Results and Beyond

My third paper's result is finally out. Passed but barely. a 4 series. But I don't care, because I don't like this subject and I'm glad it's finally over. Now, left 1 lab work, 1 project, and 1 Thesis. I'm also almost over with my Internship. Finally coming back very soon!. Not so soon, but soon.



Though I've gained alot of experience and knowledge in this 4 years, but I've earned it by trading alot of precious stuff. I miss out alot which I could've have it if I'm still in Malaysia, for example hanging out with my hommies, and family. I've missed out almost every single celebration/festival. Besides, though it's relatively cheaper to study in Germany than other European/American countries, but they still paid alot for me to reach this far. I'm more than gladful, and as I've mentioned before, though I had my disappointed moments, but I'm glad that finally everything is on it's right path. Here comes the critical part, because a single mistake I make will cost me a delay, which is unbarable because I don't feel like using my parent's money anymore. My mom hav to pospone her retirement just because I had a delay in my studies. But believe it or not, it's actually very normal that students here don't grad on time. It's not about failing, because the 3 years duration syllabus doesn't include the internship, and some other time consuming thingy, which is mandatory. On average, a normal student will take 7 sem. I took 8(and hopefully not more), but anywayz, I'm glad I had a chance to do my intern here.

Of course, it doesn't sound as sad as it should. The experience I've gained, regardless of personal life or in technical aspects, it's way beyond expectation and I don't think I would've had it if I were to stay back home. Speaking about the experience gained, firstly it's the fighting for survival during early stages in Germany. I mean it's not that I'm dumped in a isolated island and I have to hunt for food or something, but fighting to settle down. I came here without having a place to stay before hand, and I have to search for rooms here during arival, with no knowledge in German language, no one to pick me up from the airport or so, nothing. The only help was some addresses of some Youth Hostel. So I had to put up a few nights there. Semester had already began so the student hostels are fully occupied, while I don't have the information on how to get a private room here. It was tough, and with a return ticket that I'm holding, I actually thought of giving up and go home way even before course started. Then when accomodation is settled, then comes the formal documents, visa renewal, studies, and so many other things. I will definately make a more detail post on the things I've gone through here, but I'll do that after I finished everything, so I'll have a more complete report.

The point is, I felt I've grown up more or less. But during the growing up process, I actually missed out alot. The first time I met my parents in Ireland after 1 year in Germany, I just thought how come their hair are getting more white than ever. I actually almost cried the moment when i hug my mom @ the bus stop outside my bro's apartment. During the trip, my mom is as commanding as ever, while my dad is as slack as usual. Despite having some unpleasent moments in the trip due to my parents, I actually missed them after they left back to Malaysia. Luckily not long after they return, I also return to Malaysia. But then again it was jsut like a 2 months stay back home, and when I'm back to "hell", again the tough life.

Hey I know graduating is normal. Graduating abroad is normal, and it happens to many of you. But you can never understand my feeling of almost reaching the finish line. I'm not saying that what you'll have gone thru is not as bad as I did, no intention of comparing. Just that, I really want to share this with you guys, or even if nobody reads this, I felt better after blogging, I'm sure Jess knew how blog can cheer someone up more or less.

Anywayz, thanks Jessica for the comments. I know writing song doesn't require much talent if compare to inspiration. The only problem is that I don't have both lolz, plus the lazyness and slackness of my own personality, I think I'll do this after I grad. " I need inspiration, not just another negotiation".