Well, I know it sux to say that I am not recovered yet. I know it also sux to even mention it as that means I'm still thinking about it. But yeah, I rather not lie to myself that I am ok. I am not quite yet. Yes I am handling it much better than the previous time, but doesn't mean anything at all as long as I am still not recovered. Its just easy to remind myself to move on, but its harder that way as I am sort of forcing myself. I guess I'll just leave it natural. Good thing is at least I am still far away. Phase 2 will be the most hurting one, which is the time I am home and more memories will strike me. How do I prepare for it? No idea. I guess it just have to be natural. Perhaps things might happen in the future again, but we've tried so many times and each time it ended up the same. Perhaps we're just not meant to be? We're 26, I guess no point forcing our way. It will only waste more of our time.
So, I spent two paragraph about emo stuff, So I'll stop emo stuff here. Lets talk a little bit about my birthday. As I've mentioned in my previous post, despite still dreaming of having a grand party, I set my hopes low and I know it won't happen. But the good thing about setting hopes low are surprises. On the eve of my birthday, a random BBQ party was called. Well not to celebrate my bday but at least some outings. Nothing much to talk about as just normally BBQ party, with some booze but not much chics lol. As usual I don't drink much, and I ate alot. The only thing worth mentioning was that somebody is kinda skeptical I touched his Ovation guitar which cost him 2000 dollars despite being able to attract some small crowd with some simple song I played. And of course, it seems they're quite noob in setting up fire lol.
My bday, I receive lots of wishes in facebook which I didn't expect as I am quite "inactive". Well I do log in everyday and I do from time to time put some status or comments, but I seldom go and spam ppl's wall or even wishing ppl's bday. But I can't believe I receive overwhelming response from my friends. Thank you for the wishes. The other surprise was that my supervisor bought me a bday card, and a cookbook about the local delicacies. Very special gift. Now I can go back to Singapore/Malaysia and still cook the food here. Another thing was a small shot glass which has the local logo on it. Very great. But the best gift from my supervisor was still the opportunity to do my internship at Bosch.
Actually the best gift overall for my bday is a camera of my choice from my family. My brother and my parents decided to get me a camera and I op for DSLR eventually. The Canon EOS 1100D entry level model. Of course, have to start from the scratch. But well I guess its a good choice no? too bad I can only have that thing when my parents come over. So now I am not with my new toy yet. And its much cheaper to get in Malaysia. That means I have some money to spend because I've save up some for the camera. But not much coz I have to buy air tickets home.
Abit about emotional stuff again. Of course, I receive calls from her as birthday wishes. Something honestly which I expect it to happen. But its clear, I expect it to happen as she cares alot about friends, so I am still one of hers as u count. Its me that find it hard to be friend again as u know, I am the less strong one in relationship.
No more emo stuff. So the Euro trip plan is going quite well with a few more bookings to make and I'm set to go! 5 destination in 2 weeks. The last three is kinda rush, but at least its stil a chance to visit the cities. In overview, 5 days in Paris, 3 days in Prague, 2 in Budapest, 2 in Vienna and 2 in Switzerland before returning to Frankfurt. Its time to start learning DSLR with those nice castle. If not I'll just put Auto and let the cam do the job lol. At Bosch, I am just counting stars. Now I'm kinda free except for one last not important report to do.
I have to start booking on the days after I return this room and before my parents come.
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