Round up the year of 2007

As usual, every end of the year I will make a summary of what I've done, and how I felt about the year. 2007 overall wasn't a good year for me especially end of the year. I can say almost every step I take was wrong. A year full of regretful stuff. However I still have some enjoyable moments.

So from January. It was my 5th sem and I have hell lots of labs to accomplish. One after another. Nothing much during this month actually. This year I did not go anywhere for countdown, instead I was whole day at home, think i was watching drama/variety shows. Did a lil preparation for exams. Tharsis went home to Malaysia, and I got some gift from my gf(currently ex).

February was a very hectic month for me due to exams. Normally we have 5 exams average per semester. But I took 8 exams, 7 of them are in German. Passed them all except from one, which 5 out of 23 students passed. So I wasn't the lousiest lolz. Had my first valentine with someone I love after 2 years of dry valentine. Received a valentine t-shirt which is still in my cupboard, won't be able to wear it anymore I guess.

First half of March was still exam for me. I've been camping in library almost everyday from day till night. I had a 2 weeks holiday after my exams but I still had an oral exam somewhere in April so had to study abit. Didn't go anywhere far, but went Bochum with Tharsis and friends just to jalan-jalan. Move my furniture around and still not satisfied with my room. I'll do better when I have my own permanent room.

First week of April, one exam and my birthday. Did ok in the exam, though could be better. As for my birthday, not as grand as those from friends, didn't had any celebration basically. I think I had cream soup and bread, self made. Received gifts from my gf at that time. A cute lil bear which is now right beside my speakers on my working table. A hel loads of groceries which is so important, especially those Nescafe 3 in 1 and a pink T-shirt. Though it was simple, but honestly I was happy because I virtually celebrated bday with the one I love at that time, after 2 years. However I wish to have a more grand birthday at least once in my life. Meantime, I've been looking forward for my parents to come over. Been busy planning trips, and planning my studies as well. Took up a project, but screwed up in the end. Around 10th April, a new semester starts, and again I'm planning on taking 8 exams. I took 3 non-technical subjects, which leads up to a total of 11 subjects. Hell yeah!!

May was fairly good. Again I was busy with labs and school stuff. Did the project for 2 weeks, but don't nothing because of that stupid blardy supervisor. In the end decided to just walk off from the project. Fuck him, he's an asshole. Me n my teammate wanted to punch him long ago. Again, did more plannings for the Euro trip. Parents finally came around 26th May, and we took a walk around my Uni, and around this area.

I was still in Berlin and Muenchen during the first week of June. This was my second time visiting those two cities. But Muenchen hav been a fantastic place for me, and I luv it so much there. Came back from trip, had alot of worries bout my future, and then the break up. From then, every step I took was kinda wrong. I strongly believe that my decision was right all the time, but now no more. You see, we can only walk forward according to time, and we can't turn back and change what we've done wrong. I believe even if there exist a time machine, it doesn't help anyway. You can change the process but the end result is still the same. That's how fragile humans are. In this month, I was suppose to start studying as I'm taking 8 exams but I was such a slacker. Everyday jiwanging.

End of July was exam period. I am finally able to start studying but a very slow start. I was still thinking of what I've done and whether it's right or wrong. People say the greatest enemy is ourselves. It's true. I was fighting against myself all the time and somehow I failed to win the enemy on me. But slowly I shifted my attention to studies as I know I have to pass everything, and best if i get a good grades for it. Again, I camp in the library almost everyday from morning till evening.

First two weeks of August, I was still having exams. The week after exams, went out to celebrate with Tharsis in Duesseldorf, partially because of the end of the exams, and partially because I did good in one of the papers. Had Maredo steak, pizza hut and starbucks on separate days in that week. Spent hell lots of money on that week. But whenever I'm at home, I start to jiwang again. I start to hav flashbacks which bring me tears because it was too wonderful to have that experience. I doubt I can have similar memories in the future. Every year I was back in Malaysia around this month, but this year I'm going no where. Being so lonely in Germany, and again nobody understand how i feel. I do admit I had wonderful times, but when the pain comes, it hurts big.

September used to be the sweetest month in my life since 2001. But this year it was kinda lonely and sad month. Nothing really much happen though. I had 1 oral exam at the end of the month and suddenly Kar Sang had a plan to meet me up somewhere in Europe. At first the initial plan was that he'll come to my place and we hang out around here. But I was so afraid he'll waste up his money seeing nothing here. So we plan on a UK trip somewhere in mid October. Manage to get cheap flights. BUt most of the time I was with Tharsis n his friends and as usual searching for my internship. That's about it.

October was slightly better. I went on a trip with KS to UK. We meet up my close friend CK and wan leng. Then we meet up with Soo Fan and Jun. Though I've been London before, but it's so different with different company. Went down leeds, Manchester and Cardiff osso. Now I've been to all da big countries in UK. England Scotland Ireland N.Ireland and Wales. Came back from UK, had a lil up n down with someone. Start to realize more mistakes in life. But on the other hand super busy with application. Tried making tiramisu but failed lol.

November. My first time writing song, first time doing home made video. Turns out to have a good response. For the past 3 months I've been playing lots of guitar. Still hoping for an intern soon. This month I've been very free so I've been trying out new recipes. SOme work some don't. What else??

December. End of the year. Yeah normally this is the most emotional period coz I'll automatically round up the year and start thinking of what I've done throughout the year. Did I accomplish what I'm suppose to? Did I regret in stuff? The first week of December I got my internship. Was kinda happy and relief at least I know where I'm heading. Thought of studying but in the end failed. Played alot of computer games especially with friends. Then come christmas. Just 1 week before Christmas I decided to visit Oliver and Nikki. Went there for about 5 days. Enjoyed quite alot. First time walking in a forest and got lost. Played rubik cube and now I'm so addicted to it I eventually bought one for myself to play. All in all, christmas wasn't that bad but new year was kinda so so. Had 2 friends for dinner together, hang out in my room, playing Chinese Chess. at midnight, fireworks all around and that's bout it.

So, there goes the monthly summary. Once again I'll do an overall summary. The good things are :
1. Travelling
2.completing lots of exams this year
3.guitar and cooking skills improved
4.pick up new hobbies like playing rubik cube
5.meet up with alot of my college mates and KS in Europe
6.Spent alot of money lolx

Bad things are :
1.Done awful moves
2.Being very emo
3.wasted alot of time and money
4.Still a sucker with no looks, no brain and no talent
5.Still severely stuck in da past
6.health level getting worse
7.headaches more often than before
8.Screwed up my personal life
9.lost my personality
10.getting more n more impatient

Happy 2008!!!