, I seldom write Emo post these days. I have to say this, I agree with the traditional saying, that time will heal any emotional wound. In addition, getting busy is a catalyst for this healing process. Due to my busyness, I actually have less time to Emo, and generally became more cheerful.
But hey, I'm still me. Now that I'm done with my Internship and have a lil time to slack, I start having more emo moments again. But not to worry, it's not as painful as it used to be.
You know, I don't have a habit of writing diary. But as I've mentioned before, I'm a person who can remember those memories very well. Any big event that happen during primary/secondary school seems to me like it just happened yesterday. But most of the time, I only picture it as an image in my brain and only occur for a short period. During those time, a digicam will cost a bomb and it's impossible to snap all those moments using analogue cam. Therefore the pictures during those time I have are quite limited.
From now on, I'll try my best to record down every event that happen, either in still picture or motion picture, or both. I'm going to start shopping again. I sold my digicam last year due to some financial crisis. But now, I'm going to get a mid class cam. Especially during my last few moments (probably) in Germany as a student. I mean, of course I'll have the chance to visit Germany again when I work, but then it'll be different. That will be another chapter of life.
I want to capture all the best moments of life!!!!
But hey, I'm still me. Now that I'm done with my Internship and have a lil time to slack, I start having more emo moments again. But not to worry, it's not as painful as it used to be.
You know, I don't have a habit of writing diary. But as I've mentioned before, I'm a person who can remember those memories very well. Any big event that happen during primary/secondary school seems to me like it just happened yesterday. But most of the time, I only picture it as an image in my brain and only occur for a short period. During those time, a digicam will cost a bomb and it's impossible to snap all those moments using analogue cam. Therefore the pictures during those time I have are quite limited.
From now on, I'll try my best to record down every event that happen, either in still picture or motion picture, or both. I'm going to start shopping again. I sold my digicam last year due to some financial crisis. But now, I'm going to get a mid class cam. Especially during my last few moments (probably) in Germany as a student. I mean, of course I'll have the chance to visit Germany again when I work, but then it'll be different. That will be another chapter of life.
I want to capture all the best moments of life!!!!
Just a lil short post to release my boredom and loneliness. I had a chat wif my parents today. They really wanted me to attend my bro's convocation. Unfortunately, I can't. I really wish I could. But I still have some stuff to complete before going home. Again, I blame myself for all the delay. I would have done everything early and able to see my bro graduate. Man, now he's Dr Chin already.
Besides, 2 of my friends went home Malaysia last week. All of a sudden I had this Midvalley image on my brain. Why Midvalley instead of other landmark of KL, coz Midvalley is where I usually hang out most since it's just around the corner of seputih, especially during secondary skul. Man looking at everyone's graduation picture makes me think back on our primary/secondary/college life. Can't believe most of us are now stepping into the working class. Remember those time we'll only wait for 1 class during secondary skul, which is the PE class. During that day, we'll bring gel/pump/our own football/basketball and some will bring soccer boots though most of the stuff are not allowed to. I remember clearly during form 4/5 that we had our PE class after Moral class. And Puan Yap always complain that we don't have the heart for Moral class and only looking forward for PE session to come. We were detained few times too and we were frus about not having PE lolx. I'm sorry Pn Yap, you were right. we really don't have the heart for moral class nor any other class before PE.
Anywayz, just feeling like i'm already old. sighz....
Besides, 2 of my friends went home Malaysia last week. All of a sudden I had this Midvalley image on my brain. Why Midvalley instead of other landmark of KL, coz Midvalley is where I usually hang out most since it's just around the corner of seputih, especially during secondary skul. Man looking at everyone's graduation picture makes me think back on our primary/secondary/college life. Can't believe most of us are now stepping into the working class. Remember those time we'll only wait for 1 class during secondary skul, which is the PE class. During that day, we'll bring gel/pump/our own football/basketball and some will bring soccer boots though most of the stuff are not allowed to. I remember clearly during form 4/5 that we had our PE class after Moral class. And Puan Yap always complain that we don't have the heart for Moral class and only looking forward for PE session to come. We were detained few times too and we were frus about not having PE lolx. I'm sorry Pn Yap, you were right. we really don't have the heart for moral class nor any other class before PE.
Anywayz, just feeling like i'm already old. sighz....
A brief update. Today was my last day of my internship, unfortunately I blew up my circuit. So I have to go on monday to fix it. This whole week was really a bad one for me. Besides the busyness, I get frus damn easily that i shouted at almost everyone that i meet. Really..for no reason. I have to apologize here for being such rude, especially wif my bald head. Seriously it's not because of my period, nor it isn't my bald head. Additionally, I was freaking ill during 30th April and 1st May. Wtf?? My only day to rest and it screwed up!! Wat was that man?!!!
Speaking about bald, I received more negative comments than positive ones. I mean most of my male friends will say that I look either like a kungfu Master or Chinese Mafia. Do I look like one?? eh?? eh??
Or Should I challenge DaGodfather???? Chinese Mafia eh?? eh?? eh??
Eh c'mon la. Deep down in me, I'm a very nice person, dislike mafia or traids, and most importantly I DON"T KNOW KUNGFU!!! Go fight wif Keanu Reeves!!! Not ME!!!
Anywayz, thanks for all da comments. Honestly I didn't wanted to be botak, just that I'm really lazy to maintain my hair and I've calculated precisely. My hair will take around 5 months to grow to around the length i had, and by then I'll be back in Malaysia. So i can go for haircut.
So, I've said to myself that I would change the layout as soon as my internship is over. However, I'm still as busy as usual, so I'll giv myself more excuse to delay. It's been a while I've not updated bout my gadgets....Well, due to tight in budget, I didn't really get any this time. Just that I had to get these pair of headphones.
I don't want to go deep in it's technical specifications, but I'll tell you why I bought this pair. It's because it has a clip which firmly clicked on my ears. I have very big ears, and those normal earphones will drop out of my ear especially when I'm walking on the streets.
But if these drops to the position somewhere near my legs..hmmm....
Fark, whadda shit am i doing??!!!!!
That's my new headphones. and remember the E-guitar I used for posing?? Shengwa, you suggested me to steal it. And I did, and now it's in my room!!
I'm gonna be a ROCK STAR!!!
Sorry for more disturbing pics...I've been going crazy these days.....
Speaking about bald, I received more negative comments than positive ones. I mean most of my male friends will say that I look either like a kungfu Master or Chinese Mafia. Do I look like one?? eh?? eh??
Or Should I challenge DaGodfather???? Chinese Mafia eh?? eh?? eh??
Eh c'mon la. Deep down in me, I'm a very nice person, dislike mafia or traids, and most importantly I DON"T KNOW KUNGFU!!! Go fight wif Keanu Reeves!!! Not ME!!!
Anywayz, thanks for all da comments. Honestly I didn't wanted to be botak, just that I'm really lazy to maintain my hair and I've calculated precisely. My hair will take around 5 months to grow to around the length i had, and by then I'll be back in Malaysia. So i can go for haircut.
So, I've said to myself that I would change the layout as soon as my internship is over. However, I'm still as busy as usual, so I'll giv myself more excuse to delay. It's been a while I've not updated bout my gadgets....Well, due to tight in budget, I didn't really get any this time. Just that I had to get these pair of headphones.
I don't want to go deep in it's technical specifications, but I'll tell you why I bought this pair. It's because it has a clip which firmly clicked on my ears. I have very big ears, and those normal earphones will drop out of my ear especially when I'm walking on the streets.
But if these drops to the position somewhere near my legs..hmmm....
Fark, whadda shit am i doing??!!!!!
That's my new headphones. and remember the E-guitar I used for posing?? Shengwa, you suggested me to steal it. And I did, and now it's in my room!!
I'm gonna be a ROCK STAR!!!
Sorry for more disturbing pics...I've been going crazy these days.....
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