Lolz, when we talk about Resolution, New Year Resolution?? Yeah I used to be one of those guys who set some aim of wat I should do during the new year but in the end i screwed all up. 1024x768?? 3MP?? lolz those are resolution too but it's pixel resolutions.
Anyway I guess I don't have to do a whole new definition of Resolution. Well, when it comes to the end of the year, I'll always do a brain refreshment on what I've done best, and what I've done that made me regret bout it. Lets refresh on 2005, where I set some goals like study hard, forget bout "someone", learn to play guitar well, improve my bball skills, blablabla but all failed. 2006 has been a wonderful year for me though there're some screwed up moments.
Well, lets start of wif screwed up moments. I screwed up my studies, which I really regret bout it. I sold my laptop for a desktop, which i actually half regret bout it. One reason I'm happy because I had a kick ass desktop which can play loads of games, n of course with unlimited broadband i can leave my desktop on for days to download. Even now, the desktop has been running for 2 weeks non stop di lolz. I guess i'll switch it off one of these days. The reason why I regret bout buying this desktop is because when I'm in the library which I am most of the time actually, I couldn't surf the internet. but come to think of it, my purpose of being in the library is to study and if i hav a laptop wif internet connection, would i still pay so much attention to the book?? lolz......so......no comments....lolzzz
Still at bad moments here. I had another screwed up bday, n especially this is my 21st. Well, the only thing I cheer bout during my bday was a very surprising bday wish from my darling(well of course she wasn't my darlin at that time) , and a surprising gift from my best bro KS, and a lil pair of fury slippers from Thars. Was planning to throw a party actually but screwed up. Besides a screwed up bday, it was another screwed up summer. I can't believe that I did not even do sports while the weather was so good. I plan go jogging, basketball(of course duh) and some other outdoor sports but ended up playing Pro Evolution Soccer lolz. However I did participate in the Indonesians sports fair in Basketball and Soccer(though din get to play) and did quite well in the first game. We also did some practice session b4 the games for soccer.
Hmm, what else bout bad moments?? Well I guess the first few days of my summer hols was kinda screwed up, which i'll come to that later. Or maybe not.
Lets talk bout the good moments hehe. Finally got unlimited internet and able to watch HK drama even from Germany. Got myself some cool stuff like ipod(given to my darling di), white blazer, a new hp recently(old one giv 2 mom). Lolz i think i better stop tokin bout those small stuff coz it's gonna take forever. Lets go to the biggest turning point - My darling.
Before coming back 2 malaysia, somehow she got my MSN and she start toking to me. I still sound a lil cool to her coz i actually couldn't let go of what has happen 2 years ago. But after a few chat sessions i finally felt comfortable with her again. Catch up wif wat we've lost on that 2 years and so on. I thought we can continue being friends until one day we decided to webcam and the moment i saw her via webcam, my feelings starts running all over my body again. But then again i never put hopes on anything that will happen coz c'mon, it's been 2 years and who would expect us to be together again?? But believe it o not, it happens. Yeap, it was the best thing that ever happen 2 me this year. Honestly i couldn't believe it myself but it happens. Just luv her so much.
Well, i think i'm tired of making any goals to achieve or watsoever. Just wanna say 2007, hope it's a better year for me. Hope me and my darling will have a healthy relationship, hope m studies are ok and most of all, hope time passes slightly faster so i can come home to see my darling.
It's a happy and also a bad day for me. Lets start off with the happy stuff. Yesterday I received a blue card from the post man stating that I have a package to collect. As I've already expected, it was from my darling. Previously i talked about darling getting a christmas gift for me, yeap it finally arrive. I was so excited about it yesterday but they only allow me to collect it today.
So, it was kinda rainy day and it's freaking cold and i have to walk to the Post office which is about 10-15mins walk. After collecting the package, I went straight to library as i have to work out on my lab 2moro. But i took the first 15 mins in the library checking out my darling's gift. I already know that my darling is giving me a wallet. Here's the pics about it....
It's a renoma wallet. I bet it's gonna cost alot. darling, thank you so much.
The lil pic inside there was also my darling's effort. So lovely
the other side of the wallet.
the whole package which includes the christmas socks and a lil christmas card.
As i said i was already expecting a wallet, and i was so curious to know how it looks like, so after opening the envelope, i turn the envelope upside down and pour all the stuff out. what i didn't expect was that she put the wallet inside the lovely christmas sock with a cute lil bear in front of it. The moment the thing drop on the table, the sound generated attract attention from other ppl in the library. They saw the sock wif the lil bear that n was smilling at me. My face kinda turn red but still I'm so happy and I luv wat my darling gave to me. Thanks darling and I luv ya baby 4ever n ever muakssss....
Thats the happy stuff. The bad stuff thingy was 2 hours after i looked at my present. I was suppose to meet a professor. To enter the prof's room, i first need to intercom someone to identify myself and then they'll open the door for me. As soon as someone speaks after i press the intercom, i told the person my purpose in German(very broken german) and when he replied something, he speaks very fast german and i just couldn't understand a single thing he said. It was so embarassing. Luckily it was just for while as the prof speaks very good english. Btw there's more to this story but i'm not in the mood to talk about it. I'll just generally say out my feelings. During sec skul, it was so easy to bring everyone together. I remember suggesting some study group session though it ended up being chat and games session, but still it's just easy. Everyone seems to like being together regardless of studying or having leisure time. During college it's even better as i have a bunch of classmates that are so united. Dont even need to speak bout having discussion together, we even have breakfast and/or lunch together everyday. almost the whole class join the breakfast/lunch session and we even joke bout being late for class - since the majority of the class members are here, we can be late for class and the lecturer can't do anything bout it. But now, it's just so different. I always wanted a group discussion thingy especially if we're assigned in a same group whether doing project or labs or whatsoever. I am weak in language but in content wise I'm quite okay with it as i have lots of english reference books. So I always have an idea that someone can help me in the language and i shall help them in the content in return. But ppl are just selfish here. Damn it i hate it. ppl just don't understand what's the meaning of "2 brains are better than 1". I can say i'm always helping ppl here but none give me any help in return!!!!!
Anyway, i won't be here for long so lets just forget bout it. As soon as i grad, i'll never want to see them in my life anymore. Don't even think of doing business with me anymore in the future, so long suckers!!! Btw, it seems godfathar is being emo these days but i'm kinda bz wif labs, labs labs. Cathup wif ya godfathar as soon as i'm free.....
So, it was kinda rainy day and it's freaking cold and i have to walk to the Post office which is about 10-15mins walk. After collecting the package, I went straight to library as i have to work out on my lab 2moro. But i took the first 15 mins in the library checking out my darling's gift. I already know that my darling is giving me a wallet. Here's the pics about it....
It's a renoma wallet. I bet it's gonna cost alot. darling, thank you so much.
The lil pic inside there was also my darling's effort. So lovely
the other side of the wallet.
the whole package which includes the christmas socks and a lil christmas card.As i said i was already expecting a wallet, and i was so curious to know how it looks like, so after opening the envelope, i turn the envelope upside down and pour all the stuff out. what i didn't expect was that she put the wallet inside the lovely christmas sock with a cute lil bear in front of it. The moment the thing drop on the table, the sound generated attract attention from other ppl in the library. They saw the sock wif the lil bear that n was smilling at me. My face kinda turn red but still I'm so happy and I luv wat my darling gave to me. Thanks darling and I luv ya baby 4ever n ever muakssss....
Thats the happy stuff. The bad stuff thingy was 2 hours after i looked at my present. I was suppose to meet a professor. To enter the prof's room, i first need to intercom someone to identify myself and then they'll open the door for me. As soon as someone speaks after i press the intercom, i told the person my purpose in German(very broken german) and when he replied something, he speaks very fast german and i just couldn't understand a single thing he said. It was so embarassing. Luckily it was just for while as the prof speaks very good english. Btw there's more to this story but i'm not in the mood to talk about it. I'll just generally say out my feelings. During sec skul, it was so easy to bring everyone together. I remember suggesting some study group session though it ended up being chat and games session, but still it's just easy. Everyone seems to like being together regardless of studying or having leisure time. During college it's even better as i have a bunch of classmates that are so united. Dont even need to speak bout having discussion together, we even have breakfast and/or lunch together everyday. almost the whole class join the breakfast/lunch session and we even joke bout being late for class - since the majority of the class members are here, we can be late for class and the lecturer can't do anything bout it. But now, it's just so different. I always wanted a group discussion thingy especially if we're assigned in a same group whether doing project or labs or whatsoever. I am weak in language but in content wise I'm quite okay with it as i have lots of english reference books. So I always have an idea that someone can help me in the language and i shall help them in the content in return. But ppl are just selfish here. Damn it i hate it. ppl just don't understand what's the meaning of "2 brains are better than 1". I can say i'm always helping ppl here but none give me any help in return!!!!!
Anyway, i won't be here for long so lets just forget bout it. As soon as i grad, i'll never want to see them in my life anymore. Don't even think of doing business with me anymore in the future, so long suckers!!! Btw, it seems godfathar is being emo these days but i'm kinda bz wif labs, labs labs. Cathup wif ya godfathar as soon as i'm free.....
it's been quite an emotional week for me last week. Well, I'll just do a summary on it. I am a person who likes to help people and i'm happy 2 see the person i helped to be happy. Of course I'm not Douglas Almighty or watever crap, so if i'm unable to fulfill your favour, I can only say I've did my best and I'm sorry. Believe me, I really did my best, but I'm just not good enough to help. Btw, if you asked a favour from someone, that person don't owe you anything. He's doing you a favour, something extra. So don't make it as if like he/she has the responsibility to do what you told. Don't even think of getting pissed off about it k? 2ndly if you want some favour from someone, basically you're giving him trouble already. If you can, why not do your part to ease him??? Example: you want movies from me, and I don't mind spending a lil time giving you the permission to click around my comp and copy movies. The worse thing is, you want movie from me and you expect me to bring my hdd to your place?? It's not like you don't have a hdd yourself asshole!!!!
Wats next??? i'll use some cantonese phrases here translated in English. If you don't have such big head, don't wear such big hat. Sometimes you have to know when to stop or you just have to know what are you abilities. First of all, it is okay if you use some of the bombastic words to describe something, but not too much. Imagine if you ask me for direction to Cinema, and i tell you something like this "first you glide to the end of this infinite road, then drift to your left until your iris receive a form of signal known as light telling you that it's a building, then roll on to your right and there you'll see the cinema" Lolz, anyway thats something i made up. I just want to give an example of how crappy things can be if you over do it!!!!
Next, I hate ppl stabbing my back. if you want to challenge me, do it face 2 face. you're not gaining anything when you stab me from the back. even if you win, will you be proud of yourself?? if you are means you're just one hell of a thick skin faggot.
Well thats bout the anger part. Don't want to put names or the real situations. Here comes the sad part. It's 11th December. It's exactly 3 months after me and my darling got back together. Of course we don't celebrate these things but it just make me think of those wonderful moments we spent during my summer hols. I miss her so much and it's christmas soon. I had flashbacks on how we spent christmas during Form 4 till college. Nothing grand of course, but just luv spending time wif her especially during seasons.
well it's time to show what kinda necklace i got for her for christmas.
nice???
Okies i'm done for this emo blog. Luv ya my darling. And to those bastards, go suck ur own balls!!!!
Wats next??? i'll use some cantonese phrases here translated in English. If you don't have such big head, don't wear such big hat. Sometimes you have to know when to stop or you just have to know what are you abilities. First of all, it is okay if you use some of the bombastic words to describe something, but not too much. Imagine if you ask me for direction to Cinema, and i tell you something like this "first you glide to the end of this infinite road, then drift to your left until your iris receive a form of signal known as light telling you that it's a building, then roll on to your right and there you'll see the cinema" Lolz, anyway thats something i made up. I just want to give an example of how crappy things can be if you over do it!!!!
Next, I hate ppl stabbing my back. if you want to challenge me, do it face 2 face. you're not gaining anything when you stab me from the back. even if you win, will you be proud of yourself?? if you are means you're just one hell of a thick skin faggot.
Well thats bout the anger part. Don't want to put names or the real situations. Here comes the sad part. It's 11th December. It's exactly 3 months after me and my darling got back together. Of course we don't celebrate these things but it just make me think of those wonderful moments we spent during my summer hols. I miss her so much and it's christmas soon. I had flashbacks on how we spent christmas during Form 4 till college. Nothing grand of course, but just luv spending time wif her especially during seasons.
well it's time to show what kinda necklace i got for her for christmas.
nice???Okies i'm done for this emo blog. Luv ya my darling. And to those bastards, go suck ur own balls!!!!
I want to say something, but my eyes are just closing each time i try to open it. Coming up, emotional post, a lil bout darling's necklace gift, and some critics bout some idiots.....be right back!!!
DON'T GO ANYWHERE!!!
DON'T GO ANYWHERE!!!
When I was in Primay school, each time after one semester ends, we'll greet our classmates a "see u soon". My parents was kinda strict so for me, my semester break usually will be all spent with my family. Don't remember what i did though. During Secondary school, we make plans during holiday breaks. we go lepak. But unfortunately for me, i don't get the freedom that everyone has. Even playing basketball, i am only limited to 2 hours and if i don't come back after that, i'll get screwed. But somehow, saying buy in secondary skul wasn't that hard as we'll see each other soon. After SPM, it's a lil harder to say bye to sec skulmates but still we knoe most of us will be ard town doin our pre-U. Some in STPM, some A-Level, SAM, or some foundation and many more. But still most of us ar still ard. After college, things start getting heavier and heavier. I don't know how many times I've been in KLIA whether sending ppl off or see ppl sending me off. But that feeling is really heavy. I mean can u imagine u're having a morning but ur fren is having a night?? Sighz....
Well, yesterday around 5.30am I've sent one of my friend Steven off from Duesseldorf airport. First of all, congratulation to him as he finished his double degree in Germany. An end to study world. Don't think he'll further his studies as he's a double degree holder, so i guess i should wish him a good luck in working life. Good for him, i envy him. I really wish I am the one graduating and go home and never come back here again. Though I always complain of how bad Msia is compare to Germany, but still there's no other place better than home. Steven wasn't so keen to see us sending him off but we insist though. Well, some ppl luv to hav a big bunch of frenz sending them off, while some others just prefer to go without ppl sending them off. For me, I am both. I luv ppl sending me off, but on the other hand i felt hard to see myself leaving my friends. I remember the first year i went to germany, I have my college friends, sec skul frenz, even primary skul frenz to send me off. Not to forget my parents of course and Uncle Albert(my father's friend who study in germany long time ago). Took alot of pictures and talk lots of crap b4 i leave. Lolz, was kinda great feeling to see ur frenz sending u off, but as i said it's just heavy. After that year, I prefer only my family to send me off.
Well anyway, another 1 year ++ for me. So there's no point having all this jealousy and sad feelings as i can't do much now. Christmas is coming and how i wish i can celebrate it with my darling. Ahh why am i toking bout sad stuff again? Ohh I hav a lil good news to share. I got 2 years Visa extension today(if u read my past post, u'll knoe how hectic is that to get a visa extension). Now i can fully focus on my studies. Now that steven hav left(he's our main cook), i guess i have to cook more frequent now. Sheng Wa, I need more recipies from you!!!
Haha a post without mentioning my darling?? U guys would probably think that I'm not ok with her lolz. Ok now i'm gonna mention bout her. Well, we've been going well so far, a lil bumpy last week but it's all cool now. Oh ya i asked steven to send the christmas gift that i wanted to give to my darling. here's the pic of it but it's not that clear in this pic....
in case u can't see clearly wat's inside the glass, it's paper folded heart shapes and some paper swan(which is the minority so it's not so visible). Took me total time of 18 hours to complete filling up the bottle. But knowing that my darling will sure love it, i don't mind spending 18 days or even 18 years doing somethin for her. Still got one more present for her, but that won't be so soon. She got me something too, and i'm still waiting to receive it. Hehe darling luv ya so much.
Kays, thats all bout me, n my dear. Now that i've completed the christmas gift, it's time to focus on studies again. heading to library more often.
Well, yesterday around 5.30am I've sent one of my friend Steven off from Duesseldorf airport. First of all, congratulation to him as he finished his double degree in Germany. An end to study world. Don't think he'll further his studies as he's a double degree holder, so i guess i should wish him a good luck in working life. Good for him, i envy him. I really wish I am the one graduating and go home and never come back here again. Though I always complain of how bad Msia is compare to Germany, but still there's no other place better than home. Steven wasn't so keen to see us sending him off but we insist though. Well, some ppl luv to hav a big bunch of frenz sending them off, while some others just prefer to go without ppl sending them off. For me, I am both. I luv ppl sending me off, but on the other hand i felt hard to see myself leaving my friends. I remember the first year i went to germany, I have my college friends, sec skul frenz, even primary skul frenz to send me off. Not to forget my parents of course and Uncle Albert(my father's friend who study in germany long time ago). Took alot of pictures and talk lots of crap b4 i leave. Lolz, was kinda great feeling to see ur frenz sending u off, but as i said it's just heavy. After that year, I prefer only my family to send me off.
Well anyway, another 1 year ++ for me. So there's no point having all this jealousy and sad feelings as i can't do much now. Christmas is coming and how i wish i can celebrate it with my darling. Ahh why am i toking bout sad stuff again? Ohh I hav a lil good news to share. I got 2 years Visa extension today(if u read my past post, u'll knoe how hectic is that to get a visa extension). Now i can fully focus on my studies. Now that steven hav left(he's our main cook), i guess i have to cook more frequent now. Sheng Wa, I need more recipies from you!!!
Haha a post without mentioning my darling?? U guys would probably think that I'm not ok with her lolz. Ok now i'm gonna mention bout her. Well, we've been going well so far, a lil bumpy last week but it's all cool now. Oh ya i asked steven to send the christmas gift that i wanted to give to my darling. here's the pic of it but it's not that clear in this pic....
in case u can't see clearly wat's inside the glass, it's paper folded heart shapes and some paper swan(which is the minority so it's not so visible). Took me total time of 18 hours to complete filling up the bottle. But knowing that my darling will sure love it, i don't mind spending 18 days or even 18 years doing somethin for her. Still got one more present for her, but that won't be so soon. She got me something too, and i'm still waiting to receive it. Hehe darling luv ya so much.Kays, thats all bout me, n my dear. Now that i've completed the christmas gift, it's time to focus on studies again. heading to library more often.
In my last post I talk about how my darling treats me. Well sadly she commented that she's not that good as wat i described. But I wanna say, wat i've posted in the previous post are all true words from my heart.
Sighz, we had a few quarrels already for the last few days though. But the reason is because we loved each other 2 much. I don't know how to describe why we quarrel. It's like we care 4 each other too much till we have different opinion on how should things works. But it's settled now. Well, I want to apologize to my darling 4 giving her such a hard time when she's already trying her best. I'm sorry darling.
Lets don't go into details on all the sad stuff since now we're ok already. Today my darling had a haircut and a new dye. Hehe she looks so cute with this hairstyle and of course she looks cute even with her old hairstyle but i luv both the old or the new. Basically i luv everything bout her hehe. lets not get freezed up first. here's a pic of her new hairstyle/dye...
isn't she cute??
ritez, now back 2 me. I finally bought a canvas bag. I've been talking bout it even before I came back to malaysia and i was thinking of getting one in malaysia but couldn't get any. I've actually searched duisburg and Duesseldorf lots of times b4 but just couldn't get a cheap and good one. I nearly wanted to get an Esprit but it cost around 49euro. wtf?? Oh forgot to mention my darling was so crazy that she nearly wanted to get the RM200 Esprit bag for me when i'm still in malaysia. Luckily i stop her from doing so coz RM200 is just 2 expensive and i don't want her to waste so much money. She loves me so much and i know that, so do i. oh the bag i'm talkin bout...lolz suddenly tok bout my darling di. The bag it's one of those clearance sale stuff. Basically it's an old design and nobody wants it anymore so the price slashes. It's from dockers btw. I won't state the price here, let u judge....
Well just ignore the blardy words on the bag. Well, now that i'm having a lil timeout from my labs and studies, I'm now busy working on my darling's christmas present. I can't take a pic of the christmas present becoz it's suppose to be a suprise for her. but i can giv a slight preview. it's a DIY stuff.
See the coin on the left?? it's a 1 cent coin. the right side is one of those paper swan that i've folded which is quite equivalent to the size of the 1cent coin. Lolz, it's not easy to do such small stuff u knoe. Well, i hope my darling will like the christmas gift. Besides that, i also got her a swarovski crystal pendant necklace. Sorry can't post up the pic either coz i don't want her to know how it looks like. Also heard that she bought something for me. I felt so touched but also guilty that she spent quite alot of money on this gift. I luv her so much not just bcoz she buy stuff 4 me, but all the effort and things she've done for me. I luv ya baby 4ever n ever.
Sighz, we had a few quarrels already for the last few days though. But the reason is because we loved each other 2 much. I don't know how to describe why we quarrel. It's like we care 4 each other too much till we have different opinion on how should things works. But it's settled now. Well, I want to apologize to my darling 4 giving her such a hard time when she's already trying her best. I'm sorry darling.
Lets don't go into details on all the sad stuff since now we're ok already. Today my darling had a haircut and a new dye. Hehe she looks so cute with this hairstyle and of course she looks cute even with her old hairstyle but i luv both the old or the new. Basically i luv everything bout her hehe. lets not get freezed up first. here's a pic of her new hairstyle/dye...
isn't she cute??ritez, now back 2 me. I finally bought a canvas bag. I've been talking bout it even before I came back to malaysia and i was thinking of getting one in malaysia but couldn't get any. I've actually searched duisburg and Duesseldorf lots of times b4 but just couldn't get a cheap and good one. I nearly wanted to get an Esprit but it cost around 49euro. wtf?? Oh forgot to mention my darling was so crazy that she nearly wanted to get the RM200 Esprit bag for me when i'm still in malaysia. Luckily i stop her from doing so coz RM200 is just 2 expensive and i don't want her to waste so much money. She loves me so much and i know that, so do i. oh the bag i'm talkin bout...lolz suddenly tok bout my darling di. The bag it's one of those clearance sale stuff. Basically it's an old design and nobody wants it anymore so the price slashes. It's from dockers btw. I won't state the price here, let u judge....
Well just ignore the blardy words on the bag. Well, now that i'm having a lil timeout from my labs and studies, I'm now busy working on my darling's christmas present. I can't take a pic of the christmas present becoz it's suppose to be a suprise for her. but i can giv a slight preview. it's a DIY stuff.
See the coin on the left?? it's a 1 cent coin. the right side is one of those paper swan that i've folded which is quite equivalent to the size of the 1cent coin. Lolz, it's not easy to do such small stuff u knoe. Well, i hope my darling will like the christmas gift. Besides that, i also got her a swarovski crystal pendant necklace. Sorry can't post up the pic either coz i don't want her to know how it looks like. Also heard that she bought something for me. I felt so touched but also guilty that she spent quite alot of money on this gift. I luv her so much not just bcoz she buy stuff 4 me, but all the effort and things she've done for me. I luv ya baby 4ever n ever.
Yesterday was my last day of the "basic electronic devices" lab. Well thanks to my darling, she gave me lots of support and gave me lots of confidence. Finally I hav a lil room to take some air but not for long as I still hav heeps of labs to go and m visa appointment will be next friday. Currently I'm working on my darling's present which might not work out because I just sux in arts.
Life seems to be quite perfect for me. I have a good family, a bunch of true friends, a group of ex college mates which we pretty much still keep in contact, a good future(i hope), a good health(not so sure because din go for check up for long time di), lots of gadgets which i dream of having when i'm still young and most importantly I have such a wonderful darling. She don't mind waking up in the middle of the night to chat with me, she calls me all the time, sms or sometimes mms me. I felt so loved. Darling I luv ya baby 4ever. but here comes the part, I still complain much bout life, and here ar some things which I WISH it could happen...
I wish for :
Life seems to be quite perfect for me. I have a good family, a bunch of true friends, a group of ex college mates which we pretty much still keep in contact, a good future(i hope), a good health(not so sure because din go for check up for long time di), lots of gadgets which i dream of having when i'm still young and most importantly I have such a wonderful darling. She don't mind waking up in the middle of the night to chat with me, she calls me all the time, sms or sometimes mms me. I felt so loved. Darling I luv ya baby 4ever. but here comes the part, I still complain much bout life, and here ar some things which I WISH it could happen...
I wish for :
- That I'm a blardy billionair, then i can bring my darling over here and we can tour around Europe
- I wish I'm done with my course and now in Malaysia spending sweet time with my darling
- I wish for more time
- I wish I can turn back time and experience all the sweet time i had one more time
- I wish my courses are all in English(lolzzz)
- I wish for my family and my darling's family to stay healthy all the time.
- I wish for a never ending friendship with my best pals.
- Most importantly, I wish for a never ending love with my darling, n 2 be together 4ever n ever.
Damn, 2 labs back 2 back. Tuesday had "basic electronic device" lab and today "High Voltage Engineering". Man, i am really burned out. It was sort of a sign of relief after that lab but I haven't had a good sleep for this 2 days. Been workin till late night just to prepare for this lab. Guess what, I thought I'll be the one in the group to be eliminated but instead I'm the one who score it all. Lolz, damn I hate it. I hav all the facts and knowledge in my head, but I just can't express it out because it's in German. The Locals and the good German speakers spent only 1 hour preparing for the lab as they just have to read from the lab script which is around 30 pages, but for me I've to spend 1 week for it because I have to read the whole reference book in ENGLISH!!!!. Damn it. But on the other hand, it's a great thing that I've done 2 labs for each subject already. A few more to go and i'm done with this sem.
Lab is done for the moment, but darn, next comes the visa problem. I hav to collect all the documents and to be ready to hand up everything b4 it's time. Hav to take a passport photo 2moro and then hand it up on friday. Watz up after the visa thingy??? LABS again. Next tuesday I hav the final lab for Basic electronic Devices. Though i kinda like this subject, but it's darn hard. Wats next after the lab?? LABS again!!!!! Communications lab will start in beginning of next month. Man, when can i ever get a rest?? I've no assignment or watsoever not like any of my friends. To be honest, I luv lab work but labs over here are similar 2 exams. You enter the lab, you sign ur name, you are asked some questions either it's written test or oral and if u don't knoe anything, go home n come back the 2nd try. 2nd try and u're not prepared 2, OUT u GO!!! Ok ok, so wats next after labs??? EXAMS....it's a marathon!!!!!!!
But for now, let me hav my lil rest first. Downloaded lots of NBA series so let me catch up first. Basketball has always been my passion but I guess most of my basketball kaki are not so "basket" di.....seems like they've lost interest di...hmmm wonder why??!!!! I thought i'll be having lots of games back in KL as thats the only time where i can play "malaysian" style bball but seems like i only played for few times. Came back thinking of playing in the Uni wif some Nowitzki style basketball but don't even have time for a 5 mins push up!!! Fark, my tummy is getting bigger man and soon I'm gonna hav one of those German Beer tummy. Last time i luv 2 watch NBA n streetball so i can learn some from them, but now i guess no one has interest in that anymore. Just watch the game to relax la..>!!!!
As for my darling, She's learning how to drive now. Hmm she told me she's kinda nervous. Well it's normal 2 get nervous but don't worry dear, be confident you'll be thru. Next time I come back, you'll be taking me around hehe....well besides that she's been waking up early morning to chat wif me. I felt so happy but worried that she don't get enough of sleep. She's da best. I luv u my dear...muakssss
Anyway weather is kinda schlecht(bad) these days. Cold Colder and soon Coldest!!! around 5 degrees in the mroning now and the good side of it is that I'm able to put on the scarf my darling gave to me. Lolz it's not just pretty but it keeps me warm, especially it's given by my darling so it's extra warm. Lots of my friends said that the scarf is pretty nice, and some even asked me where i get it from...lolz sorry man don't get jealous...coz it's my precioussssssssssssssssss!!!!
k la thats all for now.....let me continue NBA first!!!!
Lab is done for the moment, but darn, next comes the visa problem. I hav to collect all the documents and to be ready to hand up everything b4 it's time. Hav to take a passport photo 2moro and then hand it up on friday. Watz up after the visa thingy??? LABS again. Next tuesday I hav the final lab for Basic electronic Devices. Though i kinda like this subject, but it's darn hard. Wats next after the lab?? LABS again!!!!! Communications lab will start in beginning of next month. Man, when can i ever get a rest?? I've no assignment or watsoever not like any of my friends. To be honest, I luv lab work but labs over here are similar 2 exams. You enter the lab, you sign ur name, you are asked some questions either it's written test or oral and if u don't knoe anything, go home n come back the 2nd try. 2nd try and u're not prepared 2, OUT u GO!!! Ok ok, so wats next after labs??? EXAMS....it's a marathon!!!!!!!
But for now, let me hav my lil rest first. Downloaded lots of NBA series so let me catch up first. Basketball has always been my passion but I guess most of my basketball kaki are not so "basket" di.....seems like they've lost interest di...hmmm wonder why??!!!! I thought i'll be having lots of games back in KL as thats the only time where i can play "malaysian" style bball but seems like i only played for few times. Came back thinking of playing in the Uni wif some Nowitzki style basketball but don't even have time for a 5 mins push up!!! Fark, my tummy is getting bigger man and soon I'm gonna hav one of those German Beer tummy. Last time i luv 2 watch NBA n streetball so i can learn some from them, but now i guess no one has interest in that anymore. Just watch the game to relax la..>!!!!
As for my darling, She's learning how to drive now. Hmm she told me she's kinda nervous. Well it's normal 2 get nervous but don't worry dear, be confident you'll be thru. Next time I come back, you'll be taking me around hehe....well besides that she's been waking up early morning to chat wif me. I felt so happy but worried that she don't get enough of sleep. She's da best. I luv u my dear...muakssss
Anyway weather is kinda schlecht(bad) these days. Cold Colder and soon Coldest!!! around 5 degrees in the mroning now and the good side of it is that I'm able to put on the scarf my darling gave to me. Lolz it's not just pretty but it keeps me warm, especially it's given by my darling so it's extra warm. Lots of my friends said that the scarf is pretty nice, and some even asked me where i get it from...lolz sorry man don't get jealous...coz it's my precioussssssssssssssssss!!!!
k la thats all for now.....let me continue NBA first!!!!
生日快乐, joyeux anniversaire, alles Gute zum Geburtstag, buon compleanno, 誕生日おめでとう, 축 생일, feliz aniversario, feliz cumpleaños...Thats just saying Happy Birthday in different language. Today, the 16th November 2006 is my darling's 21st birthday. First of all,obviously, I would like to wish my darling a very happy birthday. Hope all your wishes will come true. 2ndly I would like to apologize to my darling, I'm sorry for not being able to celebrate with you. I just don't knoe why every year when the 16th November is around the corner, I'll be extra excited. Lets take the last 2 years for example. We weren't together but a few days before her bday arrive, I'll be thinking, "hmmm what should i get for her and what can i do knowing the fact that I'm in Germany". It's extra 3x the amount of adrenaline rush this year. Well though I've sort of pre-celebrated her birthday when I was in Malaysia in Chilli's but still I felt like i have to do something during her actual birthday or else I'll be just uncomfortable with myself. Well being in 2 different end of the world, there're limited stuff I can do for her actually. However I did came up with some ideas. I ordered a bouquet of flowers and a cute lil teddy bear for her.
Me and Darling in Chillis.
That's my darling posing with the flowers and the bear. 24 stalks of pink roses, and u knoe wat that means???
Lolz, don't worry bout that fierce look of mine. I was just trying to look cool which i knoe obviously it doesn't turn out to be "cool". But forget bout my looks...it's the pretty scarf...see that thing over my neck??? Heh Heh...Dun get jealouz man.....It's mine!!!!!!!
K la I'm done blogging watever i wan to say for now. Once again i wanna wish my darling a very Happy 21st Bday and i hope she likes my present and hav a wonderful time. Well, i should say I really luv that scarf alot.
Me and Darling in Chillis.
That's my darling posing with the flowers and the bear. 24 stalks of pink roses, and u knoe wat that means???Pink Rose - Brilliant Complexion; the glow of your smile; Perfect Happiness; Please Believe Me
24 roses - Forever yours
Of course besides knowing the meaning of 24 stalks of pink roses, the main reason i choose pink is because she love roses to be in pink. Well hope she likes it.
besides the gifts, I've sent her quite a number of mms and one of them was I took a video of me saying happy birthday to her. I actually recorded a vid clip of me playing the guitar and sing happy bday song to her but unfortunately the file was too big eventhough I've set the quality to be the lowest. However I'm able to send the file to her when i met her online moments ago. Besides I've spent quite a number of hours doing a sort of animation or should i say slide show using Power Point for her. The content is about our history, from the day we knew each other till we became good friends, then became couples, then enemy, then after a big round, finally we're couples again. It's an amazing thing that we've known each other for 8 years and out of that 8 years, i've actually like/love her for 7 years. Though there was a time where we had a long break up, and far worse we became enemies just cursing and scolding each other, but deep down in our hearts, we still care for each other so much. Well, i hope she likes the slide show.
Yeap it's somethin i did with my old friend "Mr Adobe Photoshop". It features those pics we took during the summer break in Msia.
Lolz, don't worry bout that fierce look of mine. I was just trying to look cool which i knoe obviously it doesn't turn out to be "cool". But forget bout my looks...it's the pretty scarf...see that thing over my neck??? Heh Heh...Dun get jealouz man.....It's mine!!!!!!!K la I'm done blogging watever i wan to say for now. Once again i wanna wish my darling a very Happy 21st Bday and i hope she likes my present and hav a wonderful time. Well, i should say I really luv that scarf alot.
It's been ard 1 week i've not done any blogging. Was busy wif stuff and was kinda ill the last 2 days. Well, it's time for me to giv ya guys a lil updates.
Still doing fine wif my darling. Had a lil quarrel though during the last few days. We were ain't in a good mood but everything is settle now. That proves one thing, our relationship is going healthy. I've seen lots of couples not having any quarrel n all in a sudden everything was over. Well, quarreling do happens and it's also a way of communication. If 2 person is too alike, they're not suitable of being a couple either, more like bro-sis. Sorry darling, din mean to raise my voice. Forgive me k?? It's hard for us to maintain a long distance relationship and it's even harder for her as she's a gal, she needs more support than me but yet she's still holding strong in this relationship. I'm more than touched and glad to have such a girlfriend. I will cherish and appreciate everything that i've done for her and promise her i'll shower her wif all my love and care. I'll try my very best to make her happy. Yes yes dun puke when u guys see this, just wanna be as sweet as i can so that my darling will love me more lolz. sorry for the other readers k?? Well besides quarreling, my darling hav been very sweet to me. Send me sms and mms almost everyday, call me once in a while, e-mail and e-card to me and much more. She've been very understanding and she knoes i'm quite busy sometimes i din reply her mails or dun even hav time to blog. Sorry and thank you dear for being so cool bout it. Now that i'm using my vodafone again, i'll send more sms to u.
Thats bout her lolz. I guess most of u guys already close this page way b4 seeing this paragraph. A lil updates bout me. I bought a new hp, Nokia N70. Luv that fone alot coz it's a stylish Symbian fone, though it's a lil fat to some ppl. Lolz, yeap my darling also bought that fone so that makes us a very matching couple lolzzz. Uploaded Duden, PONS n Oxford English German dictionary. Now i can check words without flipping my fat bulky dictionary. Bought a new set of headsets coz i gave mine to my darling. A cheap one though. Gave my ipod to my darling coz she luvs it n she needs it so i'm now without a mp3 player. But thankfully the sound quality of the N70 is quite good so I'll just get a bigger storage card and fill in some mp3. While the rest remain the same. Back to my "Germodouglas" life. Sleeping quite early ard 12-1am max. Drinking Nescafe every morning but now cut down alot. Drink teh-ais without ais coz the water here is cold enuf. Drink Milo almost every night and eating alot of Indo Mee and Maggi. My darling will kill me when she sees this. Dun worry darling, i promise u i'll cut down on those k??? It's ard 2degrees in the morning and ard 11degrees in the evening over here. But don't worry i'm kinda used to the winter here. Been doin a lil studies but not much. Thats bout it.
Oh ya yesterday i watched world trade center. Man, that movie make me realize that human are just one hell of a weak and frigile thingy. Thats why we should appreciate everyone that's around us, especially those u luv. I still remember during 911 I was having my lil own sweet time wif my darling in Midvalley. That was the first time we were able to escape from our parents eye and go outing one 2 one. It also the day i bought a swatch for my darling and it became the symbol of our relationship until we broke up at that time. Glad that she's still keeping it and still in a good shape. Just hope that 911 won't happen again to anywhere or anyone in this world.
I guess thats bout it. Shall update more soon.
Still doing fine wif my darling. Had a lil quarrel though during the last few days. We were ain't in a good mood but everything is settle now. That proves one thing, our relationship is going healthy. I've seen lots of couples not having any quarrel n all in a sudden everything was over. Well, quarreling do happens and it's also a way of communication. If 2 person is too alike, they're not suitable of being a couple either, more like bro-sis. Sorry darling, din mean to raise my voice. Forgive me k?? It's hard for us to maintain a long distance relationship and it's even harder for her as she's a gal, she needs more support than me but yet she's still holding strong in this relationship. I'm more than touched and glad to have such a girlfriend. I will cherish and appreciate everything that i've done for her and promise her i'll shower her wif all my love and care. I'll try my very best to make her happy. Yes yes dun puke when u guys see this, just wanna be as sweet as i can so that my darling will love me more lolz. sorry for the other readers k?? Well besides quarreling, my darling hav been very sweet to me. Send me sms and mms almost everyday, call me once in a while, e-mail and e-card to me and much more. She've been very understanding and she knoes i'm quite busy sometimes i din reply her mails or dun even hav time to blog. Sorry and thank you dear for being so cool bout it. Now that i'm using my vodafone again, i'll send more sms to u.
Thats bout her lolz. I guess most of u guys already close this page way b4 seeing this paragraph. A lil updates bout me. I bought a new hp, Nokia N70. Luv that fone alot coz it's a stylish Symbian fone, though it's a lil fat to some ppl. Lolz, yeap my darling also bought that fone so that makes us a very matching couple lolzzz. Uploaded Duden, PONS n Oxford English German dictionary. Now i can check words without flipping my fat bulky dictionary. Bought a new set of headsets coz i gave mine to my darling. A cheap one though. Gave my ipod to my darling coz she luvs it n she needs it so i'm now without a mp3 player. But thankfully the sound quality of the N70 is quite good so I'll just get a bigger storage card and fill in some mp3. While the rest remain the same. Back to my "Germodouglas" life. Sleeping quite early ard 12-1am max. Drinking Nescafe every morning but now cut down alot. Drink teh-ais without ais coz the water here is cold enuf. Drink Milo almost every night and eating alot of Indo Mee and Maggi. My darling will kill me when she sees this. Dun worry darling, i promise u i'll cut down on those k??? It's ard 2degrees in the morning and ard 11degrees in the evening over here. But don't worry i'm kinda used to the winter here. Been doin a lil studies but not much. Thats bout it.
Oh ya yesterday i watched world trade center. Man, that movie make me realize that human are just one hell of a weak and frigile thingy. Thats why we should appreciate everyone that's around us, especially those u luv. I still remember during 911 I was having my lil own sweet time wif my darling in Midvalley. That was the first time we were able to escape from our parents eye and go outing one 2 one. It also the day i bought a swatch for my darling and it became the symbol of our relationship until we broke up at that time. Glad that she's still keeping it and still in a good shape. Just hope that 911 won't happen again to anywhere or anyone in this world.
I guess thats bout it. Shall update more soon.
Stuck in the past. Sighz, it's bout 2 weeks i've been back in germany. Somehow I'm part of my brain is not moving along wif my body and time. During day time, I'm suppose to be busy attending lectures and all. Yes I do, I'm in lectures but sometimes it'll just spark up my memories. Well we're learning Basic Electronic Devices today, and we're doing like an introduction to it which talk bout Physics and Chemistry. Bohr's atomic model and blablabla....Guess wat?!!!! it makes me think of the time i spent in KTAR n setapak. Then my darling comes. I remember i used to day dream in A-level(tht's why my result sux) and always hope breaktime comes soon so i can see my darling. When i was staying in prima setapak, my darling will come and sometimes overnight in my place. I really enjoy those time though we had lots of quarrel.
Thats during the day time. During night time, I'll start thinking of the night life I had in the past 2 months in KL where my day starts at 4pm and ends at 6am. Between 12am till 4am I'll be mostly with my darling suppering or just hanging out in her place. I've been listening to David tao's newest album which was given to me during the first day itself from my darling. Oh btw i felt a lil upset when i just realized that david tao's concert is gonna be held 2moro. So near yet so far. If only i could skip another 2 weeks of lesson and go for this concert, esp wif my darling. Anyway thats how life is. U can expect everything to go ur way. Hope those ppl who can attend his concert will enjoy themselves and hope DT will also put up a good performance. Recently my darling wrote bout songs and the meaning of it. I actually did a post on that last time. Certain songs reminds me of her and certain songs describes my life with her. I relate songs to our daily life alot. Gosh, i just miss her so much. Long distance is never easy but i think both of us are quite determined to hold on to it. well after all it's just 1 year ++. If time theory is proven correct, then i'll be able to see her very soon. Oh btw for those who don't know wats time theory, the first law says "Time passes very fast" and 2nd law says "happy time passes even faster". All i can do now is to study hard and make sure everything goes smooth, then i'll be back in no time.
Sighz, I actually felt bad. My darling sms me almost everyday, call me with her hotlink, email me and so on. She've done so much for me but I felt I've not done enough for her. I have to catch up. I don't want her to love me less and eventually lose her again. It took me quite some time to found wat i've lost 2 years ago. It's even harder than finding nemo lolzzz. And i really don't want to lose her again. I guess in this 2 years, only one thing that i can say. I realize after being apart for 2 years and now back 2gether, we will appreciate each other more and more. for the next 1 or 2 years, it's gonna be a test for us. If we survive it, i guess nth else could separate us apart.
Hah. I guess my style of blogging changed again. Last time i post sad stuff, then i post some farnee plus some emotional stuff. Now it's mostly bout my darling. Sorry readers for freezing u guys up. this is wat i felt at the moment so this is wat i blog bout lorr. K la stop now la. If not even summer can be winter in KL!!!!!
Thats during the day time. During night time, I'll start thinking of the night life I had in the past 2 months in KL where my day starts at 4pm and ends at 6am. Between 12am till 4am I'll be mostly with my darling suppering or just hanging out in her place. I've been listening to David tao's newest album which was given to me during the first day itself from my darling. Oh btw i felt a lil upset when i just realized that david tao's concert is gonna be held 2moro. So near yet so far. If only i could skip another 2 weeks of lesson and go for this concert, esp wif my darling. Anyway thats how life is. U can expect everything to go ur way. Hope those ppl who can attend his concert will enjoy themselves and hope DT will also put up a good performance. Recently my darling wrote bout songs and the meaning of it. I actually did a post on that last time. Certain songs reminds me of her and certain songs describes my life with her. I relate songs to our daily life alot. Gosh, i just miss her so much. Long distance is never easy but i think both of us are quite determined to hold on to it. well after all it's just 1 year ++. If time theory is proven correct, then i'll be able to see her very soon. Oh btw for those who don't know wats time theory, the first law says "Time passes very fast" and 2nd law says "happy time passes even faster". All i can do now is to study hard and make sure everything goes smooth, then i'll be back in no time.
Sighz, I actually felt bad. My darling sms me almost everyday, call me with her hotlink, email me and so on. She've done so much for me but I felt I've not done enough for her. I have to catch up. I don't want her to love me less and eventually lose her again. It took me quite some time to found wat i've lost 2 years ago. It's even harder than finding nemo lolzzz. And i really don't want to lose her again. I guess in this 2 years, only one thing that i can say. I realize after being apart for 2 years and now back 2gether, we will appreciate each other more and more. for the next 1 or 2 years, it's gonna be a test for us. If we survive it, i guess nth else could separate us apart.
Hah. I guess my style of blogging changed again. Last time i post sad stuff, then i post some farnee plus some emotional stuff. Now it's mostly bout my darling. Sorry readers for freezing u guys up. this is wat i felt at the moment so this is wat i blog bout lorr. K la stop now la. If not even summer can be winter in KL!!!!!
It's about 5 days i left KL. Well, though this is the 3rd time i fly back 2 germany, and i'm suppose to be ok by now, but i'm not. I am pretty much still missing KL so damn much. Of course I don't miss the weather or the stupid haze over there. I miss my darling and ppl who spent time wif me during this summer break. Now it's around 12.50am over here. At this time ard, if i'm still in KL i would hav taken my daddy's waja and drive at ard 130kph to Sg Long to meet up my darling. We'll usually hav supper in the mamak stall just opposite her apartment. After meal we'll just hang out in her apartment till ard 4am. Once reach home, I'll text her to tell her that i arrive safely, and of course greet her a goodnight n sweetdream before we go to bed. Sighz, I just miss those moments.
Recently my darling is feeling down, and I just felt so useless because I can't be around her to comfort her, to giv her a shoulder when she needs it. Sighz, I guess these are the things i've expected before starting a long distance relationship, but unfortunately when it comes to the real situation I'm still having difficulties accepting it. I know I shouldn't blame myself or anyone else, but I am naturally doing so. I just feel bad that i can't do anything to help my darling except to call her and send her e-mails, e-cards and sweet msgs. I had a chat wif her over the internet yesterday n today, gosh i miss her sweet voice so much. Luckily i'm still able to listen to it. We had a video call too via webcam. So glad to see her on the webcam, well that's the least i can do to see her.
Darling, just to tell u no matter how hard life can be, don't give up ok? You'll always hav my support. Just talk to me if u have difficulties and i'll try to help if i have the ability to do so. Hehe she had a haircut on saturday, but she don't really like it that much though. She did send me some pics. Well i think she look cute with her new hairstyle..hehe.
Love with a distance is never easy. I'm sure those who've been through it will understand. It's only the 5 day since we're apart but i already start missing her like crazy. We still have a long long journey to suffer. But no matter what, I'll never giv up. We've gone through a big circle before we can be together again, and I'm not going to let go in any condition. Hope she feels the same way.
Recently my darling is feeling down, and I just felt so useless because I can't be around her to comfort her, to giv her a shoulder when she needs it. Sighz, I guess these are the things i've expected before starting a long distance relationship, but unfortunately when it comes to the real situation I'm still having difficulties accepting it. I know I shouldn't blame myself or anyone else, but I am naturally doing so. I just feel bad that i can't do anything to help my darling except to call her and send her e-mails, e-cards and sweet msgs. I had a chat wif her over the internet yesterday n today, gosh i miss her sweet voice so much. Luckily i'm still able to listen to it. We had a video call too via webcam. So glad to see her on the webcam, well that's the least i can do to see her.
Darling, just to tell u no matter how hard life can be, don't give up ok? You'll always hav my support. Just talk to me if u have difficulties and i'll try to help if i have the ability to do so. Hehe she had a haircut on saturday, but she don't really like it that much though. She did send me some pics. Well i think she look cute with her new hairstyle..hehe.
Love with a distance is never easy. I'm sure those who've been through it will understand. It's only the 5 day since we're apart but i already start missing her like crazy. We still have a long long journey to suffer. But no matter what, I'll never giv up. We've gone through a big circle before we can be together again, and I'm not going to let go in any condition. Hope she feels the same way.
It's the 3rd day I came back to Germany. As usual I need time to adapt again and this time it's far harder to adapt than the first time due to some changes in my personal life. I have a few things to settle. Firstly my bank card is barred due to some security reason. Every semester I have to go to the bank to tell them "Yes blardy hell I'm still in Germany as student so plz f**king unfreeze my acc." Well of course I don't say that to the bank officer, just to myself lolz. 2ndly my vodafone sim card is badly damaged so they need to replace a new card and I just don't understand why it takes 3 days to replace a new card. Then in 2 months time I need to renew my visa. These are the few things I need to settle to assure a smooth stay in Germany. Well you can be proud that you're living in an organized country, but u'll have to do alot of these blardy registrations. Records after records. Just F*** them off la!!!!
Now, after settling all these, must start planning for my academic stuff di. Just in case some of you don't know how the system works here, let me briefly explain. It's total freedom here, yaeehhhh!!!. Wooo don't be so happy first, freedom means they'll just throw u a list of subs u need to complete within your academic years. They'll give you a guideline of what subject you will take for this semester but it's your own choice to take watever subject u like from the given list. In another words, if u think u're superman, u can even finish all ur subs in just 1 year. but if u're a tortoise, then u'll probably take longer. I've actually dropped some subs in the 3rd sem so I need to take it in this sem. So I guess I am taking quite alot of subs this sem. Of course, besides planning for my studies, I am also making a time table for my personal time. Distributing studies and leisure time equally, I want to have full control of my own life. For 21 yers of life, I've screwed it up actually. When I was young, my parents do the planning for me. All I need to do is to follow instructions and my life will always be under control. Now that I'm a young adult, I have to do my own planning. So here comes a question : For 21 years of life I've not really plan my daily routine before, so what assures myself that I'm going to be in control again?? Answer is simple. The situation is different now. I have an external motivation giving me enough force to do what I've planned. Another reason is because I REGRET!!!
Speaking about regrets, I've just 2 much regrets in my life. I've screwed up my 2nd year. I've no reason/excuse but to blame myself. Within this year, I've spent too much for gadgets, clothings, travellings and many more but I've not been doing what I'm here for : STUDY!!! Of course besides this, I do have other regrets that I just can't do anything to change it. Now, I need to choose. Choice A : I sit on a corner keep on thinking bout it, keep on blaming myself and hope someone will come n smack me on the head so that i'll be awake. Choice B : I stop regretting, and start doing work to be a better person. Obviously Choice B is the best solution, but for the time being, let me just stick to choice A for while first k lolz!!!. Nah I am not repeating my mistakes anymore, never!!!
Sighz, Its my 3rd year now and things are getting much harder. But during the first 18 years of my life, my family, my friends and all the people surrounding me trained me well to take up challenge and now its time to show how well i can tackle problems. With all the aura they gave to me, and now with an extra powerful aura(from my darling), I will survive. I still remember how the situation was when I first reached germany. Ok, try imagine that u're coming to an alien land, where nobody speaks ur language and you don't even have a place to stay with at least 40kg of load in total with you. Oh, actually don't need to imagine cause u'll never know the pain i've been thru. The first 5 days in Germany was totally hell for me. And to be honest, I almost gave up but I didn't. And finally I'm a survival now. I guess all i need is to put in more effort.
Enough of complaining i guess. I just think too much. I will be fine dun worry. I miss my darling so much. I just want to tell her how much i appreciate her and all the things she've done for me. Its a very big sacrifice for her to walk this path of LDR. I'm sorry honey for putting you in such tough situation. I just want to tell you that I'll not giv up on this relationship, not anymore. Sighz, she've done so much for me, and i felt I've not done enough for her. So sorry dear. I guess at this point, the best gift I could ever give her is to work hard so I can get the degree asap and return to Msia for good.
I'm sorry for posting such a long entry. I can't help it. I'm depressed now, but i'll be fine. For those who read from the top till the bottom, thank u very much for listening to Douglasology™'s crap. for those who read partially, thanks for even bothering to read it. for those who did not even bother to read, haha thanks to u too, for dunno wat reason lolzz.!!!
Now, after settling all these, must start planning for my academic stuff di. Just in case some of you don't know how the system works here, let me briefly explain. It's total freedom here, yaeehhhh!!!. Wooo don't be so happy first, freedom means they'll just throw u a list of subs u need to complete within your academic years. They'll give you a guideline of what subject you will take for this semester but it's your own choice to take watever subject u like from the given list. In another words, if u think u're superman, u can even finish all ur subs in just 1 year. but if u're a tortoise, then u'll probably take longer. I've actually dropped some subs in the 3rd sem so I need to take it in this sem. So I guess I am taking quite alot of subs this sem. Of course, besides planning for my studies, I am also making a time table for my personal time. Distributing studies and leisure time equally, I want to have full control of my own life. For 21 yers of life, I've screwed it up actually. When I was young, my parents do the planning for me. All I need to do is to follow instructions and my life will always be under control. Now that I'm a young adult, I have to do my own planning. So here comes a question : For 21 years of life I've not really plan my daily routine before, so what assures myself that I'm going to be in control again?? Answer is simple. The situation is different now. I have an external motivation giving me enough force to do what I've planned. Another reason is because I REGRET!!!
Speaking about regrets, I've just 2 much regrets in my life. I've screwed up my 2nd year. I've no reason/excuse but to blame myself. Within this year, I've spent too much for gadgets, clothings, travellings and many more but I've not been doing what I'm here for : STUDY!!! Of course besides this, I do have other regrets that I just can't do anything to change it. Now, I need to choose. Choice A : I sit on a corner keep on thinking bout it, keep on blaming myself and hope someone will come n smack me on the head so that i'll be awake. Choice B : I stop regretting, and start doing work to be a better person. Obviously Choice B is the best solution, but for the time being, let me just stick to choice A for while first k lolz!!!. Nah I am not repeating my mistakes anymore, never!!!
Sighz, Its my 3rd year now and things are getting much harder. But during the first 18 years of my life, my family, my friends and all the people surrounding me trained me well to take up challenge and now its time to show how well i can tackle problems. With all the aura they gave to me, and now with an extra powerful aura(from my darling), I will survive. I still remember how the situation was when I first reached germany. Ok, try imagine that u're coming to an alien land, where nobody speaks ur language and you don't even have a place to stay with at least 40kg of load in total with you. Oh, actually don't need to imagine cause u'll never know the pain i've been thru. The first 5 days in Germany was totally hell for me. And to be honest, I almost gave up but I didn't. And finally I'm a survival now. I guess all i need is to put in more effort.
Enough of complaining i guess. I just think too much. I will be fine dun worry. I miss my darling so much. I just want to tell her how much i appreciate her and all the things she've done for me. Its a very big sacrifice for her to walk this path of LDR. I'm sorry honey for putting you in such tough situation. I just want to tell you that I'll not giv up on this relationship, not anymore. Sighz, she've done so much for me, and i felt I've not done enough for her. So sorry dear. I guess at this point, the best gift I could ever give her is to work hard so I can get the degree asap and return to Msia for good.
I'm sorry for posting such a long entry. I can't help it. I'm depressed now, but i'll be fine. For those who read from the top till the bottom, thank u very much for listening to Douglasology™'s crap. for those who read partially, thanks for even bothering to read it. for those who did not even bother to read, haha thanks to u too, for dunno wat reason lolzz.!!!
This blog is dedicated to my parents, my darling, my friends and everyone who made a contribution to my holidays. Well, definately if my parents don't pay for my air ticket, I'll not be able to enjoy such wonderful holiday in KL. Of course, besides sponsoring my air tickets, chatting wif my mom once in a while does makes me feel better too. They're the ones who brought me to eat crab even on the 2nd day i landed in KL itself. I have home cooked food almost everyday, which is so delicious. Thanks mom. Thanks dad too for all the nice outings and chats.
This paragraph is gonna be long. My darling. She gave me such wonderful memories, which i can never forget even if u fire a bullet in my head. Well, From the first day we met up, it was not quite an outing i've expected, in fact it was disappointed actually. She didn't even look at me, n she was so damn quiet throughout the whole meeting. Then i thought maybe after so long we didn't meet up, n we've been apart for quite a long long time, so maybe she just couldn't find words to speak out. Well, I have to admit, my feelings for her never fade, but lookin at that kinda situations, I thought maybe she've moved on with her life, so i shouldn't show my feelings to her anymore. What I've never expected was, right after that outing, she wrote a blog about me. Then i realise, she might still have the feelings for me, but i don't want to assume anything which is not proven true yet. But it all reveals on the 30th August. We had our first outing 1 on 1 for this holiday. Then i found out she does have feelings for me. But I wasn't brave enough to make any move. Between the time before we get together, we did see each other very often. Everynight after my parents felt asleep, I was desperate to see her. So I drove all the way to Sg Long and gave her suprise meetings, of course at that time I'm not sure if she really wanted to see me. But her reactions told me that she really did hope to see me, especially she was having exams and very stressful at that time.
In between there're some untold stories which brought us together again. Its like a miracle happen to me. I've been dreaming of this day for the past 2 years and it really happen now. Outings after Outings, movies after movies, supper after supper, it was really a honeymoon period for me throughout this whole holiday. Even the simplest meeting wif her really made a big impact to me. Sometimes I looked for her and all we did was just sitting down on the floor doing pure chatting, but I really enjoyed it. The last week before i left, she skipped the whole week just for me. We did lots of shopping and two movies 2gether. We had lots of breakfast 2gether. We seldom eat breakfast actually. Everything was just wonderful.
Well of course i would like to thank also to my friends. Gabriel n Kelsen, thanks for the Genting trip. It was great. Thanks to Gabriel for those mamak sessions n midnight basketball. Thanks Kelsen for the phone talks and the GL concert. Thanks shengwa for the bball, mamak, transport and everything else. Thanks sj4p though it was just a short one time outing, thx melvin for the mamak in ABC, thx. Thanks to my darling's family for all the wonderful things.
Sighz, I wanted to write longer but i just not in the mood. coz i just miss home too damn much. I'll be back soon
This paragraph is gonna be long. My darling. She gave me such wonderful memories, which i can never forget even if u fire a bullet in my head. Well, From the first day we met up, it was not quite an outing i've expected, in fact it was disappointed actually. She didn't even look at me, n she was so damn quiet throughout the whole meeting. Then i thought maybe after so long we didn't meet up, n we've been apart for quite a long long time, so maybe she just couldn't find words to speak out. Well, I have to admit, my feelings for her never fade, but lookin at that kinda situations, I thought maybe she've moved on with her life, so i shouldn't show my feelings to her anymore. What I've never expected was, right after that outing, she wrote a blog about me. Then i realise, she might still have the feelings for me, but i don't want to assume anything which is not proven true yet. But it all reveals on the 30th August. We had our first outing 1 on 1 for this holiday. Then i found out she does have feelings for me. But I wasn't brave enough to make any move. Between the time before we get together, we did see each other very often. Everynight after my parents felt asleep, I was desperate to see her. So I drove all the way to Sg Long and gave her suprise meetings, of course at that time I'm not sure if she really wanted to see me. But her reactions told me that she really did hope to see me, especially she was having exams and very stressful at that time.
In between there're some untold stories which brought us together again. Its like a miracle happen to me. I've been dreaming of this day for the past 2 years and it really happen now. Outings after Outings, movies after movies, supper after supper, it was really a honeymoon period for me throughout this whole holiday. Even the simplest meeting wif her really made a big impact to me. Sometimes I looked for her and all we did was just sitting down on the floor doing pure chatting, but I really enjoyed it. The last week before i left, she skipped the whole week just for me. We did lots of shopping and two movies 2gether. We had lots of breakfast 2gether. We seldom eat breakfast actually. Everything was just wonderful.
Well of course i would like to thank also to my friends. Gabriel n Kelsen, thanks for the Genting trip. It was great. Thanks to Gabriel for those mamak sessions n midnight basketball. Thanks Kelsen for the phone talks and the GL concert. Thanks shengwa for the bball, mamak, transport and everything else. Thanks sj4p though it was just a short one time outing, thx melvin for the mamak in ABC, thx. Thanks to my darling's family for all the wonderful things.
Sighz, I wanted to write longer but i just not in the mood. coz i just miss home too damn much. I'll be back soon
Sighz, happy times passes so damn fast. Its just hours before I'm gonna depart from this memorable land. I feel very awkard and I just couldn't confirm what kind of feeling I'm having. But definately for sure I don't feel excited. My heart, its just so "heavy". I've never felt that way before. For the last 2 times when I was about to leave, I was calm n cool. But this year, its just so hard. Tears already start flowing for the past few days when i start thinking of the day I'm leaving.
Its ironic, because from the day I came back for holidays, I hav expected that the day will come where i hav to go back. But still, its like i can't accept the fact at all. I wish for more time. From the day me n my darling are an item again, we've expected that one day I'll leave to Germany. So basically we should be ready to face the fact by now. However, its totally different. Its so much harder than expected. Well, thats the price i have to pay for such a wonderful holidays. Forget about the Big Ben in London, or the Tattoo night in Scotland, or the Eiffel Tower in Paris, this trip back to Malaysia is such much better than those wonderful sights. Gosh, I'm holding my tears while typing this post. I'm just too emotional.
Well, though its time for me to suffer again, but I've never regret. This is the best holiday i ever had.
Its ironic, because from the day I came back for holidays, I hav expected that the day will come where i hav to go back. But still, its like i can't accept the fact at all. I wish for more time. From the day me n my darling are an item again, we've expected that one day I'll leave to Germany. So basically we should be ready to face the fact by now. However, its totally different. Its so much harder than expected. Well, thats the price i have to pay for such a wonderful holidays. Forget about the Big Ben in London, or the Tattoo night in Scotland, or the Eiffel Tower in Paris, this trip back to Malaysia is such much better than those wonderful sights. Gosh, I'm holding my tears while typing this post. I'm just too emotional.
Well, though its time for me to suffer again, but I've never regret. This is the best holiday i ever had.
It's 6 days before I'll leave this wonderful place. Lets not talk about the sad feeling. I've been doing alot of shopping or window shopping these 2 days, with my darling of course. Yesterday, which is Monday Oct 9th, we had an outing in Midvalley. But before that we had "breakfast" twice which is so tasty lolz. We took a cab later to Midvalley which reminds us of the old time. During form 4 and 5, we used to take cab to midvalley and its like almost all the outings are all in midvalley because its the nearest to our home. Really had lots of sweet flashbacks on that day. We watched Rob-B-Hood by Jackie Chan. Its a freaking funny movie and its really one of the best from Jackie. Though not much action as compared to Jackie's typical action movies, but its filted wif loads of laughter. Along wif Jackie, other actors like Louis Koo, Charlene Choi, and some guest superstars made the whole movie one of the best. Super recommended, so watch it if u hav the chance!!!! After the movie, we had our lunch in Kenny Rodgers. After that we did some window shopping, but couldn't find anything we like. My darling desperately wanted to get me something so it can remind me of her when i'm back in germany. But even without the gift, I'll remember her for the rest of my life and i'll miss her so damn much when i'm back there.
Today, it was another happy day with my darling, especially me. We set on a trip to KLCC. We took LRT down this time, which is another thing worth remembering because last time we always take LRT down to shopping malls when we're staying in Setapak. Well i hate to say this again, though KL is a wonderful places but there ar lots of OKs, n u can always find lots of them in LRT. There was one blardy Malay barger shaking his legs right beside me. I'm fine wif u shaking ur legs as long as u hav no contact wif me, but this guy's leg is just beside mine. I do my part di to try to get further to him, but he opened his leg so wide like wanna fuck ppl izzit??? I was so patient wif him, and my darling calm me down all the time. If my darling wasn't there to do so, I would hav yelled at that farking malay barger di.
Anyhow though this blardy barger din spoil my mood for shopping. We went to PDI at first n my dear bought a yellow shirt which is quite nice. Later we went to Isetan and I saw a Casio watch having discount. I luv that watch so much. After walking few rounds in KLCC, my darling bought that watch for me, and i was so damn happy. I luv u so much dear. Thx for the watch. Of course even without the watch I still luv u, and now the watch will remind me bout u all the time. Sorry i couldn't take a clear pic of that watch, but i'll upload the pic of that model...
Sighz, i feel bad actually coz my darling got me a watch but i din get her anythin. Hope she'll forgive me. A few more days left. Hope I can enjoy the rest of the days wif my darling.
Today, it was another happy day with my darling, especially me. We set on a trip to KLCC. We took LRT down this time, which is another thing worth remembering because last time we always take LRT down to shopping malls when we're staying in Setapak. Well i hate to say this again, though KL is a wonderful places but there ar lots of OKs, n u can always find lots of them in LRT. There was one blardy Malay barger shaking his legs right beside me. I'm fine wif u shaking ur legs as long as u hav no contact wif me, but this guy's leg is just beside mine. I do my part di to try to get further to him, but he opened his leg so wide like wanna fuck ppl izzit??? I was so patient wif him, and my darling calm me down all the time. If my darling wasn't there to do so, I would hav yelled at that farking malay barger di.
Anyhow though this blardy barger din spoil my mood for shopping. We went to PDI at first n my dear bought a yellow shirt which is quite nice. Later we went to Isetan and I saw a Casio watch having discount. I luv that watch so much. After walking few rounds in KLCC, my darling bought that watch for me, and i was so damn happy. I luv u so much dear. Thx for the watch. Of course even without the watch I still luv u, and now the watch will remind me bout u all the time. Sorry i couldn't take a clear pic of that watch, but i'll upload the pic of that model...
Sighz, i feel bad actually coz my darling got me a watch but i din get her anythin. Hope she'll forgive me. A few more days left. Hope I can enjoy the rest of the days wif my darling.
I received a sms from SW yesterday. Pn Lim, my form 2 class teacher had just pass away. It was suffering for her for the past few years. She was in koma for the last 4 years. Sighz. She was a great teacher and I'll always remember her. Rest in peace and lets mourn together.
Well, i had this weird feeling these few days. Recently i had some small arguements wif my dear. The positive side of all these arguements are that me n my dear ar able to settle it in a good way. Compare to the past, we really handle it well. I guess we really learned well from our past relationship. Just want to say honey I'm sorry for the past few days.
Well, I've received a confirmation bout my flight details on wednesday and on thursday I visited the German Embassy to get a formal obligation from them. Nth special happen of course but it reminded me that gosh, I'll be leaving KL soon. Hate to mention the embarassing side of me, I cried that day while thinking of it. I remember the last 2 weeks before i left back to germany last year was different. I was ok wif it and just spend the 2 weeks preparing to go back. I don't feel anything at all, no harsh feeling. But this year it was totally different. I hav around 1 week before i go back but I'm already starting to feel sad about it. Sighz, I guess i can't be cool bout it.
I guess i have to start planning for the next week. I hav nth much to accomplish, just want to spend time wif my darling. We still hav a movie to watch of course. And the rest, just go wif the flow la.
Well, i had this weird feeling these few days. Recently i had some small arguements wif my dear. The positive side of all these arguements are that me n my dear ar able to settle it in a good way. Compare to the past, we really handle it well. I guess we really learned well from our past relationship. Just want to say honey I'm sorry for the past few days.
Well, I've received a confirmation bout my flight details on wednesday and on thursday I visited the German Embassy to get a formal obligation from them. Nth special happen of course but it reminded me that gosh, I'll be leaving KL soon. Hate to mention the embarassing side of me, I cried that day while thinking of it. I remember the last 2 weeks before i left back to germany last year was different. I was ok wif it and just spend the 2 weeks preparing to go back. I don't feel anything at all, no harsh feeling. But this year it was totally different. I hav around 1 week before i go back but I'm already starting to feel sad about it. Sighz, I guess i can't be cool bout it.
I guess i have to start planning for the next week. I hav nth much to accomplish, just want to spend time wif my darling. We still hav a movie to watch of course. And the rest, just go wif the flow la.
Well, it was my first time going to Ikea KL yesterday. 4 of us altogether. Me, my darling, my god-sis(aka lau niang) and her bf. It wasn't my idea to go ikea of course since i'm not planning to get married soon and I don't have to get any furnitures. Basically the settings of Ikea is the same everywhere, n i've been to the one in Germie so it's not something new to me. However first time going with my darling is somethin special. First time going to the curve too. lets change the name, the curve to the "CRAP" since its such a crappy place. But despite the crappy shops, my darling still able to get a fashionable pair of shoes. Simple but fashionable. Good choice my dear.
Back to Ikea. Well, we did look around the arrangement and the design of Ikea's furniture. Tried out some beds, sofas, so on and most importantly Mirrors. Haha. Me n my dear were like so thick skin because wherever we see Mirrors, we'll both go there and hav a look at it, trying to admire our own looks. Lolzzz. We did manage to take a mirror image, which i think its pretty well taken. It was taken with my camera phone, though the quality isn't that good but the angle was taken perfectly well. Hehe. Check the pic out, don't we look matching hehe??
Was suppose to watch a movie around 10pm but we were unable to make it, so we decided to take dinner at SS2. Went to Wong Kok Char Chan Teng. The food the wasn't that tasty and the waiters there ar like lansi lan yo0ng. Fuck them la. Waiter chai osso wan to be so lansi. Wat kinda attitude is that. Oh ya somethin i wan to mention. The mineral water over there cost even more than a glass of chinese Tea. Wtf?? well here's the reason.
See because this mineral is 3G man. After drinking this water, u can even teleport urself to the person u wanna call, not just video call lolzzz.
After the blardy lousy meal, it was raining heavily, poor vision. Yaeeehhh, broke my record. It was the first time I drove the whole journey on the left lane(slow lane). And i was driving below the speed limit, way below with both my hands on the steering, 10 2 o clock position. See, thats wat i call a civilized motorist.
Finally reach my darling's apartment. The blardy guard don't allow us to drive in though it was raining n my darling had some loads to take. Fuckers man. My darling was so pissed off but luckily she had me, the cooler than being cool guy to cool her down, hehe. Blardy hell, luckily tht's not my condo, i can't do much bout it. If the guard in my condo osso like that, he'll be damn hell of a shit di. I still remember scolding my condo guard in form 1. Shit man, the guards ar givin a guideline, but they abuse it. Fuckers!!!!
Though some part of the outing was a lil screwed, but spending time wif my darling has nvr been bad at all.
Back to Ikea. Well, we did look around the arrangement and the design of Ikea's furniture. Tried out some beds, sofas, so on and most importantly Mirrors. Haha. Me n my dear were like so thick skin because wherever we see Mirrors, we'll both go there and hav a look at it, trying to admire our own looks. Lolzzz. We did manage to take a mirror image, which i think its pretty well taken. It was taken with my camera phone, though the quality isn't that good but the angle was taken perfectly well. Hehe. Check the pic out, don't we look matching hehe??
Was suppose to watch a movie around 10pm but we were unable to make it, so we decided to take dinner at SS2. Went to Wong Kok Char Chan Teng. The food the wasn't that tasty and the waiters there ar like lansi lan yo0ng. Fuck them la. Waiter chai osso wan to be so lansi. Wat kinda attitude is that. Oh ya somethin i wan to mention. The mineral water over there cost even more than a glass of chinese Tea. Wtf?? well here's the reason.
See because this mineral is 3G man. After drinking this water, u can even teleport urself to the person u wanna call, not just video call lolzzz.
After the blardy lousy meal, it was raining heavily, poor vision. Yaeeehhh, broke my record. It was the first time I drove the whole journey on the left lane(slow lane). And i was driving below the speed limit, way below with both my hands on the steering, 10 2 o clock position. See, thats wat i call a civilized motorist.
Finally reach my darling's apartment. The blardy guard don't allow us to drive in though it was raining n my darling had some loads to take. Fuckers man. My darling was so pissed off but luckily she had me, the cooler than being cool guy to cool her down, hehe. Blardy hell, luckily tht's not my condo, i can't do much bout it. If the guard in my condo osso like that, he'll be damn hell of a shit di. I still remember scolding my condo guard in form 1. Shit man, the guards ar givin a guideline, but they abuse it. Fuckers!!!!
Though some part of the outing was a lil screwed, but spending time wif my darling has nvr been bad at all.
Sweet September ended yesterday. thats the bad news but at least it ended in a good way. Yesterday me n 2 of my closest person went to Michael's concert. My best bro, and my darling of course. Wenni dun whack me, but to be honest this concert is just a so so concert to me. Dun misunderstand, he's a very good composer and singer but unfortunately he's not a good live performer. The only reason i thought of was because 90% of his songs are slow sentimental song. Well i do love sentimental songs but imagine 3 hours of those songs, n u're sitting on a small seat in a small stadium packed wif fans. Well its just becoz its not my style of watching concert. To me, a concert must hav some slow songs and some rock so we can jump a lil and the best kind of concert is to hav some talent solo. However, due to the great company, i do enjoy the concert overall. He's slow romantic songs are really touching. Its worth watching wif my darling
After the concert, i felt so tired actually but i still wanna spend time wif my darling for supper. I sounded a lil grumpy coz yesterday was the first time i felt so tired at 12am. Sorry dear for being rude. My bro KS has to rush for a karaoke session wif his colleagues but he's having transport difficulty. Well he's lucky to hav a "yi hei"bro here to take him all the way down to 1U. After throwing him out of the car in 1U, me n my darling head to SS2 for indo mee supper. Was a lil pissed wif that place becoz ppl are snatching business around there. That was just a small part as we're still able to enjoy our indo mee supper(doesn't taste that good actually). After that i hang out in my darling's house till 3.30am. We had a lil heart 2 heart chat. We were so honest to each other and we just voice everything out that we're feeling uneasy with. Though some thing hurts alot but we're able to forgive each other. Well, as i mentioned in the previous post, honesty is the best solution for a relationship. Darling just wanna tell u, lets forget bout watever that's in the past, coz only the present and future matters.
Well, yesterday's outing marks the end of the sweet sweet september, which i'll remember the moments for the rest of my life. It's just too wonderful. Gosh i wish Time travel will turn to reality. I really wanna experience this sweet september again, and again n again again again..........
After the concert, i felt so tired actually but i still wanna spend time wif my darling for supper. I sounded a lil grumpy coz yesterday was the first time i felt so tired at 12am. Sorry dear for being rude. My bro KS has to rush for a karaoke session wif his colleagues but he's having transport difficulty. Well he's lucky to hav a "yi hei"bro here to take him all the way down to 1U. After throwing him out of the car in 1U, me n my darling head to SS2 for indo mee supper. Was a lil pissed wif that place becoz ppl are snatching business around there. That was just a small part as we're still able to enjoy our indo mee supper(doesn't taste that good actually). After that i hang out in my darling's house till 3.30am. We had a lil heart 2 heart chat. We were so honest to each other and we just voice everything out that we're feeling uneasy with. Though some thing hurts alot but we're able to forgive each other. Well, as i mentioned in the previous post, honesty is the best solution for a relationship. Darling just wanna tell u, lets forget bout watever that's in the past, coz only the present and future matters.
Well, yesterday's outing marks the end of the sweet sweet september, which i'll remember the moments for the rest of my life. It's just too wonderful. Gosh i wish Time travel will turn to reality. I really wanna experience this sweet september again, and again n again again again..........
This paragraph is dedicated to my dearest gf. Well recently she's been suffering from alot of pressure from various situations. Firstly she had exams to accomplish. Nobody loves exams of course. darling, gambatte k?? one more down n one more to go. U can do it. 2ndly i think she felt a lil unsecure bout our relationship. Partly it was my fault. I knoe there ar somethings that i din share wif her right away that makes her think that i'm not treating her like a gf. Dear, just want to say sorry. I promise i'll tell u watever i hav k?? Well its not easy to be back together even after 2 1/2 years. I've lost u once and i really don't want to lose u again.
Well after the past few post, I receive more comments from my friends. Ironically, almost all of them gave me a positive comments, even from those who i expect them to condemn bout my decisions. Well thx ppl for givin me such support. Really means alot to me.
I guess this holiday is one of the best for me. Though i've onli been to one outstation trip which is only to genting wif my 3 bros, and mostly just stayin in KL, but i really enjoy it alot. From the time where me n my darling still not an item, until today, so many things happen. I remember how she felt when i gav her suprise meetings. Even today I pretend that I'm not free to come but actually planning another suprise meeting, haha suprises after suprises but yet she's not able to predict those suprises. Maybe she did predicted but she just pretend that she don't knoe so she won't "potong steam". Anyway i hope she's happy with it. I knoe there's nth much i can do because i'm not workin yet and i dun hav much cash to spend, but thats the least i can do to show my love to her.
I'm out of idea wat to blog, or lets put it this way, there's too many things i wanted to blog but just don't know how to put in words. till next time then...
Well after the past few post, I receive more comments from my friends. Ironically, almost all of them gave me a positive comments, even from those who i expect them to condemn bout my decisions. Well thx ppl for givin me such support. Really means alot to me.
I guess this holiday is one of the best for me. Though i've onli been to one outstation trip which is only to genting wif my 3 bros, and mostly just stayin in KL, but i really enjoy it alot. From the time where me n my darling still not an item, until today, so many things happen. I remember how she felt when i gav her suprise meetings. Even today I pretend that I'm not free to come but actually planning another suprise meeting, haha suprises after suprises but yet she's not able to predict those suprises. Maybe she did predicted but she just pretend that she don't knoe so she won't "potong steam". Anyway i hope she's happy with it. I knoe there's nth much i can do because i'm not workin yet and i dun hav much cash to spend, but thats the least i can do to show my love to her.
I'm out of idea wat to blog, or lets put it this way, there's too many things i wanted to blog but just don't know how to put in words. till next time then...
My dear is sick today. Sighz, I felt so useless coz while she was suffering from a small flu, I'm in matta fair quarreling wif some OK. I should hav not gone to that matta n spend time wif my dear, could hav made porridge for her. Sorry dear, can't be wif u all the time, esp when u're sick. Hope u take care of urself and remember to take medication as instructed by the doc. No spicy food, cold drinks or fried food for the moment k??
Sorry for freezing u guys wif all the sweet words in these few blogs. Well, u'll nvr understand how i feel. Found wat i've lost, thats the best thing that ever happen to me so far. I can't help expressing all my happiness and sharing all the wonderful time i had within this short 1 month period. I wanna tell a rough story of how it happens.
When i first came back to KL, the second day itself I visited my darling(which wasn't at that time) and my god-sis, both in Sg Long. It was kinda far n Gabe was the man wif the wheels. We had a drink n food in station 1, right opposite my darling's hse. But then she was cold to us, in that 3 hours session, she probably onli spoken not more than 10 sentences while i was the noisy one. We played games and i could see that she wasn't happy at all. Deep in my heart, i actually felt hurt coz way b4 i came back, we were so close in MSN. We chat alot via skype, MSN n even webcamming. It wasn't those kinda outing i was expecting. Bcoz of that, I told myself "dude get over it man, she's havin her own life now n she's not so excited seeing u".
We were cold to each other after that outing, average only 10 sms in 7 days. Then the ice breaker came, on 30th August. Well, as i did mention in my previous post, 30th August has always been a memorable day for me, n to her i assumed(b4 i knoe she also had the same feelings). So i had an idea to go 1 to 1 wif her for an outing, a movie. Without hesitations, she just agreed. I was a lil shock because i never thought she would go on a sort of date wif me again, n its 1 to 1. She gave me the allowance to choose the movie that we are gonna watch. So i decided to choose "click" which i think was the perfect choice at that time. It was sort of a touching movie, and it really shakes my heart a lil. Throughout the whole outing, I had this intention to hold her hands again but in my brain, i kept reminding myself "dude its over man, since 2 1/2 years. Now just frenz, no more no less".
Though it was just a normal typical movie plus supper session that Msians usually do, but to me it was a special nite. Its like we actually get to knoe more bout each other n catch up wat we've lost in this 2 1/2 years. All in a sudden, all the bad impression i had for her since our ultimate break up slowly gone, n finally realized that its just one side story. WIthout further thinking, we checked our schedule to arrange another "date". The next was 6th Sept, 1U for a meal n movie. Well, though we've been 2gether for 3 1/2 years b4, but we've never visited 1U 2gether. I've oni been 1U for 2 or 3 times max. We were getting closer, and this time we hold hands on and off, especially in cinema. It happens very naturally, without any force. After the movie, as usual, supper time again. So we discuss bout our relationship and wat we agree on. I realized that she actually do have feelings for me, by judging deep in her eyes of course. But I don't want to make any conclusion because I wasn't sure how she feels bout me. In the end we agreed on just being "special frenz", which means not normal frenz, but not couple. Sounds complicated rite??
After that supper, instead of sending her home, we parked our car in an isolated area(yeap i knoe how dangerous it was nowadays but we just couldn't let each other go that time.) After a lil chat in the car, we start kissing, again naturally. No dirty things happen so don't ever think bout it. After that kiss, its like the feeling all rush throughout my body. I think she felt the same way.
After that day, we get closer day by day, chatting on the phone, sms and sometimes meeting each other for a drink, something big which i don't wanna talk bout it. All i can say was that incident was a bad thingy, but on the positive side, it brought us back together. After being officially back together, we do have ups n downs, discussions and heart 2 heart talk, honest stuff, everything just spit out. I guess all i have to say is that honesty is one of the key to ensure a smooth relationship. From that on, we were so close and sweet, its like my honeymoon period. I hope it continues to be this way in the future.
Well thats a summary of how things happen between us, which is boring to some of u i guess, but u'll nvr be able to understand how much it means to me.
Thats bout my lil love story. Oh ya, bout why i'm so pissed off in matta fair. I bet this is not the first time u see someone complaining bout all these. K first of all, what do we learn in kindergarden or primary skul?? LINE UP!!!!!! Some bastards cut queue today while me n mom already queue up for half hour, n so as the rest of the queue. Nobody took the initiative so I do the job for them. I pissed those cut queue bastard n i screw the workers in that booth. C'mon man though i've onli work for 2 roadshows b4 but dude I've done a coordinator's job. This kinda things shouldn't happen at all. If u see someone cut queue, pls do something. And its not like they're short of personals over there, I look around the booth n i saw some promoters sitting on the bench goyang kaki. If i were the supervisor, I'll fuck them right in front of the crowd man, i'll ask them to sit down on an invinsible chair n goyang kaki for the whole day. See how long u can tahan. Dude u're paid for doing ur job not goyang kaki. thats bout the workers over there. Then i came to another booth and me n my mom started enquiring bout the flight tics fair to Germie. The person took out a price list n was about to check for us, until a middle age women, in her late 2os or 30s came to ask the same person bout some package tour. At first we thought maybe she just wanna ask a short question. But she kept on asking and asking question. In the end i couldn't stand it, again I raised my voice on that blardy aunty n ask her to piss herself off, n let us finish our business first. That promoter osso damn ngong wan, if i really made a deal wif him, the deal involve around Rm3000++ while the package that aunty was enquiring oni cost around RM200++. Dude let u choose la, RM 3000 or RM200??? Damn sohai. I was so damn disappointed wif this kinda attitude. C'mon man, I dun care if u're dato's son, or nenek's daughter, u're still homo sapians. If u're a guy, u hav an elephant, n if u're a gal......lets just keep it to ourself. U're not different from anyone of us. So plz follow the rules and be a person wif class k?? U dun hav to be a billionair to show u're classy, all u need is just a simple manace. Unless u're not human, then prove to me u're not.
I thought u'll see this kinda things happening in a kampung area, but that was WTC. There're lots of OK around man. Shit man i dun condemn ppl like that but today i was so pissed off.
Guess i better stop if not all the KNNMCB words will be coming out di.
Sorry for freezing u guys wif all the sweet words in these few blogs. Well, u'll nvr understand how i feel. Found wat i've lost, thats the best thing that ever happen to me so far. I can't help expressing all my happiness and sharing all the wonderful time i had within this short 1 month period. I wanna tell a rough story of how it happens.
When i first came back to KL, the second day itself I visited my darling(which wasn't at that time) and my god-sis, both in Sg Long. It was kinda far n Gabe was the man wif the wheels. We had a drink n food in station 1, right opposite my darling's hse. But then she was cold to us, in that 3 hours session, she probably onli spoken not more than 10 sentences while i was the noisy one. We played games and i could see that she wasn't happy at all. Deep in my heart, i actually felt hurt coz way b4 i came back, we were so close in MSN. We chat alot via skype, MSN n even webcamming. It wasn't those kinda outing i was expecting. Bcoz of that, I told myself "dude get over it man, she's havin her own life now n she's not so excited seeing u".
We were cold to each other after that outing, average only 10 sms in 7 days. Then the ice breaker came, on 30th August. Well, as i did mention in my previous post, 30th August has always been a memorable day for me, n to her i assumed(b4 i knoe she also had the same feelings). So i had an idea to go 1 to 1 wif her for an outing, a movie. Without hesitations, she just agreed. I was a lil shock because i never thought she would go on a sort of date wif me again, n its 1 to 1. She gave me the allowance to choose the movie that we are gonna watch. So i decided to choose "click" which i think was the perfect choice at that time. It was sort of a touching movie, and it really shakes my heart a lil. Throughout the whole outing, I had this intention to hold her hands again but in my brain, i kept reminding myself "dude its over man, since 2 1/2 years. Now just frenz, no more no less".
Though it was just a normal typical movie plus supper session that Msians usually do, but to me it was a special nite. Its like we actually get to knoe more bout each other n catch up wat we've lost in this 2 1/2 years. All in a sudden, all the bad impression i had for her since our ultimate break up slowly gone, n finally realized that its just one side story. WIthout further thinking, we checked our schedule to arrange another "date". The next was 6th Sept, 1U for a meal n movie. Well, though we've been 2gether for 3 1/2 years b4, but we've never visited 1U 2gether. I've oni been 1U for 2 or 3 times max. We were getting closer, and this time we hold hands on and off, especially in cinema. It happens very naturally, without any force. After the movie, as usual, supper time again. So we discuss bout our relationship and wat we agree on. I realized that she actually do have feelings for me, by judging deep in her eyes of course. But I don't want to make any conclusion because I wasn't sure how she feels bout me. In the end we agreed on just being "special frenz", which means not normal frenz, but not couple. Sounds complicated rite??
After that supper, instead of sending her home, we parked our car in an isolated area(yeap i knoe how dangerous it was nowadays but we just couldn't let each other go that time.) After a lil chat in the car, we start kissing, again naturally. No dirty things happen so don't ever think bout it. After that kiss, its like the feeling all rush throughout my body. I think she felt the same way.
After that day, we get closer day by day, chatting on the phone, sms and sometimes meeting each other for a drink, something big which i don't wanna talk bout it. All i can say was that incident was a bad thingy, but on the positive side, it brought us back together. After being officially back together, we do have ups n downs, discussions and heart 2 heart talk, honest stuff, everything just spit out. I guess all i have to say is that honesty is one of the key to ensure a smooth relationship. From that on, we were so close and sweet, its like my honeymoon period. I hope it continues to be this way in the future.
Well thats a summary of how things happen between us, which is boring to some of u i guess, but u'll nvr be able to understand how much it means to me.
Thats bout my lil love story. Oh ya, bout why i'm so pissed off in matta fair. I bet this is not the first time u see someone complaining bout all these. K first of all, what do we learn in kindergarden or primary skul?? LINE UP!!!!!! Some bastards cut queue today while me n mom already queue up for half hour, n so as the rest of the queue. Nobody took the initiative so I do the job for them. I pissed those cut queue bastard n i screw the workers in that booth. C'mon man though i've onli work for 2 roadshows b4 but dude I've done a coordinator's job. This kinda things shouldn't happen at all. If u see someone cut queue, pls do something. And its not like they're short of personals over there, I look around the booth n i saw some promoters sitting on the bench goyang kaki. If i were the supervisor, I'll fuck them right in front of the crowd man, i'll ask them to sit down on an invinsible chair n goyang kaki for the whole day. See how long u can tahan. Dude u're paid for doing ur job not goyang kaki. thats bout the workers over there. Then i came to another booth and me n my mom started enquiring bout the flight tics fair to Germie. The person took out a price list n was about to check for us, until a middle age women, in her late 2os or 30s came to ask the same person bout some package tour. At first we thought maybe she just wanna ask a short question. But she kept on asking and asking question. In the end i couldn't stand it, again I raised my voice on that blardy aunty n ask her to piss herself off, n let us finish our business first. That promoter osso damn ngong wan, if i really made a deal wif him, the deal involve around Rm3000++ while the package that aunty was enquiring oni cost around RM200++. Dude let u choose la, RM 3000 or RM200??? Damn sohai. I was so damn disappointed wif this kinda attitude. C'mon man, I dun care if u're dato's son, or nenek's daughter, u're still homo sapians. If u're a guy, u hav an elephant, n if u're a gal......lets just keep it to ourself. U're not different from anyone of us. So plz follow the rules and be a person wif class k?? U dun hav to be a billionair to show u're classy, all u need is just a simple manace. Unless u're not human, then prove to me u're not.
I thought u'll see this kinda things happening in a kampung area, but that was WTC. There're lots of OK around man. Shit man i dun condemn ppl like that but today i was so pissed off.
Guess i better stop if not all the KNNMCB words will be coming out di.
I had a lil suprise today. Darling made somethin really nice for me. Its a self-made photo album wif own description. Well, I always wanted to have a set of her pics and our pics, but I can only view it in her MSN space or friendster. I've casually mentioned once to her that i wish i would have a set of those pics but i just mention it without hoping anything. But she somehow remembered my words and made up a super nice foto-album. Here's some pics taken from that photo album.
See, its so nice. I luv it so so so much. Thanks darling for doing all these for me. Ur effort is pretty much appreciated by me.
This is the front page of the photo album.
The middle page. Beautifully done. Love it so so much
Thats the back page.
Oh Sushi on 21st Sept. One of my dear's fave pics. I luv it so much too. hehe.
Another fave pic. Taken in starbucks 1 Utama. That time we still not together. it was 30th August. We had lots of flashback that day n i guess finally we couldn't resist each other, so ended up being back together. Hehe so sweet
Many more pics but i guess i'll upload it next time.
Most of my friends know, I was deeply hurt 2 1/2 years ago and I've never recover, never really moved on. I was still putting hope and I've never stop believing what i've believed. Damn sounds like those stupid Matrix morpheus thingy. In a simple way of explaining, I've never giv up hopes. Yes I do admit, I put in lots of emotion in it, including hate, anger, impatient, childish n so on. I've once lost my direction n i know I'm just weak, weak in handling my love life. I'm living in the 21st century and i'm still acting like those in the past few centuries. So far, i've feelings only for 1 gal, though i do have small crushes on others in between.
Well, back to the topic "I'm ready". So wat am i ready for?? i think i still need to do a lil intro b4 i really get to the point. Few years back, I'm those guys who care so much bout my face, not physically. I mean I'm those kinda guys who's "takut malu". I care pretty much of ppl's comment, ppl's opinion. N if majority go against it, I'll not do it. As time goes by, I start realizing that I've actually lost alot of things in my life. Alot of precious things, just becoz i listen to other ppl's comment.
1 month past since i'm back. As u can see if u've read my past few blogs, yeap its so special. K lets go straight to wat i wanna say. I've found wat I've lost 2 1/2 years ago. Though i have to admit, the process of finding it, and to forgive n forget its nvr easy. It took me a long marathon of thoughts and consideration, but finally I decided to giv myself and the opposite party another chance. Of course i wouldn't know my judgement would be right or wrong, and i do admit i've received lots of positive and negative comments. Well its not that i don't care what my friends advice me, I'll take those advice but on the other hand I'll also hope my friends will support me in whatever I'm doing.
I've drag drag drag but now I'm going into the main point. Yes I'm ready. I'm ready to write it down on this blog. I'm attached again, to the same person. Of course there're some incident which brings us back together and of course there're lots of reason why i do this, which is gonna be a long long story. I'll tell u bout it if u have the time, personally.
I've spent the most valuable time in this 1 month time. Though sometimes we just sit down doing nth or pure chatting, but its so precious, i've never felt wasted. In my older post or my old blog, I've critisized alot bout her, but all i have to say is I'm deeply sorry bout it. It was just my side of the story which is not true at all. I've never tried standing in her position to see things. Now i've get a clearer picture bout the whole incident, All i can say is i can't change the past but I can try to be a better person in the future.
She, of course currently my gf, had change alot. She's now a much much more better person, more understanding. She's now a more mature person. I just wanna take this oppotunity to thank her, for firstly giving me a chance to be loved again, and also for giving me such wonderful times. though i might not know wat's gonna happen in the future, but i hope we can live on the way we wanted, the way we hoped.
Well, back to the topic "I'm ready". So wat am i ready for?? i think i still need to do a lil intro b4 i really get to the point. Few years back, I'm those guys who care so much bout my face, not physically. I mean I'm those kinda guys who's "takut malu". I care pretty much of ppl's comment, ppl's opinion. N if majority go against it, I'll not do it. As time goes by, I start realizing that I've actually lost alot of things in my life. Alot of precious things, just becoz i listen to other ppl's comment.
1 month past since i'm back. As u can see if u've read my past few blogs, yeap its so special. K lets go straight to wat i wanna say. I've found wat I've lost 2 1/2 years ago. Though i have to admit, the process of finding it, and to forgive n forget its nvr easy. It took me a long marathon of thoughts and consideration, but finally I decided to giv myself and the opposite party another chance. Of course i wouldn't know my judgement would be right or wrong, and i do admit i've received lots of positive and negative comments. Well its not that i don't care what my friends advice me, I'll take those advice but on the other hand I'll also hope my friends will support me in whatever I'm doing.
I've drag drag drag but now I'm going into the main point. Yes I'm ready. I'm ready to write it down on this blog. I'm attached again, to the same person. Of course there're some incident which brings us back together and of course there're lots of reason why i do this, which is gonna be a long long story. I'll tell u bout it if u have the time, personally.
I've spent the most valuable time in this 1 month time. Though sometimes we just sit down doing nth or pure chatting, but its so precious, i've never felt wasted. In my older post or my old blog, I've critisized alot bout her, but all i have to say is I'm deeply sorry bout it. It was just my side of the story which is not true at all. I've never tried standing in her position to see things. Now i've get a clearer picture bout the whole incident, All i can say is i can't change the past but I can try to be a better person in the future.
She, of course currently my gf, had change alot. She's now a much much more better person, more understanding. She's now a more mature person. I just wanna take this oppotunity to thank her, for firstly giving me a chance to be loved again, and also for giving me such wonderful times. though i might not know wat's gonna happen in the future, but i hope we can live on the way we wanted, the way we hoped.
Evaluation after 1 month being back home. Ok, despite the absense of my best friends most of the time, I guess i hav to say this holiday brings alot of meaningful memories to me so far. Well, my best bros aren't that free to hang out wif me everyday, but I still manage to fill up the emptyness.
I'm still not ready to tell the world about some of my things, but I guess most of my close friends already know bout it. All i can say is, I'm very thankful to God, that my dream finally came true. To be honest, I always wonder am i still dreaming. For once I thought this dream of mine is slowly fading, n becoming impossible. I've found something that I lost, and I'm gonna appreciate it every single second.
Last year when i came back from Germany for hols, around 2 weeks b4 i was scheduled to go back there again, I remembered that I wanted to leave KL as soon as possible, due to some reason. But for this holiday, I really wish for a longer time..though i still have around 20 days to spend. Sighz, time flies. I knoe the day will come, where I'm gonna go back to germany. Another 1 1/2 years to go before i really graduate, if everything goes smooth. Well, yes i know time flies and 1 1/2 years will just fly like a rocket, but I'm gonna suffer during this 1 1/2 years. But all i have to say is, "somethings do change, but some things do not". I'm pretty sure it'll not change.....
I'm still not ready to tell the world about some of my things, but I guess most of my close friends already know bout it. All i can say is, I'm very thankful to God, that my dream finally came true. To be honest, I always wonder am i still dreaming. For once I thought this dream of mine is slowly fading, n becoming impossible. I've found something that I lost, and I'm gonna appreciate it every single second.
Last year when i came back from Germany for hols, around 2 weeks b4 i was scheduled to go back there again, I remembered that I wanted to leave KL as soon as possible, due to some reason. But for this holiday, I really wish for a longer time..though i still have around 20 days to spend. Sighz, time flies. I knoe the day will come, where I'm gonna go back to germany. Another 1 1/2 years to go before i really graduate, if everything goes smooth. Well, yes i know time flies and 1 1/2 years will just fly like a rocket, but I'm gonna suffer during this 1 1/2 years. But all i have to say is, "somethings do change, but some things do not". I'm pretty sure it'll not change.....
I don't know what to put in the title. Nth special to blog actually but just feel like doing some updates. Having lots of ups n downs since the last post. I've just learned alot of things,facts, shocking news in just 24 hours ago. But, I'm just gonna F&F(forgive and forget) so there's no point of me mentioning it again.
I've been spending most of the time at home within these 2 days. But as usual, my days still starts at 4pm and ends around 6am. Today was a lil special. I slept only at 7am and purposely wake myself up around 9am for an important mission. Well, mission accomplished and I went back to sleep till 4pm.
Sweet september still moves on, and still continue being that sweet. 2moro the 13th September is a very special day to me actually. Not gonna mention the details bout it, but i hope everything will be smooth.
Though i still have 1 more month before going back to HELL, but i'm starting to feel that the holiday is ending soon. I wish for more time but i guess thats the only thing that i could never get. So far, it has been a wonderful holiday for me. Sighz, but good times nvr last long.
Nth much to mention over here now.
I've been spending most of the time at home within these 2 days. But as usual, my days still starts at 4pm and ends around 6am. Today was a lil special. I slept only at 7am and purposely wake myself up around 9am for an important mission. Well, mission accomplished and I went back to sleep till 4pm.
Sweet september still moves on, and still continue being that sweet. 2moro the 13th September is a very special day to me actually. Not gonna mention the details bout it, but i hope everything will be smooth.
Though i still have 1 more month before going back to HELL, but i'm starting to feel that the holiday is ending soon. I wish for more time but i guess thats the only thing that i could never get. So far, it has been a wonderful holiday for me. Sighz, but good times nvr last long.
Nth much to mention over here now.
again, history. September has always been a superb month for me since 2001. When the whole world was shocked and sad bout the 911 incident, I was having a lil sweet time on my own wif my ex-girlfriend. Alot more things happen during september, eg my first hug, first kiss, first 1 to 1 outing and many more. After we broke up, the sweet sweet september continues. in 2005 and current year, I'll spend my september in Malaysia. Every good thing happen to me in september.
For the past few blogs as u can see, 90% ar all bout happy stuff. its been about 2 weeks ++ i've been back in Msia. Lets say, so far I've had my most wonderful time. I hope it continues. Lets just forget about all da negative thoughts i had when i was back in Germany bout this holidays. Yes, some of the bad things i've mentioned b4 still remains there. I don't have a permanant car. I hav to wait till my parents comes back at 4pm then I'll hav the car to use. But it doesn't really affect me so much nowadays. Coz, my biological clock still remain GMT +1.00 which is equivalent to German time. My days start at 4pm which is the time i'll hav access to the car. My day ends at 6.00am which is also exactly the time where my parents need the car. As for friends, yeap they're still the same, busy wif studies. My best bro is back in Penang, while my other best bro Gabe working. Godfathar is goin back to prison, and sj4p don't really hav much gatherings. But I hav a special friend to thank coz she has constantly being a good company. No regrets at all.
So far, the things that i wanna accomplish b4 goin back to germany has been half completed. I've been to 2 karaoke sessions, 1 Genting trip, 1 pool session n lots of msian food, n of course DURIANZZZZ. Hehe its been 2 years i've tasted the delicious melt in ur mouth n ur tougue n ur throat n ur stomach Durianz.
Guess i'll end here b4 streamyx cut of my connection.
For the past few blogs as u can see, 90% ar all bout happy stuff. its been about 2 weeks ++ i've been back in Msia. Lets say, so far I've had my most wonderful time. I hope it continues. Lets just forget about all da negative thoughts i had when i was back in Germany bout this holidays. Yes, some of the bad things i've mentioned b4 still remains there. I don't have a permanant car. I hav to wait till my parents comes back at 4pm then I'll hav the car to use. But it doesn't really affect me so much nowadays. Coz, my biological clock still remain GMT +1.00 which is equivalent to German time. My days start at 4pm which is the time i'll hav access to the car. My day ends at 6.00am which is also exactly the time where my parents need the car. As for friends, yeap they're still the same, busy wif studies. My best bro is back in Penang, while my other best bro Gabe working. Godfathar is goin back to prison, and sj4p don't really hav much gatherings. But I hav a special friend to thank coz she has constantly being a good company. No regrets at all.
So far, the things that i wanna accomplish b4 goin back to germany has been half completed. I've been to 2 karaoke sessions, 1 Genting trip, 1 pool session n lots of msian food, n of course DURIANZZZZ. Hehe its been 2 years i've tasted the delicious melt in ur mouth n ur tougue n ur throat n ur stomach Durianz.
Guess i'll end here b4 streamyx cut of my connection.
Its been a sweet sweet time for me. Yes I hav to admit, its kinda boring during this 2 weeks of my stay back in KL without my hommies, esp day time as i don't hav a car to move around. My daily life usually begins around 3pm and ends around 6am the next day. However I enjoy alot during these 2 weeks, since the merdeka outing.
Midnight chats on the phone, tea break, talk our hearts out, sms-ings, many many more. These ar the things that i've been doin for the past few days wif one of my close friend. However things wouldn't last especially sweet times. Soon, we'll be bz wif our stuff and after that I'll be heading back to HELL. Well, i'm a person who does cherish all da sweet times i've spent wif anyone i think its worth spending wif. I'm far worse than being normal actually, I'm those kind of person who likes to "jiwang" or stuck in the past. But to me, every single piece of sweet memories is just worth thinkin bout it over n over again.
Yes i knoe not many ppl would understand wat i'm tryin to say. Anyway, just want to thank this person for doing so much to make things work out. Sacrifices after sacrifices, i really do appreciate all of those.
Back to some of me, actually i do hav some pics to upload but its not in this comp. Some like the new pair of shoes i bought last week, my blardy new haircut, new pairs of specs. Guess I'll do it 2moro, if streamyx does work well.
Oh yea Very soon i'm gonna blog bout streamyx di. If u all remember the vid in youtube bout this bus uncle, u'll see that very soon but the main characters will be me and the streamyx officers. I am gonna screw them kau kau di.
argghhhh it took me 4 times reconnecting to complete this blog, i'll update more soon. Fick streamyx.....oh dun need to guess the meaning of the word fick, its a new thing....
Midnight chats on the phone, tea break, talk our hearts out, sms-ings, many many more. These ar the things that i've been doin for the past few days wif one of my close friend. However things wouldn't last especially sweet times. Soon, we'll be bz wif our stuff and after that I'll be heading back to HELL. Well, i'm a person who does cherish all da sweet times i've spent wif anyone i think its worth spending wif. I'm far worse than being normal actually, I'm those kind of person who likes to "jiwang" or stuck in the past. But to me, every single piece of sweet memories is just worth thinkin bout it over n over again.
Yes i knoe not many ppl would understand wat i'm tryin to say. Anyway, just want to thank this person for doing so much to make things work out. Sacrifices after sacrifices, i really do appreciate all of those.
Back to some of me, actually i do hav some pics to upload but its not in this comp. Some like the new pair of shoes i bought last week, my blardy new haircut, new pairs of specs. Guess I'll do it 2moro, if streamyx does work well.
Oh yea Very soon i'm gonna blog bout streamyx di. If u all remember the vid in youtube bout this bus uncle, u'll see that very soon but the main characters will be me and the streamyx officers. I am gonna screw them kau kau di.
argghhhh it took me 4 times reconnecting to complete this blog, i'll update more soon. Fick streamyx.....oh dun need to guess the meaning of the word fick, its a new thing....
If ya'll hav watched the click, i'm sure u know what i'm trying to say. Well, I went to One Utama today for a movie. But b4 that, my friend brought me to Pudu to hav a chinese meal which is so delicious, but was a lil early however so we couldn't eat much. Then after that we went straight to 1U. Well, we were inexperience bout 1U coz we've only been there a couple of times. So we just enter wherever parking place we get first.
We parked at the old wing and all the shops that we wanted to visit is in the new wing. it took us a lil of time to find the new wing lolz. We asked some officers over ther bout the directions. Well, i act like i'm a singaporean and speak a lil singlish wif some American accent so i dun look so stupid. And finally we found GSC. After a short discussion, I finally decided to watch "My Super ex-girlfriend" which was very suitable for today's outing. The movie was at 11.45pm but that time was only 8 so we chill around in the new wing. It was all bout me coz I intend to get a T-shirt but couldn't get one though. We visited FCUK, Seed concept store, Esprit and parkson but couldn't get a nice one. After a short walk, we sat in Starbucks for a drink and a piece of my fave cake, Black Forest. We took alot of DIY pics but still not satisfied wif any of those we took. However there were of course some nice pics so i decided not to delete it. too bad for us, starbucks closes at 10.30pm which is 1 1/4 hours from our movie. So we found a nice bench around the Cinema and had a lil heart to heart chat. We finally able to understand our feelings respectively. So finally the movie starts and though the movie wasn't a great movie but it was still good. A good company usually boost up the happy mood. So overall i did enjoy the movie pretty much.
Well, believe in karma i would say. We parked our car in old wing as i've mentioned and we were so worried how to get to our car coz at 1.40am most access are closed. But we decided to pay the ticket first right outside the cinema in case we couldn't find any near our car. So we queued up at the paying machine. But this blardy machine which is so bitchy, only accept coins and the person in front of me don't have enough so I spare her some. So hoping karma really works, i was thinkin since i've did somethin good today so i osso hope someone's there to help us to find the car. True enuf there was a nice guard there to open the gates which he's not suppose in order for us to get to the other wing. thats why we should always learn how to help ppl like wat i've mentioned in my previous post.
Out we go from 1U, went to cheras for a supper. I ate alot of stuff and bought some "original" DVDs. Then i send my friend home. We did stop by somewhere quiet to hav a lil "chat" again but coz it was late so we only stop by for while. When i reached home, i left my cam and the dvd's at my friend's bag. guess we're fated to meet up again.
Overall, it was a very memorable nite. I wish i'd get more of this outing. But time passes very fast. Thats why Mr click, can i pause at where i am and just hav all da happy times but the clock still remains its position???....
We parked at the old wing and all the shops that we wanted to visit is in the new wing. it took us a lil of time to find the new wing lolz. We asked some officers over ther bout the directions. Well, i act like i'm a singaporean and speak a lil singlish wif some American accent so i dun look so stupid. And finally we found GSC. After a short discussion, I finally decided to watch "My Super ex-girlfriend" which was very suitable for today's outing. The movie was at 11.45pm but that time was only 8 so we chill around in the new wing. It was all bout me coz I intend to get a T-shirt but couldn't get one though. We visited FCUK, Seed concept store, Esprit and parkson but couldn't get a nice one. After a short walk, we sat in Starbucks for a drink and a piece of my fave cake, Black Forest. We took alot of DIY pics but still not satisfied wif any of those we took. However there were of course some nice pics so i decided not to delete it. too bad for us, starbucks closes at 10.30pm which is 1 1/4 hours from our movie. So we found a nice bench around the Cinema and had a lil heart to heart chat. We finally able to understand our feelings respectively. So finally the movie starts and though the movie wasn't a great movie but it was still good. A good company usually boost up the happy mood. So overall i did enjoy the movie pretty much.
Well, believe in karma i would say. We parked our car in old wing as i've mentioned and we were so worried how to get to our car coz at 1.40am most access are closed. But we decided to pay the ticket first right outside the cinema in case we couldn't find any near our car. So we queued up at the paying machine. But this blardy machine which is so bitchy, only accept coins and the person in front of me don't have enough so I spare her some. So hoping karma really works, i was thinkin since i've did somethin good today so i osso hope someone's there to help us to find the car. True enuf there was a nice guard there to open the gates which he's not suppose in order for us to get to the other wing. thats why we should always learn how to help ppl like wat i've mentioned in my previous post.
Out we go from 1U, went to cheras for a supper. I ate alot of stuff and bought some "original" DVDs. Then i send my friend home. We did stop by somewhere quiet to hav a lil "chat" again but coz it was late so we only stop by for while. When i reached home, i left my cam and the dvd's at my friend's bag. guess we're fated to meet up again.
Overall, it was a very memorable nite. I wish i'd get more of this outing. But time passes very fast. Thats why Mr click, can i pause at where i am and just hav all da happy times but the clock still remains its position???....
Most of the time, we follow our instinct, our intuition. For such emotional person like me, I do things according to my emotion. For some ppl, everything is super organized that if one day plan A goes wrong, its like end of the world for them. The most perfect situation is that a person has plan A B C n so on, and if plan A doesn't work then B otherwise C. But if A B C doesn't suits the situation, they can come out wif new ideas on the spot . However it requires lots of experience to be that.
Back to what i want to say. As i grow older and heading towards the path of maturity, I start to realize more and more of my bad attitude and habits. Since there's no turning back to ammend what i've done, Its time for me to make full usage of the 24hours a day to be a better person. Last time I hav to admit I'm very selfish. I think of myself first b4 other ppl. I just ignore what they think coz I believe its my life. but now i finally realize that without the ppl around me, My life is just nth. I always imagine wat if i'm Adam, and no Eve at all. I'm the only person on earth. Yes it does fulfill the "ITS MY LIFE" theory. But so what, I'm just a lonely barger.
Now, the first instinct that comes in my mind are always bout my friends, family or the ppl around me b4 i think of myself. Of course I won't do things for a person that will also hurt myself. Take a simple example, bout 4 years ago when i first got my P license(probitional not professional), though i drive a lousy car on the road, but I just luv to drive racklessly. When ppl turn out of the junction, I knoe that i hav plenty of time and there's no car behind me, but i just refuse to give way to them. Whoever cut my queue and the car they're drivin is lousier than mine, I'll just be very damn kiasu and overtake them. Thats how i am. Impatient. Another side of me is being a TYPICAL chinese. Only thing of benefits. Just like wat the Godfathar says, for a chinese civil engineer, every piece of land they'll use it for profit but never thought of the convinience of the public. But for a european engineer, they'll first think of safety, then convinience, then only profit. As for me before, I only do things if I get a return.
As for now, I finally realize human can't live alone. And we depend on each other very much. Sometimes u do things but u dun get any return at that moment, however u might get somethin out of it in the future. But whether u get anythin o not, it is always good being a good guy.
For the past 2 days, I've gave my close friend an unexpected suprise. Though it does take a lil sacrafice to giv the suprise, but i did it without hesitations. Its my basic instincts. Maybe i did expect a lil return, that is to win a smile from my friend. Thats all i want. I guess i've learnd how to put my friends and family before me.
Time really flies. This is what i felt, as we get older our friends get lesser. How true it is, u tell me!
Bye for now. Was suppose to update bout myself and some new gooddies, but not in the mood. Besides the pics ar not uploaded yet. Shall do it next time..chaozz
Back to what i want to say. As i grow older and heading towards the path of maturity, I start to realize more and more of my bad attitude and habits. Since there's no turning back to ammend what i've done, Its time for me to make full usage of the 24hours a day to be a better person. Last time I hav to admit I'm very selfish. I think of myself first b4 other ppl. I just ignore what they think coz I believe its my life. but now i finally realize that without the ppl around me, My life is just nth. I always imagine wat if i'm Adam, and no Eve at all. I'm the only person on earth. Yes it does fulfill the "ITS MY LIFE" theory. But so what, I'm just a lonely barger.
Now, the first instinct that comes in my mind are always bout my friends, family or the ppl around me b4 i think of myself. Of course I won't do things for a person that will also hurt myself. Take a simple example, bout 4 years ago when i first got my P license(probitional not professional), though i drive a lousy car on the road, but I just luv to drive racklessly. When ppl turn out of the junction, I knoe that i hav plenty of time and there's no car behind me, but i just refuse to give way to them. Whoever cut my queue and the car they're drivin is lousier than mine, I'll just be very damn kiasu and overtake them. Thats how i am. Impatient. Another side of me is being a TYPICAL chinese. Only thing of benefits. Just like wat the Godfathar says, for a chinese civil engineer, every piece of land they'll use it for profit but never thought of the convinience of the public. But for a european engineer, they'll first think of safety, then convinience, then only profit. As for me before, I only do things if I get a return.
As for now, I finally realize human can't live alone. And we depend on each other very much. Sometimes u do things but u dun get any return at that moment, however u might get somethin out of it in the future. But whether u get anythin o not, it is always good being a good guy.
For the past 2 days, I've gave my close friend an unexpected suprise. Though it does take a lil sacrafice to giv the suprise, but i did it without hesitations. Its my basic instincts. Maybe i did expect a lil return, that is to win a smile from my friend. Thats all i want. I guess i've learnd how to put my friends and family before me.
Time really flies. This is what i felt, as we get older our friends get lesser. How true it is, u tell me!
Bye for now. Was suppose to update bout myself and some new gooddies, but not in the mood. Besides the pics ar not uploaded yet. Shall do it next time..chaozz
2 months ago I shaved my hair estimating it'll grow to the normal length by the time i come back. 1 week b4 I'm home, I realized my hair is not long enuf to hav a asian hairstyle. So the only thing i can do is to make it spiky like durianz. Well, it suits me btw since i luv to eat durian so much. lolz. Anywayz, after being back for 1 week plus, I finally able to eat DURIANZ today.
See those delicious durianz?? Mann just couldn't understand why the Europeans don't enjoy the king of fruit. Eating durian in one of those fear factor stunt?? Man, bring it on man. We Msian will set the record for eating the most durianz in those stunts!!! lolzzz.
Lil more updates on my activities after the Genting trip. Honestly I din do much actually. I enjoy so much during the Merdeka's eve wif one of my closest friend, and I had a family outing on independence day itself. Though I had a lil pissed feeling over the planz on Friday, but at the end of the day everything turns well. First i went lot61 wif Kelsen. Kelsen had a pair of adicolor while I got a pair of white diesel shoes. Finally had a perfect shoes for outing, dun hav to wear my futsal shoes. Went home around 6.30pm then head to Midvalley to collect my glasses and hang out wif SW Gabe n Kel. Sat in Starbucks for bout 1 hour and did some chatting. Kel bought another adidas stan smith for a "Super" discounted price. haha dun ask me why i quote the super thingy, only 4 of us will knoe wats behind the story. Throughout the whole outing, I was half frus n half enjoyin actually, coz Kel and I really wanted to go karaoke but just too bad the plan had to be cancelled, but finally it was on. Thanx everyone involve in that k session for making it a reality. I sang most of the song i intended to sing, but unfortunately I embarassed myself wif my lousy singing skills. Still, its enjoyable and I don't wish it's the last visit to the Karaoke for this holiday.
Reach home around 6am, it was crazy. After i reach home, my mom woke up 15 mins later. She asked me wat time i reach home, I lied saying i came back at 2.30am. Otherwise, u'll probably see my head wif 2 big shot gun's bullet hole lying bloody on the streets!!!
time to be a lil typical me. Emo!! Lot of things happen to me recently which I'm unable to tell. i've been confused and often being controlled by my emotions. I told everyone of my friends, " there's 2 part of me. One the feelings, and the other one, the rationality. Bout the feelings, I'm very very confused bout it and I guess its going to the wrong side, but rationally, I knoe what I'm suppose to do. I knoe what's right and not". Yeap, I'll just neglect watever feelings i had now and act rationally. I always watch those chinese series and they always tells us to act according to ur heart, but i guess this time I can't. I hav to act according to my mind, to my analysis, to the right path. Sighz, I guess i should just forget everything and just enjoy the short time i'll spend over here.
I guess thats all for now. The next blog will be some physical looks and my new gooddies......
See those delicious durianz?? Mann just couldn't understand why the Europeans don't enjoy the king of fruit. Eating durian in one of those fear factor stunt?? Man, bring it on man. We Msian will set the record for eating the most durianz in those stunts!!! lolzzz.Lil more updates on my activities after the Genting trip. Honestly I din do much actually. I enjoy so much during the Merdeka's eve wif one of my closest friend, and I had a family outing on independence day itself. Though I had a lil pissed feeling over the planz on Friday, but at the end of the day everything turns well. First i went lot61 wif Kelsen. Kelsen had a pair of adicolor while I got a pair of white diesel shoes. Finally had a perfect shoes for outing, dun hav to wear my futsal shoes. Went home around 6.30pm then head to Midvalley to collect my glasses and hang out wif SW Gabe n Kel. Sat in Starbucks for bout 1 hour and did some chatting. Kel bought another adidas stan smith for a "Super" discounted price. haha dun ask me why i quote the super thingy, only 4 of us will knoe wats behind the story. Throughout the whole outing, I was half frus n half enjoyin actually, coz Kel and I really wanted to go karaoke but just too bad the plan had to be cancelled, but finally it was on. Thanx everyone involve in that k session for making it a reality. I sang most of the song i intended to sing, but unfortunately I embarassed myself wif my lousy singing skills. Still, its enjoyable and I don't wish it's the last visit to the Karaoke for this holiday.
Reach home around 6am, it was crazy. After i reach home, my mom woke up 15 mins later. She asked me wat time i reach home, I lied saying i came back at 2.30am. Otherwise, u'll probably see my head wif 2 big shot gun's bullet hole lying bloody on the streets!!!
time to be a lil typical me. Emo!! Lot of things happen to me recently which I'm unable to tell. i've been confused and often being controlled by my emotions. I told everyone of my friends, " there's 2 part of me. One the feelings, and the other one, the rationality. Bout the feelings, I'm very very confused bout it and I guess its going to the wrong side, but rationally, I knoe what I'm suppose to do. I knoe what's right and not". Yeap, I'll just neglect watever feelings i had now and act rationally. I always watch those chinese series and they always tells us to act according to ur heart, but i guess this time I can't. I hav to act according to my mind, to my analysis, to the right path. Sighz, I guess i should just forget everything and just enjoy the short time i'll spend over here.
I guess thats all for now. The next blog will be some physical looks and my new gooddies......
3 years ago, I had the most memorable merdeka eve and becoz of that day, its like an automatic reminder that every year's merdeka eve I'll hav a lil flash back. In 2004 unfortunately, it din turn up so well. I can clearly remember that I'm doin roadshow wif Telekom n i received an unexpected call that did not turn up so well. 2005 however, it was quite nice for me because its the day i came back to Msia from Germany for the first time since i'm there. As for this year, I had an outing wif one of my friend. Watched "the click" which was a touching n nice story. When for supper and hang out till 5am. Had a great chat n overall it was a superb outing. Not goin into details however.
It was a nice merdeka eve but wasn't a nice merdeka day at all. It was great at first, spending time wif family. We din do much shopping but bought a new DVD player and some other small stuff. but it all turn wrong towards the end of the day.
I just wish i hav special abilities to read ppl's mind. But i knoe it'll be very bad of me to do that. But I'm just hurt. I really don't understand why ppl will giv promises which they dun even want to keep. Maybe its just kind of them coz they just wanna reject in a good manner, but I'm those person who prefer a more direct and straight forward answer.
I realized one thing, words can really kill someone softly. Words, can really change someone's mood. So, I would really like to advice ppl to watch out of what they say. Don't go hurt ppl, esp if ur a guy dun go hurt a gal wif ur words. If u dun mean anythin then dun say it. or if u're ain't sure bout it, dun even try convincing ppl.....
anyway I'm goin for karaoke 2moro but i'm not sure if it'll be enjoyable. Hope it does.
It was a nice merdeka eve but wasn't a nice merdeka day at all. It was great at first, spending time wif family. We din do much shopping but bought a new DVD player and some other small stuff. but it all turn wrong towards the end of the day.
I just wish i hav special abilities to read ppl's mind. But i knoe it'll be very bad of me to do that. But I'm just hurt. I really don't understand why ppl will giv promises which they dun even want to keep. Maybe its just kind of them coz they just wanna reject in a good manner, but I'm those person who prefer a more direct and straight forward answer.
I realized one thing, words can really kill someone softly. Words, can really change someone's mood. So, I would really like to advice ppl to watch out of what they say. Don't go hurt ppl, esp if ur a guy dun go hurt a gal wif ur words. If u dun mean anythin then dun say it. or if u're ain't sure bout it, dun even try convincing ppl.....
anyway I'm goin for karaoke 2moro but i'm not sure if it'll be enjoyable. Hope it does.
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