Remember what i've said in the previous post? A sad streak is about to fall on me. It'll start today. Today is the 30th August. Today is merdeka eve and it usually where all the good times begin. But this year it's dead end. I have a good memory. This usually is my strength, but it's also my greatest weakness. I can remember all the good moments, not just remembering but it its as if it happens just moments ago. I felt the same thing when i think about it when the incident occurs. I still remember the exact location i was last year at this time around. We were in Starbucks Midvalley. First time taking pics in Starbucks. Went for movie, "Click" if i remembered. Went for supper after the movie in Cheras. Then back to Sg Long. Both of us chatting in the car while waiting for other hommies to join us 4 2nd round of supper. First time I held ur hands after such a long time. Feeling all came back. That's the summary of it.
I'm an emotional person. Again it's my greatest strength and also my greatest weakness. But if given a choice, I wish i could be a cold hearted person right at this moment. I wish there's some drugs that could sterilize my feelings now. Make me numb...!!!!
U know recently i've found out that alot of my strengths are actually my greatest weakness. I've already mention 2 above. Now let me just list the others. Being loyal and serious to whatever i do is my strength and my weakness. My sense of humor, one of my greatest strength, is now my greatest weakness. Usually when i hang out wif a bunch of fren, i made fun of ppl and myself or even non-living things to make everyone laugh. But recently i just knew that sometimes it could be very annoying, especially to girls. I used to be a serious person or kayu u might say, but since i'm in germany i learned that ppl will find more friendliness in me if i start making jokes and laugh out with them. But now i guess i have to cut all the craps and start be more quiet and serious.
Sighz, I guess i'm having my "period" again. I've never been such emo for a long long time. Btw on monday i watched Transformers in Cinema. Well i never thought i would be in the cinema in germany because all the movies are usually dubbed in German. It was a miracle that the cinema near by my place suddenly showed the english version of Transformers. It's been 1 year since i hit the cinemas. See peeps, how i can enjoy my life here when i can't even go to the cinema when i want to? sighz, Again memories. I still remember my last ever movie watched before Tranformers was "Devil Wears Prada". Though the movie was a so so movie, but i had a great time because i had the best company ever.
I believe that in my whole life, there's things i would change. I believe i'll grow up one day, be stronger one day, more independent. But i also believe there's one thing I'll never change 4ever n ever. Like what Tharsis say "Single but not looking for one". I'll be like that. Hope my emos will go away soon. Hope I'll get my internship asap. I'm really sick of this place and i wanna come home.
22 years of life, about 5 years from these 22 years, at least those moments that are still stored in my memory bank, August/September has always been a good month for me. It finally came to an end. Though September hasn't arrive, but i can feel it, it'll be a difficult month for me. Bumpy road ahead. And I'm not so sure how prepared i am to face this bumpy road. Absorbers are not in good form these days to take all those bumps!
This paragraph is dedicated to one of my best and oldest friend. Deepest condolences to you and your family. Your father was a very respectable person. I know life is hard for you at this moment, and it'll be tougher, but as you said "I'M YOUR SON!". Do not fail him. And my role is to support you, no matter what you do, or wherever you are. BE STRONG!
So many things happened this year, it sparks up my feeling of going home more than the previous year. But it's painful, that i know i don't have a choice this year. I'm stuck in this lonely planet, where the things i want to do are limited by loads of obstacles. Instead I'm loaded with things and responsibilities which I'm so not in the mood to think of. I wish i could cry out loud! But i failed. Tears just won't come out. I've no one to talk to. This cold and killing wind made me felt like i'm alone.
I'm listening to musics which are the top of the hits chart in 2001/2002. I'm slowly turning back time mentally. I refuse to move forward. It's killing me to think forward. I know I'm childish, but i don't wish to grow up anymore.
I got nothing else to say.....perhaps i've too many things to say, but just not in the mood......
This paragraph is dedicated to one of my best and oldest friend. Deepest condolences to you and your family. Your father was a very respectable person. I know life is hard for you at this moment, and it'll be tougher, but as you said "I'M YOUR SON!". Do not fail him. And my role is to support you, no matter what you do, or wherever you are. BE STRONG!
So many things happened this year, it sparks up my feeling of going home more than the previous year. But it's painful, that i know i don't have a choice this year. I'm stuck in this lonely planet, where the things i want to do are limited by loads of obstacles. Instead I'm loaded with things and responsibilities which I'm so not in the mood to think of. I wish i could cry out loud! But i failed. Tears just won't come out. I've no one to talk to. This cold and killing wind made me felt like i'm alone.
I'm listening to musics which are the top of the hits chart in 2001/2002. I'm slowly turning back time mentally. I refuse to move forward. It's killing me to think forward. I know I'm childish, but i don't wish to grow up anymore.
I got nothing else to say.....perhaps i've too many things to say, but just not in the mood......
Woohhh...I thought this blog is gonna be taken off by blogger di haha. It's been ages since I scribble something here. Anywayz, I actually lost interest in blogging already. I sort of lost interest wif internet adi. Things like MSN, friendster, blog or skype, somehow I'm not so passionate towards these stuff anymore. I remember last time I could chat for hours in MSN/skype and logging on to friendster is like a daily routine. Anywayz I'll still keep my MSN coz there're still reasons for me to keep it. As for friendster, hmm we shall see.
Yeap! Anywayz I'm back wif a lil updates in case u might think i'm somehow shot dead in germany haha. Well, I was almost dead for the past whole month but luckily I survived. It was my exam period. However in general, I'm quite satisfied with my performance, especially everything was totally last minute. I start to realize that I'm actually smarter than I thought I was. The lack of confidence really made me stupid I guess. Anywayz, I had in total about 30 subs to take in my whole Bachelor course, and guess what, I've completed 16/30 sub in this year. Haha, that's crazy. Ppl think i'm exam freak this semester lolzzz. Well so far i had 2 results out and i did quite good. Well, lets hope i'll get what i expected.
It's 24th today. Last year on the 24th, I was in Malaysia. Sighz, this year i'm no where. I kinda miss malaysia and all the bunch of hommies whom spent their time with me last year. I miss someone really badly lately but I'm clear of what the consequences is. Some things it's easy to turn back, some once it's has passed, there's no more u-turn. Perhaps in the future, there might be some things happened. But 4 now, it's really hurting to think of it. Oh well, faith will decide what i'll end up to be, but till now i'm not confident in myself in this sense. I still believe that i was meant for no one. I'm not a person who knows how to care 4 someone, though i tried. I suck!!!
Oh well, for the time being, I'll have enuf rest, and from next week on i'll start doing some serious business like internships, and do some readings 4 the future. I've spent quite alot of money the whole week eating some good food. Last saturday I was in Maredo wif thars for some steak to celebrate my "microwave and RF technology" having such great result. on monday i was wif thars again in Pizza hut in Duesseldorf. and yesterday was New Orlean Pizza house for some pizza. then to subway to hav some sandwich. Well, after all the hard work, i guess it's worth it.
Gosh, can't believe i'm so tired. Ritez, that's all 4 today. I'm sure i'll be back soon 4 more. Jya!
Yeap! Anywayz I'm back wif a lil updates in case u might think i'm somehow shot dead in germany haha. Well, I was almost dead for the past whole month but luckily I survived. It was my exam period. However in general, I'm quite satisfied with my performance, especially everything was totally last minute. I start to realize that I'm actually smarter than I thought I was. The lack of confidence really made me stupid I guess. Anywayz, I had in total about 30 subs to take in my whole Bachelor course, and guess what, I've completed 16/30 sub in this year. Haha, that's crazy. Ppl think i'm exam freak this semester lolzzz. Well so far i had 2 results out and i did quite good. Well, lets hope i'll get what i expected.
It's 24th today. Last year on the 24th, I was in Malaysia. Sighz, this year i'm no where. I kinda miss malaysia and all the bunch of hommies whom spent their time with me last year. I miss someone really badly lately but I'm clear of what the consequences is. Some things it's easy to turn back, some once it's has passed, there's no more u-turn. Perhaps in the future, there might be some things happened. But 4 now, it's really hurting to think of it. Oh well, faith will decide what i'll end up to be, but till now i'm not confident in myself in this sense. I still believe that i was meant for no one. I'm not a person who knows how to care 4 someone, though i tried. I suck!!!
Oh well, for the time being, I'll have enuf rest, and from next week on i'll start doing some serious business like internships, and do some readings 4 the future. I've spent quite alot of money the whole week eating some good food. Last saturday I was in Maredo wif thars for some steak to celebrate my "microwave and RF technology" having such great result. on monday i was wif thars again in Pizza hut in Duesseldorf. and yesterday was New Orlean Pizza house for some pizza. then to subway to hav some sandwich. Well, after all the hard work, i guess it's worth it.
Gosh, can't believe i'm so tired. Ritez, that's all 4 today. I'm sure i'll be back soon 4 more. Jya!
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