today I skipped BBA for many reasons. Certainly weather is one of it. But the consolation was that I get to watched the El Clasico. I feel sorry for Mourinho, such a highly anticipated game turn ugly. Barca don't just play like a team, they act like a team too. Proven when Ronal-f**kingdo pushed the manager Pep. While losing 3 or 4 up, things turn really ugly. Really bad losers. I pity Messi, been hamburgered, sandwiched, squashed. Poor thing. Real Losers! But, being much of a Barca supporter in this match, 5 goals with lots of action and fight, was great to watch. Haven't been watching such high standard football since the Germany Argentina and England match. I missed out on MU's 7-1 crush game.
Recently I've been really moody and emotional. In office, there are some guys with their typical thinking, really show obvious signs that they don't like Aliens like us walking around their office. One of them is a group leader, driving a BMW. Looks very typical German, act like one too. Oh well, he better get used to it as I will be in the office for another 5 months anyway. I'm really gladful to have a supervisor that doesn't give much pressure on me, and always encourage me to attend important things in the office. As intern, we're not required but he always wanted me to attend all the group and department meetings. Last Wed I was late and i missed it, but I was told he apologized to the whole group for my absence. Erm, I'm just a trainee guy there. Right now, I'm doing my thesis and I'm not even consider as an employee anymore. I am now a fulltime student with the permission to use their facilities. Erm, to clarify further, an intern is consider as an employee, with fixed working hours to fulfill and "allowance". Whereas for Thesis student, we're not required to work for certain hours and our monthly pay is consider as a grant for fulfilling our Thesis in a company. they judge based on the academic level how much to give, and divide it by how many months I'll be here.
Back to Bosch. Erm, yes despite virtually having high hopes from my supervisor for me to stay, unfortunately he's not the person with the power to hire. One "hidden" rule is that, you have to speak fluent German on top of English. I'd be honest, I have been far much quieter while I'm in office, mainly due to the language barrier. I can speak German, and can quite understand well, but I'd say my level is just around 3-4 out of 10. Barely enough to survive in a high quality company. Perhaps u might think, there's not much need of an engineer to speak, wrong! Most of the job posted requires great communication skill as our projects are always between departments to departments. Even my thesis, the layout are done by layout experts. My task is to instruct the experts how I want it to be done, and that requires a great communication skills. I was lucky enough that the layout expert dealing with my project is doing his training as he works for Bosch India and speaks only English. The indian style of course.
So, as much as I would love to have a few more years of experience in Bosch, I doubt my chances. I've submitted my papers for the career day this Saturday, but receive no official invitation from them. That means, I'm uninvited to go. Too bad. But I am quite optimistic that by the time I grad, jobs will be waiting for me. With a Master Degree from one of the best in Asia and Europe, plus a great deal of experience in Bosch, I believe jobs will come to me in a great economy condition. Just hope no recession during that time. As much as I felt being capable of doing a PhD, I think i'll leave the head damage aside. I'm really looking forward for all these academic stuff to end. I am honestly a lil sick of studying, though i know it's a neve ending cycle.
Anyway, to end this post. I'd just have to say....It's already the end of 4th Month I'm here, and another 5 to go. Hooray! Erm, deadline will be the week before Christmas for my Design, and things are going quite well at the moment. Then, it will be my Christmas break with some of my old friends in Duisburg. Yeah! Looking forward.
It really cheer me up while reading the short comments regarding toothbrush and baseball bat. Luckily they both haven't seen my joystick yet. so can't compare mine lol.
Jiwang is back. I've never been using this word since the post where u can find jiwang. Should I explain it again? Nah, I guess those who read will understand anywayz.
First, lets talk about the small little BBA I had, which is a routine Monday thingy. BBA stands for Bosch Basketball Association. Today, we are short of 2 players but still play 4 on 4 full court. My legs till now are shivering, after such tiring game. Initially all went wrong, My shots either didn't reach the basket all was just blocked. It lasted like that for almost half hour. Finally they call for break. While they have their small little chat, I took the ball and keep shooting. Finally found my rhythm again. It was woop, swoosh, dong dong swoosh and the highlight of my game was the fancy no look behind my back alley oop pass. If that guy were a little taller, I think he'll tear the rim apart already lol.
Now the negative from the game. I believe basketball is called contact sports for a reason right? The whole game, I never called a foul because I want the game to flow. I had been fouled few times, especially a small guy like me trying to penetrate the zone with those big guys inside. But I choose to keep quiet. Just let the game flow aint? NO. Every small click of the hand, FOUL. Before you even know what's happening, FOUL. This is really boring. Don't like it at all. C'mon, some even have their arm bigger than my thigh, GDI! But overall it was still quite enjoyable.
Now the emo part comes. As u know, I have to walk home after games n today was extremely long journey home as I was feeling so tired. But I had lots of flashbacks. It was dark of course, little cars flowing around. I used to be some night crawler too. I am different night crawler, as in I am not those who club or hang late and become drunken Master. But I rmb, since I have my freedom, I hang out in mamak till late night, go for pool games, basketball sometimes with the BASEBALL BAT i remember in Puchong, of course with the TOOTHBRUSH too lol. Even my holidays in Malaysia everytime I came back during summer, I had lots of great memories just hanging out in the mamak or simply watching movies. It's different now. I know, I am always those guy who's always in second gear and dragging. But, I really felt so nostalgic about it. Nobody is willing to have some midnight bball anymore, or just sit down talking to u for 4 hours in a mosquito heaven place. It's either everyone gets too bored and decided to go home, or everyone rather go drink and get drunk. Like I said, I've nothing against people who drink. I do like to have 1 or 2 just for a chill, but I don't prefer. I know clearly I don't have the DNA of alcohol too anywayz. Can't drink much.
One thing I like about Germany is that, if you are with the right person, whether its winter summer or whatever, you enjoy just sitting outside the park, feeling the cold breeze and stare at the beautiful star studded sky. It doesn't have to be a romantic one. I remember having those moments with my Malaysian friends, guys mostly. I guess its fair to say, we all come from a long way, and we knew exactly how it is to be in a foreign land, while all our close ones are back home. Sadly, I am just too alone here I can't find myself enjoying. Seriously, don't question my ability to make friends, its really the people around me aren't clicking. Perhaps u can accuse me for being too picky, but I wouldn't force myself on things I don't really like. At least I still have my Autobahn internet, and can still watch movies and stuff. Not bad at all.
Life, is like living in a dream within a dream.
Jiwang is back. I've never been using this word since the post where u can find jiwang. Should I explain it again? Nah, I guess those who read will understand anywayz.
First, lets talk about the small little BBA I had, which is a routine Monday thingy. BBA stands for Bosch Basketball Association. Today, we are short of 2 players but still play 4 on 4 full court. My legs till now are shivering, after such tiring game. Initially all went wrong, My shots either didn't reach the basket all was just blocked. It lasted like that for almost half hour. Finally they call for break. While they have their small little chat, I took the ball and keep shooting. Finally found my rhythm again. It was woop, swoosh, dong dong swoosh and the highlight of my game was the fancy no look behind my back alley oop pass. If that guy were a little taller, I think he'll tear the rim apart already lol.
Now the negative from the game. I believe basketball is called contact sports for a reason right? The whole game, I never called a foul because I want the game to flow. I had been fouled few times, especially a small guy like me trying to penetrate the zone with those big guys inside. But I choose to keep quiet. Just let the game flow aint? NO. Every small click of the hand, FOUL. Before you even know what's happening, FOUL. This is really boring. Don't like it at all. C'mon, some even have their arm bigger than my thigh, GDI! But overall it was still quite enjoyable.
Now the emo part comes. As u know, I have to walk home after games n today was extremely long journey home as I was feeling so tired. But I had lots of flashbacks. It was dark of course, little cars flowing around. I used to be some night crawler too. I am different night crawler, as in I am not those who club or hang late and become drunken Master. But I rmb, since I have my freedom, I hang out in mamak till late night, go for pool games, basketball sometimes with the BASEBALL BAT i remember in Puchong, of course with the TOOTHBRUSH too lol. Even my holidays in Malaysia everytime I came back during summer, I had lots of great memories just hanging out in the mamak or simply watching movies. It's different now. I know, I am always those guy who's always in second gear and dragging. But, I really felt so nostalgic about it. Nobody is willing to have some midnight bball anymore, or just sit down talking to u for 4 hours in a mosquito heaven place. It's either everyone gets too bored and decided to go home, or everyone rather go drink and get drunk. Like I said, I've nothing against people who drink. I do like to have 1 or 2 just for a chill, but I don't prefer. I know clearly I don't have the DNA of alcohol too anywayz. Can't drink much.
One thing I like about Germany is that, if you are with the right person, whether its winter summer or whatever, you enjoy just sitting outside the park, feeling the cold breeze and stare at the beautiful star studded sky. It doesn't have to be a romantic one. I remember having those moments with my Malaysian friends, guys mostly. I guess its fair to say, we all come from a long way, and we knew exactly how it is to be in a foreign land, while all our close ones are back home. Sadly, I am just too alone here I can't find myself enjoying. Seriously, don't question my ability to make friends, its really the people around me aren't clicking. Perhaps u can accuse me for being too picky, but I wouldn't force myself on things I don't really like. At least I still have my Autobahn internet, and can still watch movies and stuff. Not bad at all.
Life, is like living in a dream within a dream.
It's already the final part of November, but i can say i am still hung over the great holidays i had in May - July, as well as some magical moments throughout my time in Singapore. Since I was 19, I have to say I am always doing things alone, living life myself. Not that I have no friends, in fact I am so glad I do have real friends, because i don't think i am able to walk down the road being really alone. What I mean alone, is that I am always apart from family and friends. I made new friends of course, but sometimes it's not just so easy to move along.
People who know me, they will think I have a strong mentality and principles. I don't get easily influence by people. Even I used to think that way. But recently, I start re-evaluating myself. I realize I am far worse than I thought. Sometimes when you're always alone, walking the streets yourself, you tend to have more time to think about stuffs. Especially when there's this cold breeze blowing through your face, makes you wake up from dreams.
I always thought I have my own character. It's my personality. I don't mind being the minority. In fact in many situations I am the minority. But now i realize, I am trying hard to be someone. The someone is not just one person, it's a little bit of everyone. In another words, I think I've messed up my whole character building stuff. I might be trained as an engineer, who's suppose to be brilliant in new ideas. Unfortunately, I am not those brilliant engineers. I am good at bring pieces from other people's work and stuff it together to create something i called new. But this ain't new right? Just like my "unique" character i was once proud of. Now i realize, my so called unique, is just bits and pieces of other people's work. I am walking not just behind one person's shadow, i am walking behind alot of people's shadow.
I am nobody.
People who know me, they will think I have a strong mentality and principles. I don't get easily influence by people. Even I used to think that way. But recently, I start re-evaluating myself. I realize I am far worse than I thought. Sometimes when you're always alone, walking the streets yourself, you tend to have more time to think about stuffs. Especially when there's this cold breeze blowing through your face, makes you wake up from dreams.
I always thought I have my own character. It's my personality. I don't mind being the minority. In fact in many situations I am the minority. But now i realize, I am trying hard to be someone. The someone is not just one person, it's a little bit of everyone. In another words, I think I've messed up my whole character building stuff. I might be trained as an engineer, who's suppose to be brilliant in new ideas. Unfortunately, I am not those brilliant engineers. I am good at bring pieces from other people's work and stuff it together to create something i called new. But this ain't new right? Just like my "unique" character i was once proud of. Now i realize, my so called unique, is just bits and pieces of other people's work. I am walking not just behind one person's shadow, i am walking behind alot of people's shadow.
I am nobody.
After writing my previous post, I spent some time actually reading back on those blogs that I've written. Its good as it traces me back to the things i've done in the past. I think I should write more so that it is easier for me to refer back to what i've done next time. But as again, it is mood dependent. So i guess its on and off thingy here.
Well, i'm not quite done with the wonders of human being. I have a colleague who asked me, what is the most important sports in Malaysia? I answer him, badminton. My explanation was that badminton did earn some fame for the Malaysians, and there are not much other sports that bring such international fame to Malaysia than that. I mean, even our beloved olympic silver medalist "earns" his Dato through this sports aint? But i told him if you talk about popularity, i think it is football. Everybody loves football, whether they can play or not. Right? So that makes it popular. So he replied, Malaysia don't even have a international stage football team. Yes undeniable. But as i understand my english pretty well, importance and popularity are define in such as given in my example. right? or?
I guess perhaps i should mention some discrepencies in communication or understanding everytime i blog. I meet different ppl everytime in my life, and of course i have the benefit of meeting quite number of people from around the globe. But, I'd say you don't need that. U see all kinda "weird" behaviour that you can never understand from our own country anyway. Even worse, sometimes u don't even know the person close to you like you always do. So what more to a foreigner?
Philosophies again. Yeah I am an engineer. BORING is my profession. So bare with me.
just some updates of myself. 3 1/2 month since Im here. Weather change from where i depart, 35 degrees sunny, to nice 25 sunny cold air in August, and slowly now its rainy and around 0 degress with the sun hiding at 4pm already. Lifestyle wise, terrible. Lonely. Bored. Emotional and very quiet. Work wise, fantastic. Company is great, project I'm doing is great, definitely gained huge experience.
Things I enjoyed here. Internet speed. It's not Autobahn yet, but it is definitely better than North South Highway. Regular basketball, indoor and good facilities. I don't even get much of those back home nowadays eventhough it's freaking sunny weather suitable for outdoor games all year round. Reason? you know i know. But bad thing is, some guys they're huge, but they can't even bare minor stuff such as a slight hit on the hand, or step on foot stuff like that. Other that, it's the changing room. They are used to being fully naked, with the thing dangling around chatting during shower and stuff. I of course still pretty "Asian" in this sense. Well, not that I don't have the "Quality", just shy. But of course, can't compare la. u can't take a tooth brush and compare it with a baseball bat lol. Basically nothing much else i enjoy here.
Yes it sounds pathetic and no it is not really so. As i always mentioned in blogs and fb and everywhere else, it's not the location that matters. It's the company. You can have hell a great time if u have bunch of buddies that click like errr....click. Whatever. Get it? I did enjoy alot when I was in Duisburg, with those bunch of lamos around, though it wasn't easy either. Trust me, nothing beats home minus the politics.
Thats me......
Again disclaimer. Blogs are blogs. please respect the blogger and the bloggee. u like what u see, good. perhaps some lovely feedback. U dun like what u see, u can take this piece of shit, and scramble like a scramble egg. but don't blame me for any offensive feelings.
Well, i'm not quite done with the wonders of human being. I have a colleague who asked me, what is the most important sports in Malaysia? I answer him, badminton. My explanation was that badminton did earn some fame for the Malaysians, and there are not much other sports that bring such international fame to Malaysia than that. I mean, even our beloved olympic silver medalist "earns" his Dato through this sports aint? But i told him if you talk about popularity, i think it is football. Everybody loves football, whether they can play or not. Right? So that makes it popular. So he replied, Malaysia don't even have a international stage football team. Yes undeniable. But as i understand my english pretty well, importance and popularity are define in such as given in my example. right? or?
I guess perhaps i should mention some discrepencies in communication or understanding everytime i blog. I meet different ppl everytime in my life, and of course i have the benefit of meeting quite number of people from around the globe. But, I'd say you don't need that. U see all kinda "weird" behaviour that you can never understand from our own country anyway. Even worse, sometimes u don't even know the person close to you like you always do. So what more to a foreigner?
Philosophies again. Yeah I am an engineer. BORING is my profession. So bare with me.
just some updates of myself. 3 1/2 month since Im here. Weather change from where i depart, 35 degrees sunny, to nice 25 sunny cold air in August, and slowly now its rainy and around 0 degress with the sun hiding at 4pm already. Lifestyle wise, terrible. Lonely. Bored. Emotional and very quiet. Work wise, fantastic. Company is great, project I'm doing is great, definitely gained huge experience.
Things I enjoyed here. Internet speed. It's not Autobahn yet, but it is definitely better than North South Highway. Regular basketball, indoor and good facilities. I don't even get much of those back home nowadays eventhough it's freaking sunny weather suitable for outdoor games all year round. Reason? you know i know. But bad thing is, some guys they're huge, but they can't even bare minor stuff such as a slight hit on the hand, or step on foot stuff like that. Other that, it's the changing room. They are used to being fully naked, with the thing dangling around chatting during shower and stuff. I of course still pretty "Asian" in this sense. Well, not that I don't have the "Quality", just shy. But of course, can't compare la. u can't take a tooth brush and compare it with a baseball bat lol. Basically nothing much else i enjoy here.
Yes it sounds pathetic and no it is not really so. As i always mentioned in blogs and fb and everywhere else, it's not the location that matters. It's the company. You can have hell a great time if u have bunch of buddies that click like errr....click. Whatever. Get it? I did enjoy alot when I was in Duisburg, with those bunch of lamos around, though it wasn't easy either. Trust me, nothing beats home minus the politics.
Thats me......
Again disclaimer. Blogs are blogs. please respect the blogger and the bloggee. u like what u see, good. perhaps some lovely feedback. U dun like what u see, u can take this piece of shit, and scramble like a scramble egg. but don't blame me for any offensive feelings.
I think we can debate about the right definition of "common sense" and it will never end. Everyone view common sense in such different way. Oh well, since it has to be brought up in this post, we shall make a standard definition of common sense, like the Si unit. Lets say we say, common sense means everyone who's normal should have thought of it. And now it is defined, it is time to speak about the wonders of human being.
What would you do for example, if you know that your knowledge on a particular aspect is weak and you meet up with an expert? Nobody is perfect of course, but if I were in this situation, I will try to listen to his/her advice and think if it makes sense or not. Unless I am confident what the person says is wrong, I will normally take the advice. Common sense right? It gets me really frustrated when I am clearly better and knowing what I am saying, but some people just think they're more superior. Fuck!
I have nothing against people who drink for pleasure. I mean, I personally don't prefer drinking, but alcohol is just a drink, right? Its like some people likes apple soda over apple juice. But some people, just drink alot until they get hangovers and they complain about how suffering it is. Some drink like mad, got drunk but deny of getting overboard. My question, why on earth people do so? where's the common sense? I know I am the minority in this case. But sorry i can't accept this so called "common drinking sense"!
What happen when u constantly get cheated, doesn't matter if its your love or money? Or perhaps i should ask something else. What happen if you have felt down many times from somewhere high up? My common sense tells me that I will be hugely afraid of the things that cause some damage in my life. I guess thats where phobias are developed in some ways isnt it? NO. I know some people who thinks the other way round. Mana common sense itu???
we can't please everybody. Yes it is clear. So if you have to choose who to please, how would you choose? My common sense will remind me that I will choose the people that means alot to me. My buddys for example, or my family or my love ones. But to some, situation comes and they are even confuse who really means alot to me? Ask yourself when you face such situation, are you able to distinguish who really matters to you? Ok my fault. In such case, there're no common sense anymore. Fuck!
I can go on and on about the wonders of my life, because I am some part the majority, some in minority and that sometimes contradict with other people's way of defining common sense. Whatever. It makes me sick of some parts in my life.
Disclaimer: I am not responsible for anybody who link themselves in one of those mentioned above, or felt offended. If you think you are offended, means you probably commited one of those among others mentioned above. So go fuck yourself if u feel offended.
What would you do for example, if you know that your knowledge on a particular aspect is weak and you meet up with an expert? Nobody is perfect of course, but if I were in this situation, I will try to listen to his/her advice and think if it makes sense or not. Unless I am confident what the person says is wrong, I will normally take the advice. Common sense right? It gets me really frustrated when I am clearly better and knowing what I am saying, but some people just think they're more superior. Fuck!
I have nothing against people who drink for pleasure. I mean, I personally don't prefer drinking, but alcohol is just a drink, right? Its like some people likes apple soda over apple juice. But some people, just drink alot until they get hangovers and they complain about how suffering it is. Some drink like mad, got drunk but deny of getting overboard. My question, why on earth people do so? where's the common sense? I know I am the minority in this case. But sorry i can't accept this so called "common drinking sense"!
What happen when u constantly get cheated, doesn't matter if its your love or money? Or perhaps i should ask something else. What happen if you have felt down many times from somewhere high up? My common sense tells me that I will be hugely afraid of the things that cause some damage in my life. I guess thats where phobias are developed in some ways isnt it? NO. I know some people who thinks the other way round. Mana common sense itu???
we can't please everybody. Yes it is clear. So if you have to choose who to please, how would you choose? My common sense will remind me that I will choose the people that means alot to me. My buddys for example, or my family or my love ones. But to some, situation comes and they are even confuse who really means alot to me? Ask yourself when you face such situation, are you able to distinguish who really matters to you? Ok my fault. In such case, there're no common sense anymore. Fuck!
I can go on and on about the wonders of my life, because I am some part the majority, some in minority and that sometimes contradict with other people's way of defining common sense. Whatever. It makes me sick of some parts in my life.
Disclaimer: I am not responsible for anybody who link themselves in one of those mentioned above, or felt offended. If you think you are offended, means you probably commited one of those among others mentioned above. So go fuck yourself if u feel offended.
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