sick

My dear is sick today. Sighz, I felt so useless coz while she was suffering from a small flu, I'm in matta fair quarreling wif some OK. I should hav not gone to that matta n spend time wif my dear, could hav made porridge for her. Sorry dear, can't be wif u all the time, esp when u're sick. Hope u take care of urself and remember to take medication as instructed by the doc. No spicy food, cold drinks or fried food for the moment k??

Sorry for freezing u guys wif all the sweet words in these few blogs. Well, u'll nvr understand how i feel. Found wat i've lost, thats the best thing that ever happen to me so far. I can't help expressing all my happiness and sharing all the wonderful time i had within this short 1 month period. I wanna tell a rough story of how it happens.

When i first came back to KL, the second day itself I visited my darling(which wasn't at that time) and my god-sis, both in Sg Long. It was kinda far n Gabe was the man wif the wheels. We had a drink n food in station 1, right opposite my darling's hse. But then she was cold to us, in that 3 hours session, she probably onli spoken not more than 10 sentences while i was the noisy one. We played games and i could see that she wasn't happy at all. Deep in my heart, i actually felt hurt coz way b4 i came back, we were so close in MSN. We chat alot via skype, MSN n even webcamming. It wasn't those kinda outing i was expecting. Bcoz of that, I told myself "dude get over it man, she's havin her own life now n she's not so excited seeing u".

We were cold to each other after that outing, average only 10 sms in 7 days. Then the ice breaker came, on 30th August. Well, as i did mention in my previous post, 30th August has always been a memorable day for me, n to her i assumed(b4 i knoe she also had the same feelings). So i had an idea to go 1 to 1 wif her for an outing, a movie. Without hesitations, she just agreed. I was a lil shock because i never thought she would go on a sort of date wif me again, n its 1 to 1. She gave me the allowance to choose the movie that we are gonna watch. So i decided to choose "click" which i think was the perfect choice at that time. It was sort of a touching movie, and it really shakes my heart a lil. Throughout the whole outing, I had this intention to hold her hands again but in my brain, i kept reminding myself "dude its over man, since 2 1/2 years. Now just frenz, no more no less".

Though it was just a normal typical movie plus supper session that Msians usually do, but to me it was a special nite. Its like we actually get to knoe more bout each other n catch up wat we've lost in this 2 1/2 years. All in a sudden, all the bad impression i had for her since our ultimate break up slowly gone, n finally realized that its just one side story. WIthout further thinking, we checked our schedule to arrange another "date". The next was 6th Sept, 1U for a meal n movie. Well, though we've been 2gether for 3 1/2 years b4, but we've never visited 1U 2gether. I've oni been 1U for 2 or 3 times max. We were getting closer, and this time we hold hands on and off, especially in cinema. It happens very naturally, without any force. After the movie, as usual, supper time again. So we discuss bout our relationship and wat we agree on. I realized that she actually do have feelings for me, by judging deep in her eyes of course. But I don't want to make any conclusion because I wasn't sure how she feels bout me. In the end we agreed on just being "special frenz", which means not normal frenz, but not couple. Sounds complicated rite??

After that supper, instead of sending her home, we parked our car in an isolated area(yeap i knoe how dangerous it was nowadays but we just couldn't let each other go that time.) After a lil chat in the car, we start kissing, again naturally. No dirty things happen so don't ever think bout it. After that kiss, its like the feeling all rush throughout my body. I think she felt the same way.

After that day, we get closer day by day, chatting on the phone, sms and sometimes meeting each other for a drink, something big which i don't wanna talk bout it. All i can say was that incident was a bad thingy, but on the positive side, it brought us back together. After being officially back together, we do have ups n downs, discussions and heart 2 heart talk, honest stuff, everything just spit out. I guess all i have to say is that honesty is one of the key to ensure a smooth relationship. From that on, we were so close and sweet, its like my honeymoon period. I hope it continues to be this way in the future.

Well thats a summary of how things happen between us, which is boring to some of u i guess, but u'll nvr be able to understand how much it means to me.

Thats bout my lil love story. Oh ya, bout why i'm so pissed off in matta fair. I bet this is not the first time u see someone complaining bout all these. K first of all, what do we learn in kindergarden or primary skul?? LINE UP!!!!!! Some bastards cut queue today while me n mom already queue up for half hour, n so as the rest of the queue. Nobody took the initiative so I do the job for them. I pissed those cut queue bastard n i screw the workers in that booth. C'mon man though i've onli work for 2 roadshows b4 but dude I've done a coordinator's job. This kinda things shouldn't happen at all. If u see someone cut queue, pls do something. And its not like they're short of personals over there, I look around the booth n i saw some promoters sitting on the bench goyang kaki. If i were the supervisor, I'll fuck them right in front of the crowd man, i'll ask them to sit down on an invinsible chair n goyang kaki for the whole day. See how long u can tahan. Dude u're paid for doing ur job not goyang kaki. thats bout the workers over there. Then i came to another booth and me n my mom started enquiring bout the flight tics fair to Germie. The person took out a price list n was about to check for us, until a middle age women, in her late 2os or 30s came to ask the same person bout some package tour. At first we thought maybe she just wanna ask a short question. But she kept on asking and asking question. In the end i couldn't stand it, again I raised my voice on that blardy aunty n ask her to piss herself off, n let us finish our business first. That promoter osso damn ngong wan, if i really made a deal wif him, the deal involve around Rm3000++ while the package that aunty was enquiring oni cost around RM200++. Dude let u choose la, RM 3000 or RM200??? Damn sohai. I was so damn disappointed wif this kinda attitude. C'mon man, I dun care if u're dato's son, or nenek's daughter, u're still homo sapians. If u're a guy, u hav an elephant, n if u're a gal......lets just keep it to ourself. U're not different from anyone of us. So plz follow the rules and be a person wif class k?? U dun hav to be a billionair to show u're classy, all u need is just a simple manace. Unless u're not human, then prove to me u're not.

I thought u'll see this kinda things happening in a kampung area, but that was WTC. There're lots of OK around man. Shit man i dun condemn ppl like that but today i was so pissed off.

Guess i better stop if not all the KNNMCB words will be coming out di.