Mission Acomplished supposingly.

When i wrote my last post, I was in a great anger and some mixture of sadness. But after a while, I start to realize things. Yes I was angry at certain person. Now i start to realized that It was purely emotion not rationality. I almost forgot bout the whole point i chosen this path. Now seeing things are going as planned, I shouldn't felt any jealousy nor any harsh feelings anymore. Yeah of course emotion and rationality are usually a big contradiction. I know that my emotion will still conquer me 4 a while, but all in all it was fulfilling the purpose that matters the most. As i mentioned b4, it's time for a 360 change of my life. The first step is to pull out my feet from the ocean. Pull out from all these.

I was in temptation today. I group of juniors made a small feasting session, a sort of "get to know each other" type of gathering. I was among the seniors to be early there because I wanted to play basketball with them. Though the basketball didn't work out because some indian guys took the court for Cricket! The temptation came when they were making a decision to open a bottle of french wine. The moment i held the bottle on my arms, reading the french description of the wine, I start to think hey since i've no more commitment to anyone, I could hav a sip or two. But it was a good thing that i overcome this temptation, reminding myself i am still committed to myself!! In the end, i did not take it.

I've spent alot of money for the last 2 weeks on food and outings. When I speak about outings, u guys would probably think it was some cinema or clubbing etc etc. I find there're more things to have clubbing in a place i call "overseas". I mean if i spent my money here going clubbing, i would get to experience a different clubbing atmosphere here, but thinking bout it there're plenty of good clubs in Malaysia. I rather spend money on travelling, seeing different architecture and learn different culture. I can't imagine when would i have my next visit to Europe after i returned to Malaysia. Yes i had a plan to further my studies somewhere out of germany after 3-4 years of working. but i'm really not sure where would it be. I wanna do MBA but i don't wanna use my parent's money anymore. Of course the ideal case would be that i do my MBA in USA, but it's hell loads of money. Asian country would be a more realistic case. Taiwan, or even Hongkong. Lets' see how the future would be.

I'm slowly trying to throw out some "old" element from my brain. I was so fine when i was having my exam period. That proves one thing, all i need to do is to keep myself occupied wif work. So I'll not think of it too much. I just had too many flashback these days, but seriously though to most of u, my life is kinda dull. But to me i felt that i've actually been through alot. I've trade some precious money for some really good experience here in germany. This few days I've been coming home late, and it reminds me of those time i played bball at 2am in the morning. That's so crazy. But if u think i'm crazy, i'll tell u that there're even people playing at 2am too!! Lolz, guess KL ppl don't like to sleep.

I'm very talkative person. Since i was in primary school, my teacher tells my parents that. Yes i luv chatting, or gossiping. Asking me not to talk for a moment is like putting me in a cyanide gas chamber. But there's a difference between meaningful chatting and rubbish talk. As for me, my own definition of meaningful chats are either heart 2 heart talk, or an argument which both party put in effort to get their point clear. Some people just argue half way and they know they're not able to win this battle, they'll just end with words like "watever u say", "u win" etc etc. This only show how shallow u are. Even arguing, make sure u come out wif a strong argument. Having a good command in that language is an advantage but it's not a requirement. I just hate to argue wif people that doesn't have the skills to argue, sad to say especially girls. I'm not a sexist but most of the time i don't like to argue wif girls. Arguing is never bout winning for me. It's bout how much i enjoy it. Another type of meaningful chatting to me is that, i had a hell lots of laughter during that chatting session. Though my definition sounds different from the norm, but that's what it is.

ANywayz i've crapped enough for the day. I seem to be quite active in blogging again. GUess i could declare that I"M BACK!!!