thank you, merci, danke

I would like to make a general statement, that 90% of those studying/living overseas would pretty much miss home and stuff that you couldn't get it here. Examples like food, dairy products, stationary and so on. Maybe i was wrong bout others but for me, i pretty much miss everything in Malaysia. Somehow the noodles made in malaysia is tastier than the noodles here, even the pen n notepad i use in malaysia makes me feel more comfortable lolz.

Today one of my Malaysian friend Tharsis return from his 2 1/2 weeks of christmas break in Malaysia. He brought me something that was given by my darling. I was so happy to see those present. I love her and I love everything that she gave me. Though it was what i requested, but you know she'll beautify it so it looks really nice. I requested her to buy some pilot pens for me because i'm quite used to the pilot pen since high school itself. Besides it was also indirectly because of pilot pen that brought our first meeting. During high school, we can't go far away due to transport difficulties but we are so determined to hang out especially during sundays. Sometimes after school we'll head to the nearest popular bookshop just to walk around doing nothing lolz. It reminds me of those time where we always buy pilot pens for each other. Those were the days in high school.

I'll post up the pics...

I was expecting those pilot pen to be just put in a plastic bag but instead my darling use a lovely cute gift box to contain it with a lil small msg card in it. A simple gift but a very beautiful one. Thank you darling.

• I was touched when my darling bought me the casio watch because it's an expensive watch.
• I was touched when my darling gave me the renoma wallet because it was beautiful and it's expensive too.
• I was touched when she gave me a scarf because she knows that winter is coming and it shows she care for me alot.
• I was touched when she bought boxers for me because it shows we're so close to each other and so intimate.
• I was touched when my darling calls me everyday to wish me a good morning and to wake me up sometimes for class.
• I was touched when my darling send some cute mms to make me happy.
• I was touched when my darling calls me to share her probs or her happiness with me because it means that I mean alot to her.
• I was touched when she nag me to work hard on my studies or be strong when i'm down because she wants the best out of me.
• I was touched because my darling accepts my weakness and admires my strength.

most importantly, I was touched because there are billions of men on earth, but she choose to love me. I love you my dear.

ps : this post is purely dedicated to my darling and no intention to hurt/offend anyone's feeling or it's not to show off. sorry for freezing up everyone here.

just blog, no specific title

I just felt like blogging. I'm about to go to bed actually but just couldn't sleep at the moment. Thought of reading something to make me feel sleepy but don't seem to have any interest in any books or reading materials i have. Then i thought maybe i could read back at those post that i've written in the past.

There was one day after my darling read Da Godfathar's blog bout the low class human thingy. She enjoyed it alot and she told me it was funny and also suggested to me that i should write those kinda post once in a while like the one i did it for the world cup. The thing is, I really can't and i don't know why. I mean i really don't have the inspiration to write those funny entertaining blogs at the moment.

Nothing happen to me but somehow i felt a lil down. I guess I missed her too much. I'm sure there are alot of ppl especially those that their boyfriend/girlfriend are far away from them. I really missed her so damn much and I just wish there's a teleportation system which allows me to teleport myself back home right away or teleport her over here. I've been looking at her pics everyday, those that we took during the holidays and those she sent to me once in a while. I just never get tired of those pics. Thats why to those who had their bf/gf always by their side or at least near them, appreciate those times u can spend wif ur bf/gf.

I guess I'm the same old me again, emotional.

you'll always hav to pay a price

I believe every good things or bad things that happen to you, you'll sure have to pay a price for it sooner or later. I've had a streak of nightmares already since last week and it never stops. Some people sleep very soundly at night and they hardly have dreams. It's like they're in a "dead" condition when they're asleep. Others, like me, will have dreams when we go to bed. I have never stop dreaming when i'm at night. It can be a very childish dreams, a fantasy, or some real situation based on what had happen on me, or sometimes,(the most scary part) the dreams i made actually came true after a few days. those dreams that came true, sad to say, are mostly bad dreams.

My first nightmare in this streak of nightmares was bout me in a condition where i get blind. then it goes from me entering exam hall without any preparation at all to even dreaming of me being killed. The worse part of it was that those dreams look so real. I bounce from my dreams and touch every part of my body, then i told myself "what a relief i'm still in one piece". Sometimes i get confused if i'm in a dream or i'm real. I know it sounds like some matrix and dreamworld thingy, but it's scary for sure.

Nowadays, if i wake up in the middle of the night, i'll definately felt hungry. Maybe i'm used to the lifestyle i had during the summer break in Malaysia. I remember having a full meal at 12am, and then another full meal at 2am and 4am respectively. This is how crazy i was. Well, besides missing the night life in malaysia and the nice 24 hours hawkers, the main reason is because I spend most of my night supper with my darling. She bring me around KL to seek for the finest midnight hawker food. Though it has been three months already but I'm still missing it so much. Felt like it just happen yesterday. See this is the price i have to pay for having such a wonderful holidays, and now i have to suffer because I missed those moments so much and all i can do is to hope for time to pass faster so i can be back in malaysia again.

Sighz, it's time to work hard again as exams ar just around the corner. Wish me luck, dun wish me all da best because I really need lots of luck.

wasn't a great hols....

for the past 2 months, I've been waiting to have my christmas and new year holiday. I was working like a cow in a farm with all those labs and i finally get to rest. Although I know I won't be going anywhere for the break, but i'm still looking forward to it.

Now that it's almost over, it's time to do some evaluations. My ex roomies Oliver and Pai Ling came down to my town to visit me. I've not met Oli for a long long time. Had a good time wif him. You know it's funny coz when we were roomies, we don't talk much to each other, but now it's like we're damn good frenz.

Then come Christmas. Christmas was ok as I talked to my darling over the phone. After christmas it was some boring days. I do nothing at home. I read some books but i'm not going anywhere wif it. I'm kinda trying hard to recall wat i've studied and i don't even remember anything. I eat either fried rice, fried mee or pizza everyday. So sick of it but i'm just lazy to go get some meat to cook. You know u hav to chop the meat, wash it, marinate it, cook with the correct ingredients and all, it's just so much work. For the fried rice I just fry it with onions garlic sausages eggs veges and rice. I usually cook 2-3 portion so i can keep for the next meals.

It was different new year this year. I usually go duesseldorf river for countdown and fireworks but this year I just stayed in the room calling my darling. We chat for 2 hours and it was a great chat because we talked bout the past and the present, a lil bout the future. I knoe most of you will find my new year celeb boring, but to me it's special. After all i remember during the countdown last 2 years, I was thinking bout my darling all the time. Honestly i don't fancy countdowns because i hate being in crowded places and i don't really like fireworks display because it's damn noisy but i do enjoy those with my darling. The only countdown i really enjoyed was merdeka eve 2003 where i went countdown wif my darling in Sunway Pyramid.

Well, sounds great right?? yeah those are the good moments. Here come some bad moments. I had 2 big quarrel wif my darling over this 2 weeks. Though i did mentioned before that quarrels are good but we were kinda over the limit. It wasn't her fault and i know she did not blame me, but i blame myself for being such a jerk. Sorry darling. I'm glad she forgive me.

Besides quarreling, I had quite a few nightmares these days. Sometimes i dream of me and my darling in some sad dramatic scene, or sometimes i just dream of myself being involved in some fight or accident. I find it hard to sleep during my first part of my sleep. I went to bed, start dreaming and poof..i had nightmares and i awake. the 2nd part usually is better because i don't dream anymore. I don't know wat's wrong wif me. Usually if that day i had nightmares i'll wake up wif a headache. that sux big time.

I don't enjoy this holiday that much. But i think things will be worse when school starts. I have a few more labs to go and my finals in around 2 months time. After my exams, i have 2 weeks again but i will be busy looking for an internship. my life is getting harder now!!!!