Symbolic things in Life

Sometimes we do things, just to symbolize something.  Like, we do spring cleaning.  Cleaning should be done every now and then, but spring cleaning symbolize a new start of the year.  Stuff like that.

So, I have been doing symbolic things today.  Basically packing.  Packing my memories.  While I was riding to and from work in the bus,  I had some flashbacks on the past 10 years.  Mainly on my relationship legacy.  All the happy times,  the bad times, the crazy times, from East to West North To South.  It has been a roller coaster.  I can still remember almost every single major events bout our relationship.  That's the problem of my brain, too much storage.  Unfortunately I can remember the bad things more than the good things.  I remember just right after high school, she dumped me for some 3 guys she met in church.  Worst thing was, just the day before she dumped, we had like some intimate moments.  So I was told by friends that she do it once, she'll do it twice.  I refute those claims.  And finally gave her another chance.  Then, in 2004 right after my A-levels, she dumped me again for another guy.  I can still remember how i found it out, and was hurting.  They just love giving reasons like wanna return to God or too much pressure stuff.  Ain't love suppose to be enduring?  since when a relationship is completely pressure free?  Then, I thought I've learnt my lesson.  But then again i felt into the same trap and finally she cheated even at a so-called "matured" age and after those we've been through.  I heard so much crappy excuses that i could have written a book that titled "101 crappy excuses a person used to dump their partner".  Some examples .: I got into a new environment and thought of some fresh experience.  Or stuff like, He doesn't trust me (but the truth revealed that they cheat).  So the list goes on.

Anyway back to the "packing".  So after a deep thoughts on all those foolish moments, i finally able to pack my past memories into a "corner" of my brain and throw it away.  This is also symbolized by me deleting all those related to her in my laptop, as well as most of the gifts I donated/ bin it.  Sort of a spring cleaning.  Erm, back to my brilliant days!  No more being a noobish!

So, a little refresh on my past few months.  Hasn't been that good, mainly due to health issues.  On the serious side,  I have spinal disc protrusion.  And that puts an end to my weight training plan & my beloved badminton.  On the bright side,  I am still doing strength training but using other methods.  My coach has proposed two fitness plans - Muay Thai! & TRX training.  Both, intensive weightless training.  Muay Thai gives me the ability to protect myself & beloved, while TRX is intense strength training.  So all in all I am looking forward to be bit and toned up!  Right now,  I have some results,  but not significant yet.  6 packs is seeing the light, and i just have to push harder.  For once,  I am a six pack owner!  Of course,  there are risks.  Anytime the disc may exacerbate but i am not just sitting down doing nothing and get fat tummy.  I am fit!  Fittest 30 year old, and next time i wanna be fittest 90 year old guy!

A more minor issue now is my flu which has been already there for 2 weeks and these two days have developed toothache.  Fortunately the toothache wasn't too serious, and X-Ray doesn't show any obvous nerve infection.  As for the flu, hmmmm.  Just hope it will be ok soon.  I wanna get back to my fitness training ASAP and look good!  All these sums up to excessive medical funds and thats why i'm kinda poor now.

So that's for the health stuff.   Lets do a recall of what else I did.  Phuket BKK trip! was one hell of a trip.  Other than some undisclosed life & death experience, and also some exotic stuff, we get to meet lots of people.  No potential though, but was great.  Can host Victoria from US which we met so randomly in BKK.  She's great and i suppose going to Chicago next time isn't a big problem anymore.  Cambodia trip was the recent one, kinda not so exciting but a relaxing one.  What else?  meeting quite some random people these days, some girls.  But all of them not quite potential to me though.  I'm particularly interested in one, whom I just met for a glimps second in Pavillion the other day.  Teresa is her name,  very clean Korean smooth skin look.  Hmmm.  But she's a little too overqualified for me i felt.  Hmmm, lets see if any progress.

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